I remembered there was once, I've created an imaginary friend. Thinking back, it was just a lie to myself. I acted as if I'm happy having "her"...but the truth is, I've never felt anything. It's just a way to make people think how happy I am with my life for having "her"...It's just a lie. IT'S JUST A LIE. A LIE.
I've never had a really true friend here that I can share everything about with. NEVER for now.
But, still, I still have faith that one day, Soon, I'd be able to find a true friend who loves me for who am I, and not for being who I'm not.
I JUST WANT TO BE MYSELF. There are times, I just need to feel appreciated for everything I am, for the things I've done for them. But, i don't know why, no matter how hard I grip on the rope, I seemed to fall down into the cliff.
CAN I BE LOVED AND APPRECIATED FOR WHO I AM? I JUST NEED TO BE CRAZY AT TIMES. But I can't find anyone who is willing to be crazy with me. And I just deleted my imaginary friend because she is not even someone who exist, not even a person I can talk to when I'm happy or down...I JUST NEED SOMEONE, A REAL PERSON WHO I CAN RELY ON...
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Monday, August 29, 2011
Hence we must all Conceal Our Feelings
There's a girl in front of my mirror. She is very capable of conceal her feelings of sadness/unhappiness/unsatisfied feelings when people's around her, but...
The only feeling that she couldn't conceal is the feeling of liking a person.
People manage to reveal who she likes. But, people just failed to know when she's not happy because, she always smile in front of people, even though she wasn't happy.
She's a dreamer. She's a loner. She often feels lonely. But she always tries her best to make everyone around her to be happy, she treats other good, but often, she is always being treated as a "bian li tie"...People used her, whenever they needed her help. But when she is in need of help, there's nobody to help her. But still, she tries to cheer up although she doesn't feel satisfied with the treatments she received.
But, still, she still thinks that she must conceal all her feelings, so that nobody would know what she thinks..Especially when she likes someone. :s
The only feeling that she couldn't conceal is the feeling of liking a person.
People manage to reveal who she likes. But, people just failed to know when she's not happy because, she always smile in front of people, even though she wasn't happy.
She's a dreamer. She's a loner. She often feels lonely. But she always tries her best to make everyone around her to be happy, she treats other good, but often, she is always being treated as a "bian li tie"...People used her, whenever they needed her help. But when she is in need of help, there's nobody to help her. But still, she tries to cheer up although she doesn't feel satisfied with the treatments she received.
But, still, she still thinks that she must conceal all her feelings, so that nobody would know what she thinks..Especially when she likes someone. :s
Guessed You'd Never Know That...
I was thinking of you right now.
No, I was thinking about those days working with you in Jurong East Interchange.
I don't know why, though it was my 2nd day working, the first time I met you, the things you said left quite a big impact on me initially.
You looked good, but you're quite mean to me initially.
You told the other guy that people like me (international/Msian) snatch all the places in the universities, causing your all having not much places to be in the universities. Or is it I'm the one who heard things wrongly? Perhaps maybe I heard that wrongly, that I put that in heart that day...And I've finally found my guts to ask you the question,"Do you really hate me, as in being in your country?" ...That time, it was quite silly but yet, funny. You laughed at me, and said that you've never hated me or us (international people)...So, maybe I misinterpreted what he said to the other guy that day. Lol. Sounds funny right? Miscommunication, leads to misinterpretation.
But but but, somehow, I don't know...I don't know what I really want. I don't think that I might like you that much like I like someone else. But, somehow, I kinda miss those days being with you. So, hell yeah, I really don't know what's on my freaking mind.
Thinking back the day when you rushed over to BPP to meet me, I was happy. And I'm grateful that you treat me like a lil sister, taking care of me, and take the time to go back to our booth and check if things were kept correctly. Though you've never work, but still, you cared for the company. Sometimes, I think you're a guy with a mask. It seems that sometimes, you acted like a bad guy, but in fact, you're a good guy inside. But I don't really know who you are. You are so mysterious. It's hard to interpret what you're thinking.
Perhaps, what I really want is, a brother to care about me. And the brotherly love and care you gave me at times, warmed my heart. So, is it what I really want? For you to be like a brother who loves and cares for his lil sister?
No, I was thinking about those days working with you in Jurong East Interchange.
I don't know why, though it was my 2nd day working, the first time I met you, the things you said left quite a big impact on me initially.
You looked good, but you're quite mean to me initially.
You told the other guy that people like me (international/Msian) snatch all the places in the universities, causing your all having not much places to be in the universities. Or is it I'm the one who heard things wrongly? Perhaps maybe I heard that wrongly, that I put that in heart that day...And I've finally found my guts to ask you the question,"Do you really hate me, as in being in your country?" ...That time, it was quite silly but yet, funny. You laughed at me, and said that you've never hated me or us (international people)...So, maybe I misinterpreted what he said to the other guy that day. Lol. Sounds funny right? Miscommunication, leads to misinterpretation.
But but but, somehow, I don't know...I don't know what I really want. I don't think that I might like you that much like I like someone else. But, somehow, I kinda miss those days being with you. So, hell yeah, I really don't know what's on my freaking mind.
Thinking back the day when you rushed over to BPP to meet me, I was happy. And I'm grateful that you treat me like a lil sister, taking care of me, and take the time to go back to our booth and check if things were kept correctly. Though you've never work, but still, you cared for the company. Sometimes, I think you're a guy with a mask. It seems that sometimes, you acted like a bad guy, but in fact, you're a good guy inside. But I don't really know who you are. You are so mysterious. It's hard to interpret what you're thinking.
Perhaps, what I really want is, a brother to care about me. And the brotherly love and care you gave me at times, warmed my heart. So, is it what I really want? For you to be like a brother who loves and cares for his lil sister?
Sunday, August 28, 2011
The Way You Make me Smile
Last Friday night ...
We met at Central Library to mug together. You was late! Again! >.<
But, still, I'm quite happy when I saw you.
It was quite distracting in the first half an hour because I just can't get my eyes off from you...
And I just felt like talking to you. And I laughed at every little things you said because it's just so funny, that my laughter can filled up the quietness of the library.
You said that Arts girls are pretty, whereas Science girls are not so pretty, but cute...
Then I said, "Yeah, quite true. But not to say that Science girls are not pretty okay! It's just that they don't dress up like those Arts girl what. We're pretty, plain and simple ok?"
Then, he said, "Oh...that's why you're not from Arts right? nan guai la..."
Then I said, "So you mean that I'm not pretty lar??!!!" and I did something to him actually. Haha. And he seemed to be quite scared of me for pinching him that time. HAHA!
Then he said, "no no no...I mean, you should be in Arts school de...Not in Science.."
Lol. Though it might be a lie, but it made me smiled for no reason. And he saw me smiled, he felt relieved. WTH?!
HAHA! He was quite cute in any way, but I just don't know why. He kept saying me Noob, WTS. I'm smart okay? Being able to help him find his solution manual for his Engineering book stuff. some more call me "Yong ren (slave)" ...He really treat me as a slave huh? So mean guy! >.< Haha, but till now, I still haven't go and clean up his room. Cause he never tell me when :P And he asked me that day why I never come and clean up his room? I just said, " Cause you never tell me when. Wth" ...Lol. Bad bad guy. Tsk tsk.
Haha. There was once, after a while, I tried to focus on my studies and do my Engineering mod exercise. All of sudden, I caught him looking at me. What the shit. And it makes me felt shocked and paise. And asked him to look at his notes instead. Anyway, despite all these, I know that I was never a girl he would like since I've knew that he liked girls that are damn pretty. And his taste is damn high, after I showed him a few of my pretty girlfriends pictures to compare.
And I really don't understand one thing. He kept saying that I "luan lai" when I was drunk last time, but when I confront him to tell me what I did to him, he never wants to tell me. And tell me that I did nothing! Ugh...I really don't know what I've done to him.!!! I HAVE NO MEMORIES ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED THE OTHER NIGHT? I don't think I've .... him right? Why he kept saying that I "luan lai" to him but he never wants to tell me the truth???!
Orianthi - According To You [with lyrics]
Fell in love with this song after I heard it when I go K with Regina they all. <3
People Changed
Sorry to say,but I fuckingly hate the fact that people do change.
If it's a positive change, of course it's a good thing. But the thing is, it from good to bad, what would you say?
Like it or not, we just have to accept it and forget about it.
And I really find that first impression doesn't works for me.
People who gave me a very good impression on the first meeting ended up being a bad person.
While, people who I don't like at first sight, ended being the person who treat me good.
Argh...Humans are so hard to understand!
If it's a positive change, of course it's a good thing. But the thing is, it from good to bad, what would you say?
Like it or not, we just have to accept it and forget about it.
And I really find that first impression doesn't works for me.
People who gave me a very good impression on the first meeting ended up being a bad person.
While, people who I don't like at first sight, ended being the person who treat me good.
Argh...Humans are so hard to understand!
Friday, August 26, 2011
Decisions in Life
In life, we are full of choices. Sometimes, it's too many that we are often lost in this huge world, and find ourselves in misery when it comes to decide the choices we have to make in life, isn't it?
It's like we can choose to be a bad person, or a good person. It depends, sometimes, we must play the role of being a bad person in order to help someone. But often, when we played the role of being a bad person, we are often portrayed to that person as someone who would harm them.
Hence, perhaps, this is why, even in the roads, we have so many routes to choose from. And it's hard for us to decide when we don't even know which route to choose. If we chose the correct route, it would lead us to the stairs of success. But if we happened to choose the wrong one, our life would be ruined. So, our decisions is really important and we really have to take time to think of them.
Just like when I think back yesterday, why am I wasting time on guys that doesn't even appreciate whateve thing I've did? It's like I've did all those hintings but it's not noticed. But anyway, don't care bout this. Cause I don't even know who I like and what I want. Whatever.
Love is never been a important in my life right? So, it should just stay that way.
And now, MONEY and STUDIES are important.
Though they are quite equally important to me now, still, STUDIES are the most IMPORTANT...'Cause, if I'm really good in them, then MONEY would come to me naturally. So, I have to believe in my abilities. And I would be able to do it.
Though I felt really stressed nowadays with my projects and to catch up with my studies and working this weekends, I'll be able to survive!
It's like we can choose to be a bad person, or a good person. It depends, sometimes, we must play the role of being a bad person in order to help someone. But often, when we played the role of being a bad person, we are often portrayed to that person as someone who would harm them.
Hence, perhaps, this is why, even in the roads, we have so many routes to choose from. And it's hard for us to decide when we don't even know which route to choose. If we chose the correct route, it would lead us to the stairs of success. But if we happened to choose the wrong one, our life would be ruined. So, our decisions is really important and we really have to take time to think of them.
Just like when I think back yesterday, why am I wasting time on guys that doesn't even appreciate whateve thing I've did? It's like I've did all those hintings but it's not noticed. But anyway, don't care bout this. Cause I don't even know who I like and what I want. Whatever.
Love is never been a important in my life right? So, it should just stay that way.
And now, MONEY and STUDIES are important.
