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I previously just posted a video in which I sang " I Dreamed a Dream" which is sung by Rachel Berry and Menzel in Glee. I fell in love with that song so much the moment I heard it for the first time. Oh Gosh. and "Beth" which is sung by Puckerman for Quinn is also nice that I listened to it every night when I sleep. So now, I present the video of me singing "I Could Have Danced". It's a nice song, but I might not sang it well. Shall consider vocal classes to make my singing better.

Me Singing I Dreamed a Dream

unhappiness strikes again

The hour before leaving,I hugged my baby tight, telling her to behave well and listen to mummy so that she won't bring too much trouble to mummy... I love her the most and I really treated her like my own baby even though she's just a puppy. She's forever a puppy to me even if she's already 5years with us.

I put her on my lap,and for the last time before I left,I checked through her furs for fleas. Heartbroken when I saw some fleas are sucking up before blood, immediately killed them after puling them out from her fur tenderly. My baby is like me, feared of pain...lol.

She's naughty but still always the best in my eyes. The moment I sat on the bus, I started feeling Moody and unhappy. It's like my heart felt so empty. Very very empty.. I browsed back our gathering pictures, our crazy acts, thought back our funny yet dirty talk and jokes, our teases,somehow made me smiled and cried....I really misses you girls a lot:(

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Can't Sleep...

It's already almost 2am and I seriously couldn't get myself to sleep. Maybe because I'm sad that I'm leaving my hometown tomorrow. Maybe because I misses my besties too much. Those laughter and everything...Sigh...I can't explain the bottled feelings I'm having right now that cause me unable to sleep. It's a sad type moody feeling, but reasons for it is inexplicable. Nor I know why. Maybe because I don't feel like leaving yet, maybe because everyone around me also leaving soon. Maybe because I don't want the semester to start yet. Seems like I have lots of worries in mind, but o well, shall get myself to sleep. It's already so late.

single - not a problem

Sometimes when we are alone, we felt bored and hope that we have someone to rely and accompany us.

Sometimes when we have boyfriend, we felt that our life is restricted and fahn....

Sometimes, we see all our friends are already attached, but yet we are still single, then we felt desperate for love too.

Hahaha. We are really interesting and funny humans, aren't we? I do feel that often too.

But, I really can't see myself being attached to a guy in the future and give my life marrying to him.

I wanted to do many things on my own,or maybe with my besties. I don't want to report everything about me to someone each time I'm going out or tell him what I wanted to do.

So,this is what I planned:

After graduation, I need to work to earn money. Then go travel around the world. In order for these to happen,I must not be in a relationship, so yeah.... anyway, girls can also be independent de ma... who says we need guys to survive?:)

Then, at the age of 30, I must adopt a girl as my child. Cause I don't want to get married and do that weird stuff and give birth.... although I hoped to have my own blood de baby, but I really feared I have no patience in raising the kids up. Really wondered how mothers are so patient? I think I'll be an abusive mum if I really cannot tahan when the baby cried. Lol. So,it's better for me not getting married and give birth...lol...

But, one thing I really wished the most is, me and my besties will be able to go for overseas trip together...:). I'm gonna miss them a lots...

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the only reason for my laughter

I really wished that we can still linger around longer... we talked, we laughed,.... this is the only thing I'd miss because there's no one at there ( spore) that you can talk and laugh and just be who you are. They laughed with you. But people over there, seems like none of them can replace these crazy besties. We are siao cha bos. And we like to do crazy things, no matter how embarrassing it could be. We are young and daring,I would say. Tee xin and Jennifer are leaving tomorrow... sighhh... last few days I can smile with my mouth opened widely. But, now gonna emo again. Life returned to emo life. It's because being with them is the reason for my laughter. Where you just don't have to worry about anything... especially when there's mizen around too... she's also one siao cha bo:)

Really gonna miss them. Sigh. Damn emo now:(

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(Un)Making the Mexican Diabetic: Race, Science, and the Promise of Commu...

pissed week

No personal bathroom for 5 days. Thanks to that bunch of weirdos staying in my house n using my room. Made me pissed for no privacy, for not being able to use my personal bathroom, for not able to use the computer to study. Seriously damn you all! I seriously hate u all to the core. You all should just stay in the hotels when you're bringing such a huge number of people when you don't really have to. Hello auntie, for what you have to bring the 2 kids that are not even your sons? And for what you have to ask your sisters and brothers to come and stay as well??? You think my place is a hotel??? You're not even my relatives!

