My Phone Sex Partner

Watched My Phone Sex Partner yesterday and realized that me and Yoon Jeong had quite a few similarities (and differences of course).

I won't go into too details what are our similarities though. But I know, just like her, I'm just an average girl who wants stability in a relationship. Love is so confusing. It seems that we know what we wanted, but at times, we can't make up our mind...We are just an average person with nothing, who are we to ask for much things? *deep silent*

A few things I learned though:

1) You know, sometimes the harder we tried to please someone, the more we looked like a fool.

2) It's really pathetic to pretend to be blind. Sometimes, we may keep our eyes closed because we value the relationship, but it doesn't mean we don't know. We knew that if we speak up, it could end the relationship. Then, slowly, it becomes something. It's not the sense of betrayal. It's the unfamiliarity that you first felt.

3) Love is a cycle - we meet, fall in love, part away, get hurt and we meet again. Some people get married because they're tired repeating the cycle. I just hope that I can always be in the "fall in love" stage forever.

4) " I Love You" - what it actually means? Does it became a routine? Or the words that can just easily came off from our mouth? When someone said this, how can we be sure if it's genuine or it's just because it's a routine? Does someone say this because they really felt it that way? That special kind of feeling?

Anyway, if you're interested in the summary, here is the link: http://dramadebussie.com/2013/01/14/drama-debussie-summary-review-my-p-s-partner-2012/

I felt that I can really watch this movie again and again. Cried so bad for the first time watching. I didn't know it could be this sad. Nevertheless, this movie is really of a fresh idea. I like the story line and how it climax. My rating for this movie? 5/5 of course. For me, it's perfect. :)

Day 0 and Day 1 Summary @ Abbott

Day 0 (13/5/2013)

Today was awesome. Initially, I thought I'd be dead. My phone clock shows that it was 8.35am when I reached Centros :(  But, the moment I reached Abbott at Level 9, their clock shows 8.30am. I thanked God that I was just on time, instead of late. And luckily, there was another intern peer in the same lift as me, coming for the on-boarding session. So, at least, I wasn't the "latest" for that session. :\

But, I think I didn't really give a good initial impression, due to the sweat from climbing up the hill and activated panic button in my body. So, I keep trying to make myself to cool down while Payal gave her introduction about her and the aim of the orientation. Luckily, I managed to cool down by the time she asked us to form groups and find 10 common things that everyone in the group shared. It was fun. From there, I got to know Edmund, Noviabella, Elaine (she's from FST too, but my junior :)), and Roanna (she's really very smart). So, we did a quick ice-breaking and tried very hard to find 10 common things that all of us shared. All of us are from NUS except Roanna (she's from NTU).

After that small game, we get back to our seats and listen to Payal continuing her talk. However, I noticed that the girl (Fan Hui) who sat opposite me, kept giving me stares as if I'm her enemy :(
Seriously, I've never even met her or talked to her. So, I don't understand why she would seemed to hate me so much. Initially, I thought maybe she just looked that way but it proves me wrong when we're in the same lift after the on-boarding session. Her face filled with so much hatred when she saw me entering the lift with Yanyao. Seriously, I don't know since when I stepped on her nerves. IS it even possible for someone to hate you that much although you've never even met or interacted? I never steal her bf for sure. But why?

Okay, let's not allow one spoiled egg to spoil my mood. Then, Mr. Chandra came and give us a talk. His speech was truly engaging and interacting. He has a lot of humor too. So, I laughed a lot throughout his talk. In fact, I think I laughed too loud in one of his jokes. Oops. There goes my innocent, quiet reputation. LOL. Sometimes, though, I'm afraid of his question. He would randomly call your name and ask you question to make sure that you actually listen to what he talked. LOL. And yeah, there's also a lot of group work/games. and brainstorming session. Most of the tasks given involves a lot of brainstorming for ideas and our views.

Then we had a break and sandwich for lunch. I didn't expect sandwich can be that filling. Hahahaa. but it's yummy. They also serve us fruits. Omnomnom :) Also, I managed to talk to Yanyao who was in the same lift with me this morning and sat beside me :) Later on, I also talked  to some other people who were not from my group - eg. Yoon Her (she's a Korean <3_<3 and she's pretty too!). Ehh...I was too shy among the guys, so I didn't even ask them :(   Although I really wanted to know Stanley. I think he's cute and looks like a Korean actor. LOL. Hahahahaha! The on-boarding session ended at 5pm. So, we dismissed and went back around 5.05pm. Overall, it's really great!