Though they are quite equally important to me now, still, STUDIES are the most IMPORTANT...'Cause, if I'm really good in them, then MONEY would come to me naturally. So, I have to believe in my abilities. And I would be able to do it.
Though I felt really stressed nowadays with my projects and to catch up with my studies and working this weekends, I'll be able to survive!
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Plan Failed...
Oops. What I planned yesterday failed. Ultimately.
Instead, I've a call from my boss and ex-colleagues for a mini outing. We went to ECP for a drink and then went to Club Seven. Drank 4 shots and I had a freaking heavy headache. Oh gosh. Why I'm so damn weak sia?
But still, I guessed yesterday's outing wasn't that fun compared to Titanium's outing...But oh yeah, we just got to see hot girls dancing. So, uhm...yeah, that's what we did basically. Drinking, bullshitting, and eating chips. HAHA!
I didn't realise it was already 2am+ when I reached home. And the time I reached home, I straightaway fall on the floor and slept. WHAT THE SHIT?! When I woke up, I tried my best to remember why am I on the floor instead of the BED? Lol max!
And he...didn't reply me anything yesterday after the 2nd message he sent...Hm..maybe he's busy with hall activities? Why do I miss him when I don't intend to start any relationship with him? I also don't know what I actually want...And omg, I just knew he's a VIRGIN! A VIRGIN! All of them said that the guys in Yun Nam are not virgin except him. Hmmm...
And today, we're going KARAOKE! I've been waiting for such a long time. It's like I've been waiting to go K for AGES...~~Gar...
Instead, I've a call from my boss and ex-colleagues for a mini outing. We went to ECP for a drink and then went to Club Seven. Drank 4 shots and I had a freaking heavy headache. Oh gosh. Why I'm so damn weak sia?
But still, I guessed yesterday's outing wasn't that fun compared to Titanium's outing...But oh yeah, we just got to see hot girls dancing. So, uhm...yeah, that's what we did basically. Drinking, bullshitting, and eating chips. HAHA!
I didn't realise it was already 2am+ when I reached home. And the time I reached home, I straightaway fall on the floor and slept. WHAT THE SHIT?! When I woke up, I tried my best to remember why am I on the floor instead of the BED? Lol max!
And he...didn't reply me anything yesterday after the 2nd message he sent...Hm..maybe he's busy with hall activities? Why do I miss him when I don't intend to start any relationship with him? I also don't know what I actually want...And omg, I just knew he's a VIRGIN! A VIRGIN! All of them said that the guys in Yun Nam are not virgin except him. Hmmm...
And today, we're going KARAOKE! I've been waiting for such a long time. It's like I've been waiting to go K for AGES...~~Gar...
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
I WANT TO STUDY AT LEAST 10 HOURS A DAY!!!
Garrrr....Yesterday was shag max. Guessed it's because that I slept only ~2.5hours the day before. Went to library for a short nap at 4pm...slept till 5 something? Then, read up LSM 2201A notes. Then I don't know why the heck I went to CBLC for a while to blog..Haha. Emo-ing again? Haha. Stupid emptiness feeling. Made me emo for don't know what. >.< Yeah, I remembered, I went to CBLC to uhm...check on some technical yet scientific definitions of something...Ouch! Then, went out to meet up with Jerald for dinner at about 6.30pm? Eat and talked till 8.30pm..Oh my...HAHA!
Then, I went back to sleep? OH GOSH! SOMEONE PLEASE SLAP ME! PLEASE >.< LOL!
Studied a lil for a few minutes? Around 30 minutes? Oh gosh. Then, I FELL ASLEEP!! OH GOSH! I WANNA KILL MYSELF. Yesterday wasted time so much. And today woke up at 11am++ . Tsk tsk..:'(
Okay la. Maybe I should give myself an excuse for a short rest? Cause I'm feeling quite unwell right? Sick person should rest more right?? RIGHT? HAHA!
Okay. Since yesterday rest so much till this morning, I should get started with my studies today! NEED MORE OIL. NEED MORE OIL. NEED TO GO FAIRPRICE AND BUY MORE OIL and MUG. HAHA!
Since today I'd be having lessons from 2pm-4pm and 6pm-8pm. And tomorrow lab's starting at 12pm. I guessed I have only a few hours to mug today!!! ONLY A FEW HOURS! WTH!
Okay, this is what I planned:
Readings should start at: 10pm-3am. (LSM 2201A)
Buffer time: 8pm-10pm. ( meals and whatsoever.)
Tomorrow morning:
Should wake up at : 8.30am (but I give myself a buffer time till 9.30am since my fucking ass is lazy when it's on da bed!)
Tomorrow lab session starts at 12pm. So read lab manual at 10am. Uhm...lab ends at 6pm. Buffer time: 6pm-8pm. Readings should start with CM 2161 textbook. Alright, start up my reading from 8pm-1am. But oh, means these 2 days I couldn't do much readings.
Today: ~5 hours
Tomorrow: ~ 5 hours
Didn't achieve much of what I wanted for the day. Oops. So, should find a day to compensate all that. Friday-Sunday! GO GO GO!
Then, I went back to sleep? OH GOSH! SOMEONE PLEASE SLAP ME! PLEASE >.< LOL!
Studied a lil for a few minutes? Around 30 minutes? Oh gosh. Then, I FELL ASLEEP!! OH GOSH! I WANNA KILL MYSELF. Yesterday wasted time so much. And today woke up at 11am++ . Tsk tsk..:'(
Okay la. Maybe I should give myself an excuse for a short rest? Cause I'm feeling quite unwell right? Sick person should rest more right?? RIGHT? HAHA!
Okay. Since yesterday rest so much till this morning, I should get started with my studies today! NEED MORE OIL. NEED MORE OIL. NEED TO GO FAIRPRICE AND BUY MORE OIL and MUG. HAHA!
Since today I'd be having lessons from 2pm-4pm and 6pm-8pm. And tomorrow lab's starting at 12pm. I guessed I have only a few hours to mug today!!! ONLY A FEW HOURS! WTH!
Okay, this is what I planned:
Readings should start at: 10pm-3am. (LSM 2201A)
Buffer time: 8pm-10pm. ( meals and whatsoever.)
Tomorrow morning:
Should wake up at : 8.30am (but I give myself a buffer time till 9.30am since my fucking ass is lazy when it's on da bed!)
Tomorrow lab session starts at 12pm. So read lab manual at 10am. Uhm...lab ends at 6pm. Buffer time: 6pm-8pm. Readings should start with CM 2161 textbook. Alright, start up my reading from 8pm-1am. But oh, means these 2 days I couldn't do much readings.
Today: ~5 hours
Tomorrow: ~ 5 hours
Didn't achieve much of what I wanted for the day. Oops. So, should find a day to compensate all that. Friday-Sunday! GO GO GO!
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
I REALLY HATE MY STUPIDITY
Sigh. Looking at my bank account, the hard-earned money was quite a huge amount I've ever received from any of my part time job in my life. It's $2000+ for the month of July and I don't even work everyday! It's like I worked 4-5 days per week only. And sometimes it's only 3 days. I love that money and experiences I;ve gained from that job. But, I REALLY HATE IT WHEN I HAVE TO SEE ALMOST MORE THAN HALF OF THE AMOUNT I HAVE TO USE TO PAY OFF ALL MY STUPID FUCKING DEBTS!
It's so heartbreaking. I was too stupid. Too naive. Too naive that I involved into MLM stuff. And now I'M FUCKING REGRET! YES, FUCKING REGRET. Should have fuck myself!
Sigh, seeing that I have "throw" these huge amount ...I WANNA CRY! AND I'm REALLY ANGRY WITH MY STUPIDITY...!!! :(
Sounds like I'm the silliest person in the world right? I don't know why people always approach me for stuffs like that? Perhaps I shouldn't reveal my financial difficulties to anyone. Sigh. I really don't know. I REALLY DON'T FEEL LIKE GIVING THAT MONEY TO THEM...ARGH!!!!!! Can I just keep that amount to myself? tsk tsk :(
It's so heartbreaking. I was too stupid. Too naive. Too naive that I involved into MLM stuff. And now I'M FUCKING REGRET! YES, FUCKING REGRET. Should have fuck myself!
Sigh, seeing that I have "throw" these huge amount ...I WANNA CRY! AND I'm REALLY ANGRY WITH MY STUPIDITY...!!! :(
Sounds like I'm the silliest person in the world right? I don't know why people always approach me for stuffs like that? Perhaps I shouldn't reveal my financial difficulties to anyone. Sigh. I really don't know. I REALLY DON'T FEEL LIKE GIVING THAT MONEY TO THEM...ARGH!!!!!! Can I just keep that amount to myself? tsk tsk :(
Life As a LONER
Yesterday was my first time in UTown! Oh gosh. I love the surroundings at there! It's like there is an imaginary sea at there and oh yeah, they have STARBUCKS there as well! The only drawback is I have to walk a 35minutes way back to my hostel from there when I stayed there till damn late night... Like last night, I stayed there to study till 3am..Then have to walk back home all the way to my hostel from there with a super shag condition. Sob max, right?
But oh well, it's definitely worth it, right? I can just buy a coffee from Starbucks, and then find a nice place to sit. Then, pluck in my earphone and picking up After School's songs, and there, read my books :) Oh, such a lovely night! HAHA! I'm ALONE. WHAT THE HELL?!!!
And yeah, I guessed I have to be used to living alone ba. Since I'm always eating alone, eat SUSHI BUFFET ALONE, singing K alone, playing alone, STUDY ALONE :(...And oh, I've never watch movie alone so far..Perhaps I should find a day to watch movie alone when I'm free. So, yeah, THIS IS WHAT A LIFE A SINGLE PERSON LIKE ME HAVE RIGHT?!!!! WHATEVER!
People always don't have time for me...So, I guessed, I'd better off keeping things all to myself and do everything on my own at my own capabilities. I really don't know la. People always ffk me. So, I'm already tired to make all these stupid appointments that will end me up being emo for nothing! So, for what I'm wasting time on humans? Perhaps, I should get myself a cute dog to share my life with. At least, I'm not a LONER in such way. HAHA~! Yeah, only dogs can cheer me up I guessed. But oh yeah, some humans do cheer me up too la..Just that I also don't wanna bother their time so much because people always busy with something. SO, when I'm really down, I should just keep everything to myself. Or just blog it out.
But oh well, it's definitely worth it, right? I can just buy a coffee from Starbucks, and then find a nice place to sit. Then, pluck in my earphone and picking up After School's songs, and there, read my books :) Oh, such a lovely night! HAHA! I'm ALONE. WHAT THE HELL?!!!
And yeah, I guessed I have to be used to living alone ba. Since I'm always eating alone, eat SUSHI BUFFET ALONE, singing K alone, playing alone, STUDY ALONE :(...And oh, I've never watch movie alone so far..Perhaps I should find a day to watch movie alone when I'm free. So, yeah, THIS IS WHAT A LIFE A SINGLE PERSON LIKE ME HAVE RIGHT?!!!! WHATEVER!