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christmas eve celebration

Seriously, Christmas is nothing without.doing crazy stuffs with my siao cha bo gang. We laughed till we are rolling on the floor besides rolling in the deep. Lol. Initially my lower jaw still felt pain before I met up with them, but I guessed numbness due to too much laughters made the pain reduced. Lol. And when we reached ktm to fetch txin, I can't imagine this is the craziest and yet most memorable moment in our life doing crazy things. We,with our sign boards txin's name on it, waited at the ktm. As soon as the train reached, we immediately raised our signboards in the air.( initially we wanted to make it like a scene at the airports where you'll see those taxi drivers putting up their passenger's name on a piece of paper, but we ended up like some fans waiting for their idol instead. Lol)
This is really the greatest moment of my life.
In fact, I don't think if I could find anyone willing to do such crazy things like them. That's why they're my besties< 3

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you can step into my kingdom, but you can rule my kingdom!

I set my own rules, and you're not the one who should set it. Don't rule my world or my kingdom! I hate people who is trying to rule over my life. You're not the King, and I'm not your Queen. So, please don't tell me what I should do and report every thing to you!!!!

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I Love Crime-Thriller based Hong Kong dramas

My first love was Forensic Heroes. In fact, I love the Forensic Heroes 1 the most as well as Forensic Heroes 3. I never wish they would end. Forensic Heroes 2 was a little disappointing, perhaps maybe because of that pathology guy's wife dead. And maybe because everything changed, so I find it hard to accept. But although in Forensic Heroes 3, all casts were changed. I find myself surprising for able to accept the new casts and I think they really acted damn well and done a very super great job! I have no complaints for that because I learnt a lot from the 3rd season.

Hence, I always believe that watching that kind of movie is surprisingly motivating. I was damn motivated last time when I was sitting for my STPM and it was the first season of Forensic Heroes. I watched and always wanted to be like them. You know, like a professional body like them. It's cool to investigate scary crime scenes and hmmm...but Forensic Heroes 3 changed me. In Forensic Heroes 3, Dr Chung was so amazing and it made me wanted to be like her. That's when I download "Spot the Difference" game to make myself able to spot a very very minor difference. If you watched it, you'll know that Dr Chung is a very observant person. So, if you can spot even very minor differences that others couldn't, taa-da, you'll know who to suspect. LOL.

That's why I'm learning real hard to be an observant person. Not that I wanted to be a detective or what, but since young, I always love watching crime-based film. I find it exciting and keeps my adrenaline high. Perhaps I shall give Forensic Science a consideration, but I guessed if can, I wouldn't want to take the module but instead, self study. Isn't it more exciting?

Well, here's a list of crime based HK dramas that I hope to watch:

Ghetto Justice
A Great Way To Care (仁心解碼)
The Other Truth (真相)

But from Wiki, The Other Truth seems to be my cup of tea more. Well, maybe I would watch it after finishing uhmm....Mysteries of Love =)

Don't Give Up

Though I value my life just a little, after thinking for so long, I have to tell myself that I shouldn't give up. Came so far, and what I have to do is to move on.

And a note to myself:

The higher the hope, the bigger the disappointment. So, must learn not to give any expectation. Whatever it is, just do my best.

I will be brave. I will be tough. And I will learn to get back to my feet.

希望越高, 失望越大

Why? The higher hope I put, the bigger disappointment I would get!?

I was confident that I could score in  LSM 2201A, but its my worst grade I had for the module. Why?!!!

I thought I would see an A, but to my great disappointment, I got B-. Why?!!!

Although my overall CAP had increased a lil, but...why don't God just take a way my life?

I I don't have bfs. I don't have anyone that I love. Please take away my life. I don't want to live anymore!

Glee - I Say A Little Pray For You - Extended version - Full Performance HD

i know this will be a good choice

Schedule tightly packed. 3 labs per week. 4-6 hours per lab. Plus, the time consuming lab reports. Next semester will be most hectic semester compared to previous semesters. It will also mean that I won't be able to have much lifes....no outings and etc.