Day 1 (14/5/2013)

So, I came early today ^_^  Am supposed to report around 9am, but reached Centros around 8.35am. Seriously, everyday working at Abbott may make you slim. Hahahaha. Why do I say so? 'Cause I have to climb up the hill everyday in the morning :\

I met another guy (sorry can't remember his name, not sure if it's Li Zhe (?) ) and we talked a little and went to the office together. So, Tan Jing brought us in and it was very cute of her to introduce both of us to the coffee machine. In fact, some of her colleagues (my supervisor and Daisy) laughed at her for introducing us to the coffee machine as our orientation. But, she defended for herself that it is very important for us to know how to use the coffee machine. Hahahaha. I have yet to use though. But manage to pick up some knowledge on how to operate it. :)  It does look like some analytical instrument though. Hahaha! Then, I was brought to my desk. Initially I sat beside Noviabella. So excited bout it. But I was changed to the Hot Desk area then because of Daisy. I will tell you more about that later on.

Then, I was brought around the Sensory Prep Area and Sensory Booth by Li Juan. Then, she explained about the Organizational Structure of the company and some documentation of compliance that we, the sensory people has to generate for QA people and stuffs. Also, she told me to report to her on my learning and tasks done every Friday, etc. I was also introduced to the company's library portal which has lots of journals and books and patents as well. Apart from that, I was also required to do self learning from the Abbott lectures and also do the quizzes consistently, which she will be checking from time to time. Thereafter, she introduced me to Dawn and Jun Jie (he's also the person who interviewed me :P). Both of them would be my mentors. :)

Then, we had Environmental, Health and Safety (EHS) Orientation at 10 am - 11.30 am. Oh yeah, we also had to listen to the "lecture" and do our quizzes on the spot after the lecture and get a minimum passing mark of 80%. Hahahaha...It's actually an easy paper though :P I've got 14/15. If not because of one careless mistake, I should have gotten full marks T__T. LOL. Then, from there, I know more people like Tasha and Li Chun. Hahaha. OH yeah, forgotten about this. Initially, we first began the EHS orientation with self-introduction. But, I was being missed out due to some distraction T____T. So, when Kelly wanna began her lecture, I told her in a "sad" way that I haven't introduce myself. LOL. Then, everyone laughed. LOL. Then, Kelly laughed and apologized and said that actually she purposely do that so that she wanna see if I would take the initiative to introduce myself or not. LOL. To be honest, it's my first time to speak out when being missed out. Actually, been often missed out in self-introduction in the school before, but I never actually speak up. But this time round, hahaha...don't know what triggers me.

Then...slack a little and went for lunch with Li Juan, Jun Jie and Dawn. LOL. I think I made quite an impact on my interview. I would say it could be a negative one instead of positive. 'Cause at that time, I asked them about the company's culture. So, Jun Jie asked me what do I mean by company culture at that time. I just explained things based on my experience with Addiction as we normally went out for lunch as a group and we treated each other like a family that kind. So, they're kind of like teasing me that "now" we can go for lunch together like a family. :(
Jun Jie told me about some of the cafes or food courts around the Biopolis area. He's good as a mentor but seems to be shy a little bit? Hahahaha...His personality kind of cute though. After lunch, around 1-2 pm, Dawn and Jun Jie brief me on what I am supposed to do tomorrow. So, yeah, I foresee myself being very busy tomorrow. Especially with the preparation part. Hence, might need to be early tomorrow.
Then, I have to label all the cups for tomorrow's preference test. Jun Jie was really nice. He borrowed me some of his books ^_^ Oh yeah. he graduated  from RMIT Australia. while Dawn was from NUS FST ('06 batch) and Li Juan from USM. Msia.