People always don't have time for me...So, I guessed, I'd better off keeping things all to myself and do everything on my own at my own capabilities. I really don't know la. People always ffk me. So, I'm already tired to make all these stupid appointments that will end me up being emo for nothing! So, for what I'm wasting time on humans? Perhaps, I should get myself a cute dog to share my life with. At least, I'm not a LONER in such way. HAHA~! Yeah, only dogs can cheer me up I guessed. But oh yeah, some humans do cheer me up too la..Just that I also don't wanna bother their time so much because people always busy with something. SO, when I'm really down, I should just keep everything to myself. Or just blog it out.
Monday, August 22, 2011
Sweet, Sour...Taste of Life
When I read back the old messages you sent, my heart warms up. And a smile was crafted on my face.
Whenever I received your messages, I'm happy like nobody else's business...
But when you broke your promises, my heart died a little. And I started to loose the brightness that I once had.
Maybe I should just never make any deals with you...
Maybe I should just do everything on my own...
But do you know, the reason for every little thing I did, is because I misses you, and I wanted to see you so badly...
But, all those dreams, all those promises you made, was now all drown into the sea...
I've never heard those words from you anymore...
There are things that I'm unhappy about...
You once said I can always talk to you and you'd always be there to listen...
But now, I really don't see that all these words exist anymore...
Even if I'm unhappy and need someone to talk to, I don't know if I should ever find you again?
Tsk tsk...Facts of life that people changed is quite hard to accept, right?
Whatever it is, I've been waiting for you for such a long time d, and you just again, forgotten your promises...
Though I'm disappointed, whatever, life goes on...
Whenever I received your messages, I'm happy like nobody else's business...
But when you broke your promises, my heart died a little. And I started to loose the brightness that I once had.
Maybe I should just never make any deals with you...
Maybe I should just do everything on my own...
But do you know, the reason for every little thing I did, is because I misses you, and I wanted to see you so badly...
But, all those dreams, all those promises you made, was now all drown into the sea...
I've never heard those words from you anymore...
There are things that I'm unhappy about...
You once said I can always talk to you and you'd always be there to listen...
But now, I really don't see that all these words exist anymore...
Even if I'm unhappy and need someone to talk to, I don't know if I should ever find you again?
Tsk tsk...Facts of life that people changed is quite hard to accept, right?
Whatever it is, I've been waiting for you for such a long time d, and you just again, forgotten your promises...
Though I'm disappointed, whatever, life goes on...
The 2 Angels:)
First Angel: Sherry from New York Skin solution...
I met her at work. Okay, I know that my judgement at first impressions are super sucks. So, initially I thought she's not someone who is quite friendly, so, I never talked to her...After knowing her, she's like an angel to me. And a sister. She's always there to cheer me up. Give me support and advices. How I wish she's also a student in NUS, then we can always study together and give each other support. :) And yeah, I know she has to work, and couldn't have much time for me, so I understand. But even though she has less time for me, there are times she would drop by at my FB wall to say "Hi" or message me to ask me "jia you" in the middle of the night. These little things she made actually warms my heart up and made me cheered up the next morning when I saw her message:)
Second Angel: Chong Jia Pei
She was a member from my MSL orientation group. She's outgoing, fun and all. In fact, I've liked her all the time. From first impression to now. We're like good friends. She knew some of my stuff. She's crazy, caring and fun to be with! Haha. And yeah, she loves alcohol! LOL~ She's a cute girl to start with. Adorable and funny, innocent:) She knew that I'm in debt of money and she actually messaged me about something and allowed me to pay her when I have money. She's kind, right? :) So sweet and thoughtful of her. I realized that she's also a good friend too, but why I don't realize it? So silly of me right?:(
I met her at work. Okay, I know that my judgement at first impressions are super sucks. So, initially I thought she's not someone who is quite friendly, so, I never talked to her...After knowing her, she's like an angel to me. And a sister. She's always there to cheer me up. Give me support and advices. How I wish she's also a student in NUS, then we can always study together and give each other support. :) And yeah, I know she has to work, and couldn't have much time for me, so I understand. But even though she has less time for me, there are times she would drop by at my FB wall to say "Hi" or message me to ask me "jia you" in the middle of the night. These little things she made actually warms my heart up and made me cheered up the next morning when I saw her message:)
Second Angel: Chong Jia Pei
She was a member from my MSL orientation group. She's outgoing, fun and all. In fact, I've liked her all the time. From first impression to now. We're like good friends. She knew some of my stuff. She's crazy, caring and fun to be with! Haha. And yeah, she loves alcohol! LOL~ She's a cute girl to start with. Adorable and funny, innocent:) She knew that I'm in debt of money and she actually messaged me about something and allowed me to pay her when I have money. She's kind, right? :) So sweet and thoughtful of her. I realized that she's also a good friend too, but why I don't realize it? So silly of me right?:(
Saturday, August 20, 2011
This is How it Feels
You keep calling my phone non-stop
Don't you know I won't pick it up?
You never leave a message
Look how you've changed
You got nothing to say, gettin' in the way
Show up at my house
You're gettin' so obsessive
Like I have time for you
Wasn't it me you didn't want?
Wasn't it me who was hanging on?
Now I'm done but before I go I want you to know ...
This is how it feels
When you wait for a call that never comes
Are you awake at night 'cause you miss someone?
This is how it feels
When the trust you had is broken,
And you're left to burn with your heart wide open
Oh Oh
You wanted me, not to tell me why
Why and how you had the heart to fuck up my whole life
That's just so you
And now I've moved on by myself
And maybe I won't forgive
I'll just forget you lived
And I hope it hurts
Wasn't it me you tried to blame?
Wasn't it me you threw away?
But before you go there's something you should know ...
You taught me how to hate you
When I was so in love
When I tried to save us it was not enough
So what the hell is different
'cause now that I am gone
You're crawling back to tell me
I'm the one
Oh Oh
This is how it feels
Do you only want me
'cause you can't have me?
Do you only want me
'cause I'm gone?
Don't you know I won't pick it up?
You never leave a message
Look how you've changed
You got nothing to say, gettin' in the way
Show up at my house
You're gettin' so obsessive
Like I have time for you
Wasn't it me you didn't want?
Wasn't it me who was hanging on?
Now I'm done but before I go I want you to know ...
This is how it feels
When you wait for a call that never comes
Are you awake at night 'cause you miss someone?
This is how it feels
When the trust you had is broken,
And you're left to burn with your heart wide open
Oh Oh
You wanted me, not to tell me why
Why and how you had the heart to fuck up my whole life
That's just so you
And now I've moved on by myself
And maybe I won't forgive
I'll just forget you lived
And I hope it hurts
Wasn't it me you tried to blame?
Wasn't it me you threw away?
But before you go there's something you should know ...
You taught me how to hate you
When I was so in love
When I tried to save us it was not enough
So what the hell is different
'cause now that I am gone
You're crawling back to tell me
I'm the one
Oh Oh
This is how it feels
Do you only want me
'cause you can't have me?
Do you only want me
'cause I'm gone?
I Don't Know Why I am NOT HAPPY!!!!
Disappointment hits me. Emptiness hit me. I don't know what I want.
Even my phone is bullying me. I wanna call someone but I can make any phone calls.
I don't like messaging because I'm lazy to message. And the fact of waiting for people's reply is not something that I like..I know, they may be busy with something or whatever. That's why I'd prefer to call when they are free or something. But, thanks to my phone for bullying me.
Tell me tell me. Why I AM NOT HAPPY?!!! This feeling of emptiness, Can YOU LEAVE ME?!
Actually, I might know the reasons leaving me in such a state. But, I just felt like bursting it out! But I've no money to go out to emo. Oh gosh, WHY THE HELL AM I EMO-ING AGAIN!?
I really don't know what I really want. WHAT I WANT? Can you answer me? You can have many friends here, but NONE of them are true, right? People can promise you a thousands of things, but never will they keep their promises. Everyone is the same! EVERYONE!
Is it because I looked as if I'm easily cheated? Easily contented? EAsily be fooled by your words? Why everyone likes to see me as if I'm easily cheated or fooled? I don't say much of my feelings out doesn't means that I don't care or I don't mind. In fact, I REALLY CARE! And I REALLY DON'T LIKE IT!
Why people are such a disappointment? STUPID EMPTINESS FEELING, PLEASE LEAVE ME! Tsk tsk...
Even my phone is bullying me. I wanna call someone but I can make any phone calls.
I don't like messaging because I'm lazy to message. And the fact of waiting for people's reply is not something that I like..I know, they may be busy with something or whatever. That's why I'd prefer to call when they are free or something. But, thanks to my phone for bullying me.
Tell me tell me. Why I AM NOT HAPPY?!!! This feeling of emptiness, Can YOU LEAVE ME?!
Actually, I might know the reasons leaving me in such a state. But, I just felt like bursting it out! But I've no money to go out to emo. Oh gosh, WHY THE HELL AM I EMO-ING AGAIN!?
I really don't know what I really want. WHAT I WANT? Can you answer me? You can have many friends here, but NONE of them are true, right? People can promise you a thousands of things, but never will they keep their promises. Everyone is the same! EVERYONE!
Is it because I looked as if I'm easily cheated? Easily contented? EAsily be fooled by your words? Why everyone likes to see me as if I'm easily cheated or fooled? I don't say much of my feelings out doesn't means that I don't care or I don't mind. In fact, I REALLY CARE! And I REALLY DON'T LIKE IT!
Why people are such a disappointment? STUPID EMPTINESS FEELING, PLEASE LEAVE ME! Tsk tsk...
Nostalgic moments
Don't know why ...I really misses those moments during Titanium outings. Though there are sweet and sour memories, but still, I misses them...:(
Friday, August 19, 2011
My Progress
Maybe it's not wise for me to come back home too early. In the end, I've spent almost 2 hours on FB. Warafak?
Oh well, Studying from 11.30am to 9.30pm...Of course there's break in between! I'm not a non-stop robot...I had lunch from 1.30-3.30pm...Well, you might have been thinking why a 2-hrs lunch? Haha. Actually, if not because I've to go to RVR to return a friend his money, time wouldn't be wasted so much. In fact, I don't know why I don't have appetite nowadays...
Oh well, by the way, I realized that the coffee in Science Canteen has a laxative effect on me! Yesterday I drank it after my breakfast, and straightaway after a few minutes, I went to the toilet to lau sai. LOL. Then I thought I must have been ate the wrong stuff. But, today, I tried again. This time, without breakfast. And again, after a while, I need to borrow the library's toilet. LOL. Again, I experiment myself again. After lunch, I bought the coffee to bring into the library cause I was mugging in the library. Again, after I drank, I lau sai again after a few minutes. But cool, cause I don't feel any stomach pain, just has the urge to go lau sai nia...:P
So, yeah, I need the coffee to give me the laxative effect. Haha! So that my bowel performance is good ma...Everyday pass stool.. :P Oh well, today's progress quite okay. I manage to brainwash my own brain and I just sleep about 30 minutes during the whole duration of study...Twice nap, each 15 minutes...And I've still got 20 pages to finish up Chapter 4.4. :)
Bye!