I know I have to put all focus on my core mods first,and think for my cm2142 especially. Read the module review, then you'll know why I'd freak out. But I decided to be brave and strong. There's no way I can hide from it, but I know that I'll have to do better. No more slacking, and I should Facebook lesser since. I said that I don't want people to know too much bout me. Anyway, I realized Facebook is becoming a lil boring.

Dear journal,
Last semester and next semester will determine my life, therefore, I am afraid. But I should learn to overcome my fears and learn to move on. This is when I thought of considering Introduction to Psychology, in order for me to understand myself better... I do hope that if I were to take it next semester, I really hope that my lecturers and TAs are good teachers.
Wish me all the best tomorrow ':)

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We must Really Appreciate People Beside Us

Finally finished Forensic Heroes 3 !! Teehehehe...


Been crying and wiping of tears in the last 3 episodes...Especially when Angel died...
It makes me realized that we must really appreciate everyone beside us...Families, friends, and the person we care for...

Sometimes, life is really unpredictable. I might not know if I'd die tomorrow or something...But it's really sad when you just found someone you love and be able to be together with that person, and a few days later, she has left you (because of death)...Isn't it sad? =(

People said, give opportunity to someone that wants to be with you, but sometimes, the feelings just not there. And it's hard to accept someone when another person is already in your heart. Hmm...

Well, put relationships aside first. D-day is tomorrow. And i'm worried. Don't dare to face it :(

i know, and i cant deny that you're still in my heart

When I saw your reply, I was delighted. You're like my only cure of sadness. Because your messages alone made me smiled for the whole day... Only you can make me smile when I'm down.

And the most touching moment is when I saw your apology... you've never apologize and explained why you replied late, though I've never asked why before... and that's the only thing that made me smile. It's been officially 6months since I liked you. And I know, you're still in my heart.

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Have You Ever Liked a Married Man?

I went for Aunt Raggy's wedding dinner just now.

To be frank, this is the first time ever I had tasted the real shark fin, real abalone, and real bird nest. Aunt Raggy was very very rich and she married a guy from Spore and from his look, I can see that he's a rich old man. Really. Aunt Raggy was already about 50+...I guessed she's in her early 50s I guessed. And she just got married at this age...Hmmmm....Though she's already 50+, she looked like she's only 40+ and she's really pretty...

I tasted shark fin for the very first time. I'm sorry. I know I shouldn't eat it...=(
Felt bad after eating it...:( :( :(

And then, I saw J's husband...I liked her husband the first time I saw him. Okay, that was a crush, i supposed. Okay, I guessed it's already the second time I'm having crush over married guys. When I was 16-17, I liked Strawberry. And that time, I was like head-over-heels on him. Cause he's my teacher. I named him Strawberry because of our memories in CH. I still remember how I was so crazy about him that I will go to the teacher's room every day after school just to see him and talk to him...I was so crazy that there are times that I will run over to the balcony just to wish him Goodnight when we're in CH...So crazy that I'm so happy that I was the only girl who got to walk with him alone at the market in CH...And he bought me ice cream...He was really a good father and a good teacher, as well as a good husband...He's always the best in my eyes, from last time...till now.

Then, I saw H for the first time at J's wedding...then i liked him. Okay. call me crazy but it seems that now, I found guys who are older than me, more charming...As you know, woman will look for 5Cs in a guy...My 5Cs doesn't mean Condominium, Credit Cards, Car and etc but it's Caring, Charming, Confident, Cheerful and Creative. <3 <3 <3 However, I would like to add another C and an S to it, which stands for Charismatic and Sincere. These are the only thing I would look for in a guy...

That's what I'll look for in my man =)

Anyway, it's 3 days left. I'm worried...=(

Glee - Hello Offical music video

I fell in love with Jesse in this ep...LOL...