Then, around 3-4 pm, the handsome, tall IT (Jeffrey) guy brief us on the computer stuffs and our emails. I didn't expect him to be that good looking, honestly. The moment when JJ first introduced me that he's the IT guy, my jaw "literally" dropped. I mean, gosh. Why is he so good looking?! Hahahaha...He's also funny lo. 'Cause he asked me to shift place with Li Chun as I will be using desktop (YAY!). Then, Daisy (which is Adrian's personal assistant) asking me why I'm changing place? Then I told her the reason. At that time, Jeffery was still beside us briefing us. Then, Daisy asked Jeffrey if I can switch to Yoon Her's place instead or something. Jeffrey was funny 'cause it's abit mah fan for him. Hahaha...Then, he like "mian qiang de" say "Can, can, can...As long as you're pleased". Hahhahaha...Then, he then made some funny faces that all of us laughed. Then, when Daisy was not around, I asked him why must switch place? Then he said in a funny way that because we must all follow feng shui. LOL. That made the 3 of us laughed when he said that. Hahahahaha...He's cute, can? LOL. Oh yeah, now only I know the function of CutePDF. Hahahaha...Bet some of you don't know right? Actually, he taught us that if we wanna save a file (eg. Doc file) to PDF, we can just use Print using CutePDF as it would prompt you to save as PDF or something like that. And also this thing called Greenshot, it's something like Snipping Tool :)

Then, after that, I did some readings on the lecture that I was supposed to do. Didn't manage to finish the lecture by today as I am left with about 8 slides. After the lecture, I will have to do the quiz. OOsssh~ Ganbatte Sherlyn! :)

p/s (Day 1): Today seems to be like a short day for me. I didn't even countdown the time for today. Hahahaha. I think it's good :) It means I'm not bored ^_^

p/s (General): The train is always so mega packed everyday! I think it's better for me to bring files to cover my front. People keep squeezing and it really made me felt uncomfortable. Like you know, you're being touched but you have no choice. Ughhhh...And yeah, I guessed it's better for me to start investing in antibacterial wipes or sanitizer. So yeah, imagining the sweats of so many people touching against your bare skin, don't you think it's uhm...disgusting? Sorry if I sound mean, but OCD people talking here.

2nd Physio Appointment

The doctor said there's a lot of "knot" around my muscles. Muscles shouldn't hurt much when minimal pressure was applied. It really hurts alot that I cried when the doctor did the session with me. :( What should I do? Even when I touched it, I've already shrieked in pain. :(

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I don't know why I'm feeling empty nowadays. It feels like I'm facing the world alone. No one to turn to even when I'm bored. Yeah, there has been people messaging me, asking me out etc. But, I don''t even felt like replying them and so on. I just want a speedy recovery. Ganbatte ne, Sherlyn :)

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I hate crowds. Hmm...I guessed I actually hate humans. I know, I know. I'm a human too! In fact, that's why I hate myself too. 'Cause I'm a human.

I hate going to the mall 'cause it's always so crowded. Now you know why I am not that kind who would go shopping like most girls. It's insane especially when the weather is so insanely hot, and worst when you're surrounded by crowds that behave worst than animals. Sorry if I sound so mean. But seriously, I felt like putting me in a crowd is a torture to me. Srsly.

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Let's Talk about SEX

I know many of you might be thinking, "Eh, why is this girl posting/liking AV videos on Facebook?" or they must be thinking that some of my FB posts contain some sexually hidden meaning.
Yeah, in the past, I am like some of you, who would think in that way if someone posted what we all considered as "dirty" stuffs.

When I turned 21 (mid 21), I felt that I had an increased libido effect. (p/s: I have my current bf only in my early 22) No, I don't have sex. Don't have to worry bout me. Anyway, I guessed it was pretty pointless to convince people about your virginity when they may have doubt in you. So, whatever. And no, I don't masturbate. -.-'' It just felt too weird for me. But yeah, in order to satisfy my cravings, I watched AV. But I'm very selective in watching such films. I hate hardcore kind and those that are too gross for my liking.

So, when we're talking bout watching blue films, who on Earth doesn't watch it? I guessed, maybe I might be wrong, that most people would have watched it. And sometimes, I can tell you that it's really hard to find someone to talk about sex. Leave the guys alone. What I mean is to find a girl-friend, whom you can talk bout sex with. Sometimes, it can be awkward to talk bout sex with guys.

However, the moment you talked bout sex, girls would usually avoid the topic and sometimes, showed a disgust look or something. But I was caught by a friend one day who confronted me that she caught me liking an AV video on FB. Initially, I am afraid what she would think of me and thought of putting blame on someone or something, but decided to come clean to her. Surprisingly, we ended talking bout a lot of stuffs. I am glad that she never look at me at a different way like how other friends would.

Sometimes, I think people should be more open towards such topic. Like what a guy friend who used to tell me (when I showed a strong dislike towards sex in the past), SEX is ART. And talking bout sex doesn't mean you're having sex. It's just a matter of understanding your body.