Oh well, Studying from 11.30am to 9.30pm...Of course there's break in between! I'm not a non-stop robot...I had lunch from 1.30-3.30pm...Well, you might have been thinking why a 2-hrs lunch? Haha. Actually, if not because I've to go to RVR to return a friend his money, time wouldn't be wasted so much. In fact, I don't know why I don't have appetite nowadays...
Oh well, by the way, I realized that the coffee in Science Canteen has a laxative effect on me! Yesterday I drank it after my breakfast, and straightaway after a few minutes, I went to the toilet to lau sai. LOL. Then I thought I must have been ate the wrong stuff. But, today, I tried again. This time, without breakfast. And again, after a while, I need to borrow the library's toilet. LOL. Again, I experiment myself again. After lunch, I bought the coffee to bring into the library cause I was mugging in the library. Again, after I drank, I lau sai again after a few minutes. But cool, cause I don't feel any stomach pain, just has the urge to go lau sai nia...:P
So, yeah, I need the coffee to give me the laxative effect. Haha! So that my bowel performance is good ma...Everyday pass stool.. :P Oh well, today's progress quite okay. I manage to brainwash my own brain and I just sleep about 30 minutes during the whole duration of study...Twice nap, each 15 minutes...And I've still got 20 pages to finish up Chapter 4.4. :)
Bye!
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Aza Aza Fighting!!!
Oh dear...I've halfway reading my Chapter 3 of Principles of Chemical Processes and making notes...And I'm left with about 4-6 pages to finish the whole chapter...And after that, I'll have to continue to Chapter 4..And if can, hopefully manage to finish at least half of the chapter by today. Initially my mission was to study for LSM 2101 as well, but hell yeah, my progress seemed to be quite slow. Perhaps it's because I'm waiting for my laundry this morning and I'm late to start my study...I just started my studies at 11.30am. Then, hell have to meet my friend just to return $200 out of $800. Still need to pay him another $600. And hell yeah, I still owe others, A LOT, HELL A LOT! What the shit! Blame myself for being blinded by MLM stuff. STUPID RIGHT?? DAMN DAMN STUPID!
Okay, just that I've a sudden urge to blog that's why I'm blogging halfway through my studies. And oh gosh, my lappie is so lag and kept shutting off for no reason!WHAT THE HELL?!!!! Anyway, it's good too lar...At least I can't facebook when I'm at home. LOL~ That's why I make myself to go to school and stay back in the library to study! This way, I won't facebook much. ;-)
So, Sherlyn! Aza Aza Fighting! Must work very very hard this semester!!!:) :) :)
Okay, just that I've a sudden urge to blog that's why I'm blogging halfway through my studies. And oh gosh, my lappie is so lag and kept shutting off for no reason!WHAT THE HELL?!!!! Anyway, it's good too lar...At least I can't facebook when I'm at home. LOL~ That's why I make myself to go to school and stay back in the library to study! This way, I won't facebook much. ;-)
So, Sherlyn! Aza Aza Fighting! Must work very very hard this semester!!!:) :) :)
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Tell me where Should I Begin?
People comes and goes in our life...
Some left their footprints in our hearts and remained although we've parted for years...
Some left their footprints in our hearts but gone away to don't know where (to Innisfree?)
I really don't understand. Is friendship long-lasting or what? Why can some people just left a foot print in our heart and just left all of sudden without words anymore? Should I just forget that I've knew you once? Honestly, whatever it is, you've really disappointed me! REALLY!
I thought that I am trying not to emo anymore, but why you have to be the one to make me felt like this?
And also...I really don't know what I want...Please, don't ask me 'cause I myself is also trying to figure it out...
I'm walking down a street with so many choices of routes to go with, and I'm still figuring in the dark which route to take..Trying to see through the rain..but, I can't see anything in the darkness...I guessed I'll have to wait till the Sun shines in and to lead me the way. When will there be a rainbow that warms my heart up? Though it might not be that I'm the only one who feels this way, but I really felt that I'm alone, on my own...It seems that I don't have anyone to talk to anymore...That's all I know. But it's okay, I'll be tough, I'll be strong...I'll look up, and the Sun might smiles upon me. I might be wrong in my decisions, but oh well, life still goes on. I'm just a girl searching for a place in this humongous world. And I shouldn't be crying over someone like you who comes and goes into our heart whenever you want...So, I'll stay strong. But honestly, whatever it is, I will still thought you as a friend though...
Some left their footprints in our hearts and remained although we've parted for years...
Some left their footprints in our hearts but gone away to don't know where (to Innisfree?)
I really don't understand. Is friendship long-lasting or what? Why can some people just left a foot print in our heart and just left all of sudden without words anymore? Should I just forget that I've knew you once? Honestly, whatever it is, you've really disappointed me! REALLY!
I thought that I am trying not to emo anymore, but why you have to be the one to make me felt like this?
And also...I really don't know what I want...Please, don't ask me 'cause I myself is also trying to figure it out...
I'm walking down a street with so many choices of routes to go with, and I'm still figuring in the dark which route to take..Trying to see through the rain..but, I can't see anything in the darkness...I guessed I'll have to wait till the Sun shines in and to lead me the way. When will there be a rainbow that warms my heart up? Though it might not be that I'm the only one who feels this way, but I really felt that I'm alone, on my own...It seems that I don't have anyone to talk to anymore...That's all I know. But it's okay, I'll be tough, I'll be strong...I'll look up, and the Sun might smiles upon me. I might be wrong in my decisions, but oh well, life still goes on. I'm just a girl searching for a place in this humongous world. And I shouldn't be crying over someone like you who comes and goes into our heart whenever you want...So, I'll stay strong. But honestly, whatever it is, I will still thought you as a friend though...
真心的朋友, 还存在着吗?
不要当傻瓜了... 没有人会一辈子对你好... 现在对你笑, 答应你一千件事情...转个头或许在背后说你坏话... 别做梦了... 这边是不会有真心的朋友了..
为了他们,心里的伤痛...觉得很难受...
为了他们,心里的伤痛...觉得很难受...
[Full MV HQ] After School - Love Love Love
This song nice right?? I really like their natural look make up eh...:):)
[HD/HQ Music Video] T-ara - Bo Peep Bo Peep
Cute right??? Lol...:) :) :) Started like this song since the first day Samuel select it in Partyworld, but I didn't post it nia...:)
Monday, August 15, 2011
Uh oh...Did I gave him a wrong message?
I'm not sure...But somehow, when I saw F's message, I am totally stunned. But yeah, I acted like nothing more could happen.
F: Can I meet you?
Me: Uh..Sure, no problem. I'm at CL...
F: Okay, I'll come over now...
Me: Kay sure.
****
F: Where are you?
Me: Level 6. Take the stairs up and I'm just somewhere near the entrance.
****
He reached and dropped by. We chatted casually. Oh well, initially I didn't know anything much. So, thing goes pretty quite well and I assumed nothing happened. After about 20 minute mingling around with me, he said that he's going to have lesson soon...I was like.."Oh, okay...then, you should get going d :) It's almost 4pm..." Then, we said "bye" to each other...
After a while he left, I received a message from him....
F: The reason that I came over is just to see you. I don't know why, but I felt really happy when I can see you. Though the time for us to spare is just a little, I'm still happy and contented (:
Me: Oh..uh...Haha! Yeah, I guessed it's fun chatting with ya too! HAHA! Pay full attention during your lectures ha! :):):)
F: I'd think of you instead...
Seriously, I really don't know what to reply that time lo...It's like after an hour, I only replied that " You must be kidding. Haha. This is the funnies joke I've ever listened to, serious! LMAO~ "
F: Haha. Sorry, I think I've scared you just now...
Me: Haha...Scared of what? Lol. Silly! Funny sia...:P
F: (: Having lectures tomorrow?
The conversation continues till I said that I'm gonna have an early sleep. In fact, I did not sleep yet. It's just an excuse. But the thing is, I'm not sure, but...I don't know if I had accidentally gave him any wrong signals or messages? All of sudden like that...And seriously, what I'd do is to act as if nothing happened. But sometimes, when I will face him, I seriously wouldn't know what to do sia....!!!!
F: Can I meet you?
Me: Uh..Sure, no problem. I'm at CL...
F: Okay, I'll come over now...
Me: Kay sure.
****
F: Where are you?
Me: Level 6. Take the stairs up and I'm just somewhere near the entrance.
****
He reached and dropped by. We chatted casually. Oh well, initially I didn't know anything much. So, thing goes pretty quite well and I assumed nothing happened. After about 20 minute mingling around with me, he said that he's going to have lesson soon...I was like.."Oh, okay...then, you should get going d :) It's almost 4pm..." Then, we said "bye" to each other...
After a while he left, I received a message from him....
F: The reason that I came over is just to see you. I don't know why, but I felt really happy when I can see you. Though the time for us to spare is just a little, I'm still happy and contented (:
Me: Oh..uh...Haha! Yeah, I guessed it's fun chatting with ya too! HAHA! Pay full attention during your lectures ha! :):):)
F: I'd think of you instead...
Seriously, I really don't know what to reply that time lo...It's like after an hour, I only replied that " You must be kidding. Haha. This is the funnies joke I've ever listened to, serious! LMAO~ "
F: Haha. Sorry, I think I've scared you just now...
Me: Haha...Scared of what? Lol. Silly! Funny sia...:P
F: (: Having lectures tomorrow?
The conversation continues till I said that I'm gonna have an early sleep. In fact, I did not sleep yet. It's just an excuse. But the thing is, I'm not sure, but...I don't know if I had accidentally gave him any wrong signals or messages? All of sudden like that...And seriously, what I'd do is to act as if nothing happened. But sometimes, when I will face him, I seriously wouldn't know what to do sia....!!!!
Sunday, August 14, 2011
What I Think about ES2007S
Seriously, just by reading the long-winded description scares my nerves off...I thought it's nice and seriously, everyone was recommending that it's a super worth module...So, I guessed I'm just being to paranoid in the first place..?
Anyway, there are tonnes of readings on the description and what I have to do...Okay, seriously, I had lotsa readings to do despite ES2007S readings. Oh gosh, and to be frank, I've never started any! Eff myself again. Today I just couldn't find the mood to study yet. What the shit?!!!!
Okay, after such a long hours of sleep, I guessed I should get started with all the ES2007S readings and get started with CM 2161 readings then! Oh gosh, how good if I have 36hours per day?
For ES2007S, whatever it is, no matter how afraid I would be in communication, I decided to take this to improve my communication skills. So, I must trust myself that I CAN DO IT! AND I WON'T BE AFRAID OF DOING IT! I CAN DO IT! Just think of " I CAN!" instead of "I don't think I can do this..." I SURELY CAN MAKE IT aND WHAT I NEED TO DO IS TO PUT MY BEST EFFORT IN IT!