Vocal training

Was thinking of getting myself a vocal training long ago...
But it's hell ex! And I can't really afford that...T__________T

When I thought it was a dream come true as I came across a 4x60 minutes vocal training on Groupon promotion at the price of only S$58, I realized that it would be hard. Next semester, will be the hardest semester in my life. Well, 3 labs every week...Do you think it's easy? When most labs takes at least 4 hours. And some even takes up to 6 hours. And lab reports are killers. Because they are hell consuming. Oh gosh. Not to talk bout labs, but studies? They all said that CM 2142 is a killer. And after reading those scary reviews on Module Review, I freaked out. People said that the lecturers sometimes purposely/unintentionally give you wrong infos in the lectures. And it's not that it seems that it's done unintentionally, but it seems that it was done with intention. And well, I might not know, some said that the lecturers don't know things that they're delivering. And how do you seek clarification when you have no one to clarify things for you?

I really want to go for the vocal training. But my schedule is so tight, it'll be hard for me =(

http://www.groupon.sg/deals/singapore/-38-for-4-group-strum-singing-vocal-or-guitar-lessons--complimentary--100-course-voucher-at-tino-live-music--worth--220/715921687

Uhm...Wanted to get this but...

Wow! Was looking at those deals webbie and came across this! Can I get myself this? But it's too ex! =(

Oh Well, I know I'm kinda desperate to have my boobs to be bigger. But...argh...okay, whatever! Let's see that when I've got the money ba...Tsk tsk...

Actually, I wanted to buy myself some of these stuffs to improve myself to look better. Okay, not to caught any guy's attention, (since I have no eyes on anyone YET), but I just wanted some lil changes in me, to make me feel good about myself to make me feel more confident...

I guessed I should learn things from Madonna. Yeah, you're right! M-A-D-O-N-N-A.

Well, here are the list of things I wanted to do to upgrade myself:

1) Vocal training !!!
2) Piano lesson =D
3) Eyelash extension!
4) Spas
5) Doctor therapy

Okay. All these stuffs are super costly. If can, I think I'll seek for a therapist in the school. I have low self-esteem and I know that very well. Therefore, if can, I'll try my best to improve myself from there first. To change my mindset and try to be more positive. Like what people say, if you can "suck" these positive energies around you, you'll be positive! Okay, that was a direct translation la. Anyway, you understand what I'm trying to tell here right? =)

I know I might not know when I'll die or anything. And we live only once, so, I wanted to chase after my dreams. Perhaps, I might not be sure what I exactly wanted to be. But I know, each time I watched Hong Kong dramas, especially Forensic Heroes, I'm deeply inspired by them to do my studies better! They are much pretty cool after all. And who doesn't wants to be like them? To be a professional people who seems to knows it all...?

Next semester's schedule would be super tight. Lab reports going on and on and lab sessions which are killing my times on and off. Turn me down, and I'll turn them out. Anyway, though I'm really afraid of doom's day and worried about my next semester, I know that I must be able to go through all this. To be honest, D-Day is approaching and I can't get my mind not thinking about it. My results are like my life or death to me, because it's important to me! Well, results are not important to me after all, actually. But there are lots of pressure from dad and families on me, and the scholarship, how can I get myself to sleep at night when it's like my life or death? I've been getting not much sleep, and all of the time I was dead worrying when times are approaching. I've tried to be positive, but I just can't do it. I'm worried that there are times I felt myself feeling suffocated in the middle of the night. How I wished that I can lead a carefree life and not worrying about grades, but instead, of what I've gained?

Okay, I think I really need a therapist before I was sent to IMH.

Randy Pausch Last Lecture: Achieving Your Childhood Dreams

Stop me from Expressing Myself

A conversation with a friend made me realized something.

It started of like this:

 A friend: You are really different from what I knew you.
Me: Huh? How different?
A friend: From your look, you only showed the cheerful part of yourself. Seriously, I wouldn't notice you're an emo person without reading the news feed post from you in Facebook or your blog. It's like you are two different people in the real and virtual world. You got what I mean?
Me: Uhm...I see. Well, I have nothing to say bout that. That's just me. Perhaps, I should learn to express myself in the "virtual world" lesser.

I then tried to change topic about it. In fact, I realized that long ago. And long ago, I've tried to stop myself from expressing too much of myself. But, sometimes, I just couldn't help it. It's like an addiction for me to pour my angers and sorrows to Facebook. I really don't know how to stop myself. Whenever, I'm stressed, I'll post something on Facebook. Which most of the times, I would find myself regretted for posting it...
Cause it showed the truth about myself. As an emo person.

Dear Journal,

I really need to learn to put a BIG FULL STOP from showing my true self to the world. I mean, it's not that I'm faking my smiles and laughters. It's just that, I really don't want people to know who I really am! All my smiles and laughter are true, just that, I'm not the type of person who will show her sadness and sorrow in front of people. Instead, I will always posted it, unintentionally, on Facebook. I really don't want people to know this negative part of me. I think I should put a big reminder to myself not to post anything negative on Facebook anymore starting from next semester. I shouldn't let anyone know who I really am.

Tell me what's inside of me?

Sometimes, I just wanna sing. As if, there's no one in the house.

Thought that I could at least have some space when I'm home, but... there's just some fear in me.

I know, I still worried bout D-Day. I'm so worried that each time I almost got a heart-attack, and my heart felt like it's going to jump out any seconds.

Time flies. Time passed. Too quickly that I couldn't catch up with its pace.

Dear time, do you know that my heart is weak and I can't run at your pace? =(

At the same time, I found a new interest. Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps it wasn't a new interest. I liked singing since young. But just my voice need to be improved. I can't sing a high tone nor a very low tone. You know, I really hope I can sing like Charice or Lea Michelle...They are so good!

At least, Rachel in Glee knows her ambition and she will fight for what she wanted to be. As for me? I don't even know my directions. I'm like a lost soul...Didn't even know what I wanted to do after graduation. =(

What Module to take??

Time table clashed with modules I planned....

What to do?

Have to come up with back-up plan...

1) GEK 1531 - Introduction to Cybercrime
2) LAC 1201 - Chinese I (Lecture class 6), Tutorial class I/II/14(which i don't really want)
3) PL1101E - Introduction to Psychology (this means that I must burn and eat 700 pages of textbook)
4) LAK 1201 - Korean I (lecture 3 T___T class will end at 8pm, Tutorial 8)

Deng...Next sem, one of these 4 choices are the only modules I can take...

If I really wanted to take Korean language, this is how my timetable would be...T______________T

Worried, worried, worried

Can I have an anti-depressant pills?

Can I have an anti-anxiety pills to make me able to sleep better?

I know I've been worrying too much...

I'm left with 10 days...

10 days to D-day...

I'm seriously worried...

And stressed...

Wanted to ask dad for the hostel fees, but don't know how...
We never talk much. But sometimes, he does care, a lil? Like asking me if I wanted durians and what I want to eat and stuff...

But I'm really afraid that I'll hurt him with my results again.

I'm really worried. Will I be able to pull my CAP by at least 0.5? I'm really really worried. That I'm thinking of it most of the time. Almost all of the time, when I'm left alone. I'm really scared...Really really scared.

Sometimes, I really wanted to talk to someone to bring away my thoughts. But I'm afraid, people would think I'm worried too much. How to not worry when all the stress was put on you and when you only have a year to pull your CAP? Even if you tried so hard, but you still find the papers difficult? How can I not worry about the bell curve?

Please, calm me down.

I Love You, I Honestly Do

It doesn't have to take a scientist to understand what's in my mind...

Well, I don't even know what happened to my mind..

Saw your messages, I'm delighted...

O Well, one thing I learnt from a song is,

"You know it's love when all you want is that person to be happy; even if you're not part of their happiness" 

wondered what happened to girls nowadays

You see, just last month, people have been posting about young girls posting their nudity photos in the website ( due to their willingness)... and people been hooked by those photos cause it's everywhere in Facebook, and everyone was sharing her profile around and hence, this is how her "popularity " started... Now, I was waiting for my bus to go back Taiping, and the lady next to me was telling about a 12 years old girl "zhi pai " her own body in nude. She was referring to the the girl in the newspaper, since I was just beside her, I took a glance at the newspaper and got shocked. Now,even a 12 years old girl became like that?

Come on girls! You really wanted people to see your whole body so badly? Or are you influenced by the porn movies? Girls, our body is only for someone who really like us and for someone we like! It's not for the whole world to see! No matter how you admire your body. Perhaps, I can understand that why some models and actress let others take their nude photos, at least they got paid with lotsa money( though I don't really like this idea of getting money, but I'm trying to understand them).... but, what do you all get when you post your nude photos around? People admiring your hot body? I would say most people would say that you're really shameless and such a disgrace to the family.