Anyway, there are tonnes of readings on the description and what I have to do...Okay, seriously, I had lotsa readings to do despite ES2007S readings. Oh gosh, and to be frank, I've never started any! Eff myself again. Today I just couldn't find the mood to study yet. What the shit?!!!!
Okay, after such a long hours of sleep, I guessed I should get started with all the ES2007S readings and get started with CM 2161 readings then! Oh gosh, how good if I have 36hours per day?
For ES2007S, whatever it is, no matter how afraid I would be in communication, I decided to take this to improve my communication skills. So, I must trust myself that I CAN DO IT! AND I WON'T BE AFRAID OF DOING IT! I CAN DO IT! Just think of " I CAN!" instead of "I don't think I can do this..." I SURELY CAN MAKE IT aND WHAT I NEED TO DO IS TO PUT MY BEST EFFORT IN IT!
FST Orientation
Seriously, initially I don't felt like going because I was shag to the max that I don't have energy to do anything and what I wanted is to get some sleep. But but but...I find it fun, honestly after yesterday. In fact, yesterday was the day where we had most fun!
Friday night, we gathered and had some briefings in LT31. I was so blurred about everything because I don't have the time to read emails and the 5 pages long of the orientation stuff. So, I went there with a super-tired looking...Honestly, I was really tired because the day before I've only slept for 2.5 hours! This explains why I'm that mega tired!
Haha! Then, the freshies came in. Haha. I felt bad being an OGL and not doing my chores. Anyway, I did reject for being an OGL cause I knew that I don't suits to be one. Haha! Anyway, I might not know what the freshies think of me, but I did try my best to be a good OGL (though I know I'm not good enough)...Hmm...We intro among ourselves and played those Ice breaker games. And seriously, THE GUYS IN MY OGs IS THE MOST GOOD LOOKING ONES! Muahahaha!! There are 3 guy freshies, James, Kai Shiun (Sporeans) and Ivan (Burmese)....Cool right? First time seeing someone from Burma! HAHA! Sorry for my hyper-excitedness. It seems that I'm excited about everything all the time and I'm like...on an ECSTASY PILLS! LMAO!
And Kai Shiun and Ivan like to bully me :( Bad bad juniors..HAha! But, it's fun playing with them though, despite I'm being the blur person who always got sabo-ed :) And honestly, It's really good to have them in my OGs...And I love everyone to the max for being in my OG...My juniors are great, smart, outgoing and loving as well! As for girls, like Lydia...Jia Xin...Wan Yu...and mores...They are cute, pretty and smart lads! :)
Do your best in your studies in NUS, my dear juniors! :)
Friday night, we gathered and had some briefings in LT31. I was so blurred about everything because I don't have the time to read emails and the 5 pages long of the orientation stuff. So, I went there with a super-tired looking...Honestly, I was really tired because the day before I've only slept for 2.5 hours! This explains why I'm that mega tired!
Haha! Then, the freshies came in. Haha. I felt bad being an OGL and not doing my chores. Anyway, I did reject for being an OGL cause I knew that I don't suits to be one. Haha! Anyway, I might not know what the freshies think of me, but I did try my best to be a good OGL (though I know I'm not good enough)...Hmm...We intro among ourselves and played those Ice breaker games. And seriously, THE GUYS IN MY OGs IS THE MOST GOOD LOOKING ONES! Muahahaha!! There are 3 guy freshies, James, Kai Shiun (Sporeans) and Ivan (Burmese)....Cool right? First time seeing someone from Burma! HAHA! Sorry for my hyper-excitedness. It seems that I'm excited about everything all the time and I'm like...on an ECSTASY PILLS! LMAO!
And Kai Shiun and Ivan like to bully me :( Bad bad juniors..HAha! But, it's fun playing with them though, despite I'm being the blur person who always got sabo-ed :) And honestly, It's really good to have them in my OGs...And I love everyone to the max for being in my OG...My juniors are great, smart, outgoing and loving as well! As for girls, like Lydia...Jia Xin...Wan Yu...and mores...They are cute, pretty and smart lads! :)
Do your best in your studies in NUS, my dear juniors! :)
Friday, August 12, 2011
Studying...Studying...Studying
Oh my...What a slow progress...Took up almost 6 hours to study two modules but doesn't seem like an ending...Initially I started off with studying for LSM2201A...Cause it looks interesting yto me...Haha! But, guessed what? I spent almost 3 hours+ on reading and making notes but I just manage to read up till only 2 pages of the textbook...What the shit? Why so slow ar? I really don't know. I guessed my mind went off in wonderland halfway studying i supposed..>.<
Then, I proceeded to LSM2101 textbook at 6.15pm...Read up and joting notes at the same time. Memorising+ simple research took up almost 2 hours. Then I go and return the RBR loan book cause can borrow for 2 hours only that book. But now I'm smart le. I go download. Muahaha! Some more it's the latest edition...Wakao!~ I'm smart right, right, right? LOL.
And I'm continuing studying right now. Still stucked at LSM 2101. So far, just read up to 5 pages. Wah, uni books really freaking thick with small small words. How good if it's like a bedtime story book? HAHA! Okler, I wanna continue studying le...Shouldn't blog too much cause I still have CM2161 lecture notes to cover before lecture starts at 8am later...>.<
Bye peeps!
Then, I proceeded to LSM2101 textbook at 6.15pm...Read up and joting notes at the same time. Memorising+ simple research took up almost 2 hours. Then I go and return the RBR loan book cause can borrow for 2 hours only that book. But now I'm smart le. I go download. Muahaha! Some more it's the latest edition...Wakao!~ I'm smart right, right, right? LOL.
And I'm continuing studying right now. Still stucked at LSM 2101. So far, just read up to 5 pages. Wah, uni books really freaking thick with small small words. How good if it's like a bedtime story book? HAHA! Okler, I wanna continue studying le...Shouldn't blog too much cause I still have CM2161 lecture notes to cover before lecture starts at 8am later...>.<
Bye peeps!
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Wish You Were Here Somehow
Somehow, I thought that I wouldn't be able to meet you in school today...
Just when I was about to leave Central Library, once again, I saw you...Unexpectedly...I was delighted. What the shit? I don't know why lo!!! Then, I kept laughing and smiling...What the hell is on my mind? Crazy sia...
Then...right now, I thought you would reply my message de...Sigh, unexpectedly, things change...Things we said together seems doesn't exist anymore...
And I was wishing right now that you're the one sms-ing me instead of other people...>.<
Just when I was about to leave Central Library, once again, I saw you...Unexpectedly...I was delighted. What the shit? I don't know why lo!!! Then, I kept laughing and smiling...What the hell is on my mind? Crazy sia...
Then...right now, I thought you would reply my message de...Sigh, unexpectedly, things change...Things we said together seems doesn't exist anymore...
And I was wishing right now that you're the one sms-ing me instead of other people...>.<
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
What I Did Today
Seriously, eff myself la...Said wanna study, but ended up went to Orchard Central to eat sushi at Sakae Sushi...Spent $34.90 on it but super worth it...Cause can take unlimited pink and red plates...And I ended up taking 7 red, 9 pink, 2 blue, 1 yellow and 1 black plates....So hiong right? 1 person ate 20 plates...Lol...Thats why I'm phobic right now...I ate till wanna vomit le...And seriously, it tasted damn nice, but because I felt so full and I don't wanna waste my money, and also because I wanna make sure that what I ate doubles the price I paid, the result is I'm full till phobic right now...Wts. And seriously, I don't know what's in my mind, but it seems that it's a must to go Sakae each semester before school starts. And oh, I guessed tomorrow no school ba...So, tomorrow need to STUDY!
What the shit man! I really hate myself for being lazy lo...Seriously need someone to scold me I guessed!
SOMEONE PLEASE NAG ME....>.<
Okaayla, school starts on Friday instead. So, no excuses to go anywhere ok?!!! Tomorrow's timetable you've planned. So, please make sure you study accordingly. Uhm...Since there'll be 3 lectures on Friday, 2 hours per module can? And also, spend more time on CM 2161 lectures, do you hear me??!!!!!
Wow, I've glanced through CM 2161 lecture notes and it seems so PHYSICS!~~WHAT THE SHITTTTTT ????!!!
So, tomorrow I'd start off with LSM 2101 first, seems it's interesting to me...Then, look through ES2007S stuff that I've to look at although lecture starts on 16/8....Have to be more kiasu abit ma....Last time I'm not kiasu, that's why suffer...Now have to PIA, PIA, PIA!!!
Then...only study CM 2161....I can predict that I have to spend more time on this module...Since I've no physics background...Wah...Sian max...Hope that I won't feel sleepy studying tomorrow...Ugh...Should I prepare Chicken Essence tomorrow? Sien...I've left with only 1 nia...Cause mummy gave me 2 and I've drank one le... :C
Argh...Wth...I guessed if sleepy while studying I'll go wash my face or go toilet do some exercise...Haha...Cause I'm planning to go Central Library (my fav) to study...If people see I do weird things, they'd think I'm crazy...So, better go toilet do...Muahaha! oklar...I wanna get some early sleep sia...So that tomorrow got energy to study...Good night peeps!
What the shit man! I really hate myself for being lazy lo...Seriously need someone to scold me I guessed!
SOMEONE PLEASE NAG ME....>.<
Okaayla, school starts on Friday instead. So, no excuses to go anywhere ok?!!! Tomorrow's timetable you've planned. So, please make sure you study accordingly. Uhm...Since there'll be 3 lectures on Friday, 2 hours per module can? And also, spend more time on CM 2161 lectures, do you hear me??!!!!!
Wow, I've glanced through CM 2161 lecture notes and it seems so PHYSICS!~~WHAT THE SHITTTTTT ????!!!
So, tomorrow I'd start off with LSM 2101 first, seems it's interesting to me...Then, look through ES2007S stuff that I've to look at although lecture starts on 16/8....Have to be more kiasu abit ma....Last time I'm not kiasu, that's why suffer...Now have to PIA, PIA, PIA!!!
Then...only study CM 2161....I can predict that I have to spend more time on this module...Since I've no physics background...Wah...Sian max...Hope that I won't feel sleepy studying tomorrow...Ugh...Should I prepare Chicken Essence tomorrow? Sien...I've left with only 1 nia...Cause mummy gave me 2 and I've drank one le... :C
Argh...Wth...I guessed if sleepy while studying I'll go wash my face or go toilet do some exercise...Haha...Cause I'm planning to go Central Library (my fav) to study...If people see I do weird things, they'd think I'm crazy...So, better go toilet do...Muahaha! oklar...I wanna get some early sleep sia...So that tomorrow got energy to study...Good night peeps!
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Oops...I guessed I'm too lonely here that I hope you're here with me studying right now...Argh, I need motivation and positive pressure from you... =(
But too bad, I don't even know where you're right now. I don't wanna sms you cause I'm afraid that you'd misunderstood. But I also don't know what I should do. I said I'd follow your advice and learn from you...But what the shit? NUS CORS made me wasted my 2 days away. What the hell man! Pissed with the bidding points and stuff. Sigh... (-.-)!!!
I guessed I should get to sleep now and wake up at 4.30am to study ba!!!
MISS ONG SHER LYN!!! YOU MUST START PULLING YOUR SOCKS UP AND STUDY!!!!! GAAAARRRRR!!!!
But too bad, I don't even know where you're right now. I don't wanna sms you cause I'm afraid that you'd misunderstood. But I also don't know what I should do. I said I'd follow your advice and learn from you...But what the shit? NUS CORS made me wasted my 2 days away. What the hell man! Pissed with the bidding points and stuff. Sigh... (-.-)!!!
I guessed I should get to sleep now and wake up at 4.30am to study ba!!!
MISS ONG SHER LYN!!! YOU MUST START PULLING YOUR SOCKS UP AND STUDY!!!!! GAAAARRRRR!!!!
I Guessed I'll Graduate Later
Shoot me man! I guessed I'm the most blur person in NUS despite being a so-called senior right now! What the shit?
Why is that so?
Hmm...Luckily I talked to Kah Eng about my worries about having only 4 modules. Sigh, if not, I don't even know that I have to take 6 UEs in order to graduate. And in order to graduate on time, I've to fulfil at least 120MCs...As calculated, in fact, I'd need 6 UEs...Really what the shit right?
I slept at 7pm actually...Results of being too tired looking at CORS website and checking all those old NUS emails that I've not checked for ages...Slept till 11.20pm, woke up and saw Kah Eng's message. So, I go to her room since we're from the same cluster (YAY!) ....Then she explained to me how to calculate my CAP, and all those MCs stuff lar...Ugh, I don't know why I am so blur lo...What the hell?!
Then, after calculations and stuff, I still need 1 GEM, 1SS, 4 UEs (provided that I took ES2007S this semester and FST 2101 next semester). And Year 3 sem 1, I'm already having 5 core modules whereas Year 3 Sem 2 I'd have my Industrial Attachment for a semester. What the hell?! So means, no chance for me to slot in any UEs in my Year 3! And Year 2 Sem 2, I'm having 4 cores, and I can take either 1 GEM or SS. So, by having only 4 modules this semester, I'd have to pay for the price by graduating a semester later...Perhaps so? Cause I still need to take 1GEM or SS and 4 UEs!!! So, means i'd need another 5 modules to graduate and it's either by going for Special Term or graduate a semester later...
Tell me tell me? Which choice is better? If graduate a semester later, I still got time to save up money by working part time during semester breaks. But if not, then I'll have to pay every semester break, which I don't think I can afford to...ARGH!!! GRADUATE LATER BA!! WHAT's WRONG TO GRADUATE LATER???!!!! >.<
Why is that so?
Hmm...Luckily I talked to Kah Eng about my worries about having only 4 modules. Sigh, if not, I don't even know that I have to take 6 UEs in order to graduate. And in order to graduate on time, I've to fulfil at least 120MCs...As calculated, in fact, I'd need 6 UEs...Really what the shit right?
I slept at 7pm actually...Results of being too tired looking at CORS website and checking all those old NUS emails that I've not checked for ages...Slept till 11.20pm, woke up and saw Kah Eng's message. So, I go to her room since we're from the same cluster (YAY!) ....Then she explained to me how to calculate my CAP, and all those MCs stuff lar...Ugh, I don't know why I am so blur lo...What the hell?!
Then, after calculations and stuff, I still need 1 GEM, 1SS, 4 UEs (provided that I took ES2007S this semester and FST 2101 next semester). And Year 3 sem 1, I'm already having 5 core modules whereas Year 3 Sem 2 I'd have my Industrial Attachment for a semester. What the hell?! So means, no chance for me to slot in any UEs in my Year 3! And Year 2 Sem 2, I'm having 4 cores, and I can take either 1 GEM or SS. So, by having only 4 modules this semester, I'd have to pay for the price by graduating a semester later...Perhaps so? Cause I still need to take 1GEM or SS and 4 UEs!!! So, means i'd need another 5 modules to graduate and it's either by going for Special Term or graduate a semester later...
Tell me tell me? Which choice is better? If graduate a semester later, I still got time to save up money by working part time during semester breaks. But if not, then I'll have to pay every semester break, which I don't think I can afford to...ARGH!!! GRADUATE LATER BA!! WHAT's WRONG TO GRADUATE LATER???!!!! >.<
I still Misses You although I said I don't
Can't agree much, right? Finding myself still thinking about you at times although I said that I've gave up on you. Wth is in my mind? I seriously don't know.
Monday, August 8, 2011
Sad down and Wept Reading this
A boy and a girl were insanely in love with each other.
They decided to become engaged.
And that's when presents are always exchanged.
The boy was poor - his only worthwhile possession was a watch he'd inherited from his grandfather.
Thinking about his sweetheart's lovely hair, he decided to sell the watch in order to buy her a silver barrette.
The girl had no money herself to buy him a present.
She went to the shop of the most successful merchant in the town and sold him her hair.
With the money, she bought a gold watchband for her lover.
When they met on the day of the engagement party, she gave him the wristband for a watch he had sold, and he gave her the barrette for the hair she no longer had.
They decided to become engaged.
And that's when presents are always exchanged.
The boy was poor - his only worthwhile possession was a watch he'd inherited from his grandfather.
Thinking about his sweetheart's lovely hair, he decided to sell the watch in order to buy her a silver barrette.
The girl had no money herself to buy him a present.
She went to the shop of the most successful merchant in the town and sold him her hair.
With the money, she bought a gold watchband for her lover.
When they met on the day of the engagement party, she gave him the wristband for a watch he had sold, and he gave her the barrette for the hair she no longer had.
Okay..This Sucks but...
My appeal for SC 2215 was rejected. WHAT THE HELL?!!
Well, don't bother about it le...I don't care whether I'd graduate with honours or not. ( Although deep inside I really wants)...but without taking 6 modules every semester which will kill me, I don't get to graduate early. And it'll take 5 years instead of 4 years! 3=>.< =3
And what's now is, I've only had 4 modules with me now! YES, ONLY 4! Which means that my timetable will give me lots of free time and super slack lo..(-.-'')
And I have to save $1000+ if I were to take special term..And for one Arts and science mod, it's $1103 per module..WTF? NUS really knows how to suck the blood outta my body! >.<
Oh...I felt like dying now seeing these amount of money I have to pay if I need to take extra mod during special term. WTS man! Pissed with those who spoiled the market by putting 1900++ points...>.< ARGH!!!! :( Damn sad lo...SC 2215 unable to secure sia...Really whattheshit! :( IT'S SUCH A PAIN IN THE ASS!
Aiks...Anyway, just be positive now ba...Think of having only 4 modules will give you more time to study instead of thinking it in a negative way ba...Jia you Sherlyn! MUST PULL UP YOUR CAP! PULL PULL PULL!! YOU CAN DO IT! :))
Well, don't bother about it le...I don't care whether I'd graduate with honours or not. ( Although deep inside I really wants)...but without taking 6 modules every semester which will kill me, I don't get to graduate early. And it'll take 5 years instead of 4 years! 3=>.< =3
And what's now is, I've only had 4 modules with me now! YES, ONLY 4! Which means that my timetable will give me lots of free time and super slack lo..(-.-'')
And I have to save $1000+ if I were to take special term..And for one Arts and science mod, it's $1103 per module..WTF? NUS really knows how to suck the blood outta my body! >.<
Oh...I felt like dying now seeing these amount of money I have to pay if I need to take extra mod during special term. WTS man! Pissed with those who spoiled the market by putting 1900++ points...>.< ARGH!!!! :( Damn sad lo...SC 2215 unable to secure sia...Really whattheshit! :( IT'S SUCH A PAIN IN THE ASS!
Aiks...Anyway, just be positive now ba...Think of having only 4 modules will give you more time to study instead of thinking it in a negative way ba...Jia you Sherlyn! MUST PULL UP YOUR CAP! PULL PULL PULL!! YOU CAN DO IT! :))
Will You Change?
I'm not sure what am I thinking...But, just now, I was thinking if, you will change to another person after you got to know more people at here...
You know, people usually will change after they enter university...
You treat me good now...You always there to cheer me up when I'm not happy...I can ask for your help whenever I need...But, if you met more people and friends, will you still treat me the same? We had promises together...I made a deal to clean your room once a week...But will things remain unchanged?
I still don't really know what type of person you are. And I'm confused.
You know, people usually will change after they enter university...
You treat me good now...You always there to cheer me up when I'm not happy...I can ask for your help whenever I need...But, if you met more people and friends, will you still treat me the same? We had promises together...I made a deal to clean your room once a week...But will things remain unchanged?
I still don't really know what type of person you are. And I'm confused.
Sunday, August 7, 2011
What am I Hesitating?
Honestly, what would you do if, you think that you found someone who fits almost 75% of your dream guy criteria?
But, just somehow, you couldn't find yourself wanting a relationship with him...
Yes, he's good to me. Perhaps. I think he is, although he liked to make me sort of angry or merajuk...
And he always wants me to help him clean his room when I need his favour. Wth. But somehow, I don't know why I find myself laughing and smiling whenever he asked me to clean his room if I need his help. Wth happened to me?
Okay, please, don't misunderstood. I don't think Missy Sher Lyn is in love. Ok ok???
Just that in times, when she felt "you ren guan xin ta", she'll feel super excited and happy...Ok, please understand that I'm happy when there's someone really care about me no matter you're guy or girl...It's because I've never really felt loved before...As in by families and friends...except right now is my mum that loves me...and I love her too..:)
So, like what he said, I must learn to be a crazy mugger and don't disappoint the ones I love...especially my mum...I shouldn't hurt her...So please, Sherlyn...Learn from him...learn to be a hardworking and smart mugger...will you??
And listen to him..Although he looks like someone who doesn't care, but in fact, he cares a lot...And this is what about him that attracted me. Ok. AGAIN, NOT LOVE, IT'S ADMIRE!! Attracted doesn't mean fell in love har....:P
Semester is starting soon. And I'm trying to be more optimistic and honestly, I'm really looking forward to school right now since it's going to be the starting of my journey and new life. And also, I'm hoping that we'll be studying together often...cause I need his help in Physics...zZzz...See la...I no physics background, now need a "Baek Seung Joo's " help to teach me for my chem engine mod...Suffer sia...Last sem already suffered taking the Level 1000 chem engine mod...Now have to take Level 2000 pulak. ..>.<
Anyway, BE POSITIVE! YOU CAN DO IT!~~~ AND YOU STILL HAVE HIM!
But, just somehow, you couldn't find yourself wanting a relationship with him...
Yes, he's good to me. Perhaps. I think he is, although he liked to make me sort of angry or merajuk...
And he always wants me to help him clean his room when I need his favour. Wth. But somehow, I don't know why I find myself laughing and smiling whenever he asked me to clean his room if I need his help. Wth happened to me?
Okay, please, don't misunderstood. I don't think Missy Sher Lyn is in love. Ok ok???
Just that in times, when she felt "you ren guan xin ta", she'll feel super excited and happy...Ok, please understand that I'm happy when there's someone really care about me no matter you're guy or girl...It's because I've never really felt loved before...As in by families and friends...except right now is my mum that loves me...and I love her too..:)
So, like what he said, I must learn to be a crazy mugger and don't disappoint the ones I love...especially my mum...I shouldn't hurt her...So please, Sherlyn...Learn from him...learn to be a hardworking and smart mugger...will you??
And listen to him..Although he looks like someone who doesn't care, but in fact, he cares a lot...And this is what about him that attracted me. Ok. AGAIN, NOT LOVE, IT'S ADMIRE!! Attracted doesn't mean fell in love har....:P
Semester is starting soon. And I'm trying to be more optimistic and honestly, I'm really looking forward to school right now since it's going to be the starting of my journey and new life. And also, I'm hoping that we'll be studying together often...cause I need his help in Physics...zZzz...See la...I no physics background, now need a "Baek Seung Joo's " help to teach me for my chem engine mod...Suffer sia...Last sem already suffered taking the Level 1000 chem engine mod...Now have to take Level 2000 pulak. ..>.<
Anyway, BE POSITIVE! YOU CAN DO IT!~~~ AND YOU STILL HAVE HIM!
Saturday, August 6, 2011
NUS module bidding sucks max!
Enough of headaches you are giving me. What the hell? Why on Earth I didn't know that today can bid SC 2215 as well? WTH. I bidded GEM 2901 instead, thinking that I might be able to get it. But after checking my email, I was outbidded again. And what the hell, the lowest succesful bidding points is 1000+..Sucks man!
Then I checked the bidding report for round 3A and checked for SC 2215, and warafak, SC 2215 lowest succesful bidding point is 438 only!!! WHAT THE HELL?????!
Ugh, if I knew, I would throw in 550 points and I'll be able to get it...ARGH! *screams and pulls hair*
I really don't know what to do now. Well, wait for round 3B, final. If I don't get SC 2215, I'd die die go appeal. And if I really got it, Miss Sherlyn, please make sure you get an A for this mod ok!!! If not, I'll kill you for wasting points and time and energy in the modules bidding!
And oh oh oh, school's starting. And new life's revolving. I am still learning to be a positive Sherlyn. So, I'm learning from him and Stanley too...Esp Stanley, my gan di, I have lots to learn from him...His spirit, and hardworking-ness...Really need to be like him!!!:)
Then I checked the bidding report for round 3A and checked for SC 2215, and warafak, SC 2215 lowest succesful bidding point is 438 only!!! WHAT THE HELL?????!
Ugh, if I knew, I would throw in 550 points and I'll be able to get it...ARGH! *screams and pulls hair*
I really don't know what to do now. Well, wait for round 3B, final. If I don't get SC 2215, I'd die die go appeal. And if I really got it, Miss Sherlyn, please make sure you get an A for this mod ok!!! If not, I'll kill you for wasting points and time and energy in the modules bidding!
And oh oh oh, school's starting. And new life's revolving. I am still learning to be a positive Sherlyn. So, I'm learning from him and Stanley too...Esp Stanley, my gan di, I have lots to learn from him...His spirit, and hardworking-ness...Really need to be like him!!!:)
Friday, August 5, 2011
Thursday, August 4, 2011
First Photoshoot
Actually last Friday (29/7) is the day when I helped my friends for a photoshoot project. Initially, we were having dinner together and all of sudden Tommy asked me if I wanted to be a model in a photoshoot. Stunned. I said, "uhm...don't want la...I'm not photogenic de..." He said, "Nevermind de...Can go and try..." After his persuasion, I finally gave in and said ok.
9 something we met in the R6 TV room. Tommy has to took photo without clothes. LOL! And I have to take the photo in my red dress. Honestly, I think I sucks in photoshoot stuff lo although I'm interested in being a model...Cause I think that I doesn't look natural in posing...And also I'm not really photogenic...And also I'm FAT! >.<
But OMG! Siew Woon is really a PROFESSIONAL MAKE UP ARTIST despite her age. She's the same age as us. And her make up skills is really FABULOUS! And she has her own make up kit like a PRO where we called it "The Magic Box". LOL! All her make up brands ranged from MAC, NYX, Mary Kay and MAYBELLINE and so on gua...But these are the few brands I remember.
And the way she make up for me really transformed me. She's really geng! I salute her!!! If she opens a lecture class for make-up, I guessed I'll be the 2nd to sign up after Yin Ling...HAHA! And also, photoshoot session is really tiring. LOL. But still, I think I'm more suitable to be the "cute" character rather than the "gorgeous, high status" character lo...HaHA! How I wished I can take picture with my bear bear...I think if they give me the cute character, I can act more nicely..HAHA!
The funnies thing is, Gavin said that in one of the picture, I looked like a blood-sucking ghost. LOL! I hope the outcome of the photos will make me look nice...Very scared sia, cause of my un-photogenic-ness....>.<
9 something we met in the R6 TV room. Tommy has to took photo without clothes. LOL! And I have to take the photo in my red dress. Honestly, I think I sucks in photoshoot stuff lo although I'm interested in being a model...Cause I think that I doesn't look natural in posing...And also I'm not really photogenic...And also I'm FAT! >.<
But OMG! Siew Woon is really a PROFESSIONAL MAKE UP ARTIST despite her age. She's the same age as us. And her make up skills is really FABULOUS! And she has her own make up kit like a PRO where we called it "The Magic Box". LOL! All her make up brands ranged from MAC, NYX, Mary Kay and MAYBELLINE and so on gua...But these are the few brands I remember.
And the way she make up for me really transformed me. She's really geng! I salute her!!! If she opens a lecture class for make-up, I guessed I'll be the 2nd to sign up after Yin Ling...HAHA! And also, photoshoot session is really tiring. LOL. But still, I think I'm more suitable to be the "cute" character rather than the "gorgeous, high status" character lo...HaHA! How I wished I can take picture with my bear bear...I think if they give me the cute character, I can act more nicely..HAHA!
The funnies thing is, Gavin said that in one of the picture, I looked like a blood-sucking ghost. LOL! I hope the outcome of the photos will make me look nice...Very scared sia, cause of my un-photogenic-ness....>.<
One Final Decision...
We've never contacted one another for so long...And I guessed, I'm being forgotten...I've never forget you...Although many things happened around me last few days...
But right now, I guessed, although it's hard, I have to decide...
I guessed I'll give up on you and goes on with my life...
After all, you also made your decision to be....it.
Although seeing it made me sad a lil, but...it's okay.
I'll pull through it eventually...
I'll still wish you for the best still...
But right now, I guessed, although it's hard, I have to decide...
I guessed I'll give up on you and goes on with my life...
After all, you also made your decision to be....it.
Although seeing it made me sad a lil, but...it's okay.
I'll pull through it eventually...
I'll still wish you for the best still...
Evil but Sweet :)
He somehow gave me the feeling like he's Baek Seung Jo and also a lil of Ou Chen's character...
He's a lil like Baek Seung Jo because he's the goody-type that always studies and seldom hang out for chill out...
He's a lil like Ou Chen because he always wants me to tie up my hair...
Never did a guy kept asking me to tie up my hair, but he's the first...WTH!
Asked him to help me to carry my stuff to my new room since I wanna check in...Initially, he said ok. Then, he delayed till 11.30pm because he had a meeting, i supposed? After that, I asked if he's busy. And if he is, then, it's okay cause I thought I can move my stuff alone...But actually I can't. Because I had a box which is freaking heavy like crazy! He said that he's not busy but he wanted to see how I suffer...Then, I said that he's guo fen and mean and so on la...Then, somehow I started to merajuk and said that it's okay le and I don't need his help le...Then, after that, he replied, "Haha. Okay la. Wait awhile, I'm coming le..U go move all the light stuff first ba..." I was delighted la that time...Me merajuk feeling became happy. LOL. Then, unexpected, he came with a friend. And he intro me to him and intro him to me. But anyway, lucky to have his friend help also geh...:)
But the thing is very paise. WTH. This fella take photo of my super untidy room. In fact, not really my room la...Just that it seems that my friend's room got ransacked cause I chucked everything on the bed and it looked like a total disaster. OMG. There goes away my reputation :(
Anyway, don't care about it. He's not my bf! Haha!!!! After helping me carry that super heavy thing, he asked if I still need any help...In fact, I said no and said that he can go back le since he seems like having things on...So I let him go....He asked once more if I'm really okay moving the rest myself, and I insisted that I'm alright with it...After I went away for a while, he called me up again to make sure if I still need his help. Again I said "Nevermind. I can carry the others myself." He actually asked me for 3 times if I needed his help...It was really sweet of him la...
But then, honestly, I realised I'm totally not okay with carrying the stuff myself...Too many le!! :( :( When I carried halfway and my stupid stuff kept dropped to the floor, but I was lucky that Sam saved my life! He saw that I'm in need of help and came over to help me instead. It's sweet to have good guy friends, right??? :):)
p/s: Sam told me before that that guy seems like trying to court me. Cause it's impossible that someone to come over to my workplace just to meet my up and goes home together. And also walked me back every night. (ugh...they too kua chang d la...he just walked me back for 2 continuous nights nia la...where got every night?) And even Sherry said that too! OMG. But why I don't even realise it? And I also couldn't feel that he's having any feelings for me also...??? And the thing is, .....
Uh...I guessed it's better that I shook off this ai mei first la...I just think that it's damn weird to think that people is courting you when they might not be like what others say...But to say the truth, haha! I enjoy his company lo...WTH? I think it's just because I felt there's someone caring about me ba...That's why...But I guessed I didn't have that special feelings for him yet...Cause I felt that something is just not so right lo...
He's a lil like Baek Seung Jo because he's the goody-type that always studies and seldom hang out for chill out...
He's a lil like Ou Chen because he always wants me to tie up my hair...
Never did a guy kept asking me to tie up my hair, but he's the first...WTH!
Asked him to help me to carry my stuff to my new room since I wanna check in...Initially, he said ok. Then, he delayed till 11.30pm because he had a meeting, i supposed? After that, I asked if he's busy. And if he is, then, it's okay cause I thought I can move my stuff alone...But actually I can't. Because I had a box which is freaking heavy like crazy! He said that he's not busy but he wanted to see how I suffer...Then, I said that he's guo fen and mean and so on la...Then, somehow I started to merajuk and said that it's okay le and I don't need his help le...Then, after that, he replied, "Haha. Okay la. Wait awhile, I'm coming le..U go move all the light stuff first ba..." I was delighted la that time...Me merajuk feeling became happy. LOL. Then, unexpected, he came with a friend. And he intro me to him and intro him to me. But anyway, lucky to have his friend help also geh...:)
But the thing is very paise. WTH. This fella take photo of my super untidy room. In fact, not really my room la...Just that it seems that my friend's room got ransacked cause I chucked everything on the bed and it looked like a total disaster. OMG. There goes away my reputation :(
Anyway, don't care about it. He's not my bf! Haha!!!! After helping me carry that super heavy thing, he asked if I still need any help...In fact, I said no and said that he can go back le since he seems like having things on...So I let him go....He asked once more if I'm really okay moving the rest myself, and I insisted that I'm alright with it...After I went away for a while, he called me up again to make sure if I still need his help. Again I said "Nevermind. I can carry the others myself." He actually asked me for 3 times if I needed his help...It was really sweet of him la...
But then, honestly, I realised I'm totally not okay with carrying the stuff myself...Too many le!! :( :( When I carried halfway and my stupid stuff kept dropped to the floor, but I was lucky that Sam saved my life! He saw that I'm in need of help and came over to help me instead. It's sweet to have good guy friends, right??? :):)
p/s: Sam told me before that that guy seems like trying to court me. Cause it's impossible that someone to come over to my workplace just to meet my up and goes home together. And also walked me back every night. (ugh...they too kua chang d la...he just walked me back for 2 continuous nights nia la...where got every night?) And even Sherry said that too! OMG. But why I don't even realise it? And I also couldn't feel that he's having any feelings for me also...??? And the thing is, .....
Uh...I guessed it's better that I shook off this ai mei first la...I just think that it's damn weird to think that people is courting you when they might not be like what others say...But to say the truth, haha! I enjoy his company lo...WTH? I think it's just because I felt there's someone caring about me ba...That's why...But I guessed I didn't have that special feelings for him yet...Cause I felt that something is just not so right lo...
My Prayers for my Customers
Yes. It was about 5pm+. And they were my first customers. And I was so despo that time. Very despo. Cause it's been a long hour that I'm stucked with 0 while the other guy has already 5. To Yun Nam family, you'll know who is that guy...So zai one...I was so despo that I tried to make a cheerful smile while approaching and promoting the voucher to them. In fact, the lady got shocked. Okay, sometimes, in fact, it's already a couple of times that I accidentally shocked my customers with my way of promoting that made them laugh and eventually bought the vouchers from me. They looked interested when I'm promoting the vouchers to them. But....all of sudden, the lady asked me if is it okay for her husband who had undergo an operation in 2007 to go for it. In fact, her husband was in the 3rd stage of brain tumour. That's why she was asking me that. That time, selfishness ate me...But still, I told them that I'll call up and enquire about it...So, I called the Lot 1 outlet and asked if he can go for the hair treatment and if is there any side effects...They told me can go and no side effects...But I'm afraid...I felt guilty after selling the vouchers to them...I'm not sure if the consultants at there are good or not...I really hope that whoever will be their consultants, I HOPE SHE WON'T BE SO PUSHY and HOPE THAT SHE HAS A HEART AND NEVER FORCE THEM TO BUY ANY PACKAGES! They already need to spend so much on his medical fees...Aiks...Why I am so selfish and greedy?? :( Why I sell to them?? And also, the lady's husband was really good. Initially his wife don't want the voucher, but after I persuaded her, he say he'll buy for his wife although the wife don't want to go...But after that, his wife gave in after I persuaded her that she can go together and accompany him to do the treatment, since after all, she's also having some premature graying hair and hair loss as well...
They are really really good to me...And I really don't want anyone to hurt them...!!!! :(
And so, I'd like to pray for them....Hoping that miracle will come and cure her husband's brain tumour so that they can live together for more years...They are so young...And they seemed to cherish one another a lot...And it's really sweet...Therefore, God, please....please cure his tumour so that he can live longer with his wife...I really pleaded Lord...PLEASE...
They are really really good to me...And I really don't want anyone to hurt them...!!!! :(
And so, I'd like to pray for them....Hoping that miracle will come and cure her husband's brain tumour so that they can live together for more years...They are so young...And they seemed to cherish one another a lot...And it's really sweet...Therefore, God, please....please cure his tumour so that he can live longer with his wife...I really pleaded Lord...PLEASE...
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
DEAR NUS,
PLEASE DON'T GIVE ME MORE HEADACHES WITH THE MODULES BIDDING...
IT'S SUCH A PAIN IN THE ASS...
WHY I CAN'T GET SC 2215? I LOVE FOOD...AND I LOVE TO KNOW ABOUT FOOD CULTURES...ARGH..
OKAY. FATE, WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO TELL ME BY NOT GIVING ME THIS MOD AR???
UHM UHM UHM...OKAY. SO, WHAT NOW?
WHAT MODULE SHOULD I TAKE?
ALL MODULES THAT I WANTED HAS FREAKING HIGH BIDDING POINTS...OMG! WHAT SHOULD I DO?? CAN APPEAL MA??????
ARGH...I DON'T KNOW!!! Seniors please help me!!:(
Anyway, good news to share...
MISS ONG SHERLYN WAS AWARDED THE FST ANNUAL BURSARY FUND which pays me $500 per year...!!! ALTHOUGH THIS AMOUNT WASN'T REALLY THAT MUCH, BUT IT's BETTER THAN NOTHING right???:)
And Also because of someone, I'm now more looking forward to schooling...Initially I don't want school to reopen...After his advices and convinces, I aM NOW LOOKING FORWARD TO SCHOOL REOPEN...
SO, NEW YEAR, NEW HOPE, NEW CAP, right? RIGHT ? RIGHT?
Haha...!! AND ALSO THE NEW SHERLYN~~
In fact, I wanna reform back the old cheerful SHerlyn !!!:)
GAMBATTE MASHOU~~
PLEASE DON'T GIVE ME MORE HEADACHES WITH THE MODULES BIDDING...
IT'S SUCH A PAIN IN THE ASS...
WHY I CAN'T GET SC 2215? I LOVE FOOD...AND I LOVE TO KNOW ABOUT FOOD CULTURES...ARGH..
OKAY. FATE, WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO TELL ME BY NOT GIVING ME THIS MOD AR???
UHM UHM UHM...OKAY. SO, WHAT NOW?
WHAT MODULE SHOULD I TAKE?
ALL MODULES THAT I WANTED HAS FREAKING HIGH BIDDING POINTS...OMG! WHAT SHOULD I DO?? CAN APPEAL MA??????
ARGH...I DON'T KNOW!!! Seniors please help me!!:(
Anyway, good news to share...
MISS ONG SHERLYN WAS AWARDED THE FST ANNUAL BURSARY FUND which pays me $500 per year...!!! ALTHOUGH THIS AMOUNT WASN'T REALLY THAT MUCH, BUT IT's BETTER THAN NOTHING right???:)
And Also because of someone, I'm now more looking forward to schooling...Initially I don't want school to reopen...After his advices and convinces, I aM NOW LOOKING FORWARD TO SCHOOL REOPEN...
SO, NEW YEAR, NEW HOPE, NEW CAP, right? RIGHT ? RIGHT?
Haha...!! AND ALSO THE NEW SHERLYN~~
In fact, I wanna reform back the old cheerful SHerlyn !!!:)
GAMBATTE MASHOU~~
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
New Love For Me??
L sent me home just now...In fact, we met after work...Honestly, it was surprising la..I never expect him to come...Then, I was so guilty that he found out that I lied to him that Jerald hven't back home...Cause I actually was on the phone with him, and I was at Daiso that time...I thought he haven't reach Bukit Panjang Plaza...So, I lied to him that Jerald is still with me so that he won't worry about me...But, I was freaking surprised when he suddenly asked me "Jerald really still with you? Are you sure?" And I turned back and saw him. Okay. Shoot myself. I lied to him and I was caught. Then, I told him honestly that I lied to him so that he won't worry about me...
He forgave me somehow la...Anyway, then we talked about other stuff and then went back together...That guy was so mean >.< He kept saying that I'm heavy and fat.. :( Ugh...I know la..And I can't remember which situation that made me said that " I know la...I don't have a nice body shape like other pretty girls la...And i'm not pretty la..." Ugh...And he kept laughing at me and said " Ni zhe dao jiu hao..." What the hell?
Then, we walked back home and ate supper at SuperSnacks! haha...I owed him a meal now la...Cause I don't have money to eat today that i didn't take my dinner at all, I thought of borrowing money from him first because my tummy is in pain and I'm so freaking hungry...Then, he said that he don't lend people money, so he treated me...:)
After supper, we sat and lie down by the fountain there, gazing at the stars and chatted a lot..I talked a lot about my mum to him... Honestly I don't know why I would tell him so much...After that, he sent me back to R2 lounge...And Sam they all saw him together with me...
And Sam said that he might have feelings for me...But I guessed not ba...Since he knew that my heart already had someone there...
He forgave me somehow la...Anyway, then we talked about other stuff and then went back together...That guy was so mean >.< He kept saying that I'm heavy and fat.. :( Ugh...I know la..And I can't remember which situation that made me said that " I know la...I don't have a nice body shape like other pretty girls la...And i'm not pretty la..." Ugh...And he kept laughing at me and said " Ni zhe dao jiu hao..." What the hell?
Then, we walked back home and ate supper at SuperSnacks! haha...I owed him a meal now la...Cause I don't have money to eat today that i didn't take my dinner at all, I thought of borrowing money from him first because my tummy is in pain and I'm so freaking hungry...Then, he said that he don't lend people money, so he treated me...:)
After supper, we sat and lie down by the fountain there, gazing at the stars and chatted a lot..I talked a lot about my mum to him... Honestly I don't know why I would tell him so much...After that, he sent me back to R2 lounge...And Sam they all saw him together with me...
And Sam said that he might have feelings for me...But I guessed not ba...Since he knew that my heart already had someone there...
Going off to work soon! Well, wish me luck in my battleship with 2 qiang ren...
OMG OMG...I'm scared actually...But have to brave myself up...
Please give me back my cheerful mood so that I can perform better today...
So, aim 3rd tier today can??
If can't, at least 2nd tier please!
Yesterday met up with James. He's freaking funny. Wth. Ask me to come over to help him clean up his room...Cause he said that I'll have to be his "maid" if I want him to tell me what happened that night when I'm drunk. See? So mean ba? LOL LOL LOL...
But in the end, I ended up eating fried rice together with him and I did help him to put on the bed sheet la...Then, his friend came in. And 3 of us watched the NUS funny videos together...Damn epic sia...Especially the NTU lecturer feedback...WTH...I think I laughed the loudest and James keep hitting my head (not that hard la)...>.<
I realized I have lots of thing to learn from him...His determination, hardworking and lots more actually...Hmm...
OMG OMG...I'm scared actually...But have to brave myself up...
Please give me back my cheerful mood so that I can perform better today...
So, aim 3rd tier today can??
If can't, at least 2nd tier please!
Yesterday met up with James. He's freaking funny. Wth. Ask me to come over to help him clean up his room...Cause he said that I'll have to be his "maid" if I want him to tell me what happened that night when I'm drunk. See? So mean ba? LOL LOL LOL...
But in the end, I ended up eating fried rice together with him and I did help him to put on the bed sheet la...Then, his friend came in. And 3 of us watched the NUS funny videos together...Damn epic sia...Especially the NTU lecturer feedback...WTH...I think I laughed the loudest and James keep hitting my head (not that hard la)...>.<
I realized I have lots of thing to learn from him...His determination, hardworking and lots more actually...Hmm...
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