First, you don't respect yourself. Second, you don't respect your own body. You can have a hot body, but you really betrayed your ownself. And thirdly, you bring shame to the family... Hoe would your parents feel,or other family members would feel? When people who knows you,start talking bout you posting your own nude photos?

Besides that, your abnormal postings would also attract some sex maniac. So,perhaps I think you like to get yourself in troubles like that... if whatever I said here is harsh, I actually meant every single words I wrote. Because, we are all girls, and I really don't want you all to post or to make yourself a perfect target for perfect rape crime... you got what I meant?

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I'm a Gleek!

I'm totally heads over heels for Glee!
Oh my God.

http://www.watchgleestreamingnow.com/
Pains and sorrows...Although I felt it most of the time...But well, shook it off...

I just wanna find my talents...Though I always think I don't have one.

I'm so into singing. That I'm craze of going over to KBox and spend my money to sing. But, I just don't have the freaking money.

But, because of my craziness over singing, I bought myself a membership card yesterday. Oh well, it was out of random. Most people who are close to me ( i mean those at spore) knows I'm random. And I'm really R-A-N-D-O-M. Well, spelled it out for ya!

I really want to hit the KBox and sing away all my angers and sorrows. Though I know my voice kinda sucks. But I know that I'll need to be trained to be a good singer!

Sometimes, when I don't get to hit the KBox, I just felt like getting my own space and sing as loud and natural as I like. Well, this was also why at times I sang in the bathroom, but who cares? I don't care if people will come and scream at me and says my singing sucks. At least, I know I'm not sucks to the max, am I?

Okay, talking bout confidence, I can tell you that I have NONE!

But..Sometimes, I really wanted to shine, to be known!

Who wants to be someone that is not known, not cared about? Right? You got what I mean? You just wanted to be discovered at times.

I was thinking...IF, should I perform for sister's wedding?? I really wanted to sing. But my problem is, I'm shy in front of people! =(

And oh yeah, about that lump, sorry that I didn't have the time to go to the doc yet...But I think it should be okay? Sigh...I don't know. I'm going back tomorrow morning. I don't want any bad news or scary news hit me at this hour. I think I'd tell mum when I got back and see if it subsided by then, so that I can save the money from see-ing the doctor.

what would you do?

The pain is so intense, actually.
But I often acted like a normal person...
It's like there's this thing, it felt like a lump...it's like I had that for the past 4-5 days. I thought it was nothing although, it caused me a slight pain...but now as days passed,the pain was really unbearable... it seems that the lump is getting bigger? I don't know, I never go and try to touch it before that until just now when I found the pain is hardly bearable. It seems like a 20 cents coin size.

But seriously, I'm really afraid of pain. I know if you're my friends or family, you'd ask me to go for a check up. But the doctors always doesn't seem to know how pain it is,and when they touch that lump,they will want to press it. And here comes the fucking pain! Even without touching it ,seriously it's already torturing me. What if the pain is at the sensitive part? T_T

Next thing is, I'm afraid that all of sudden I have cancer or tumour or whatever. Gosh,.I know I am too imaginative. But my aunt just developed breast cancer, and it also means that I would have the risk. Then I don't know what sort of cancer I'll be risked at....:(

I really afraid. But I am afraid of going to the hospital... should I wait for a few days more to see if that growth subsided?

There could be other reasons? Like, I didn't drink enough water, that's why I have this growth...? Since my body is sensitive to lack of water.... haiz... how how how? Move around also pain...;(

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dancing alone

Sometimes you just wanna dance in front of the mirror without clothes on... seriously, that feeling is really great as you can just sway your body as you like with the beat without worrying if anyone looking,except yourself. it's what you always did last time,but you stopped since 1.5years ago. All of sudden,you just want that dance feeling back,dance your own way,dance to the beat and....

You,shall pick up a skill.

Oh yeah, i know that sometimes you also wanted to be noticed. You want your talent to be noticed, but it's not something easy though. You'll need very much courage to show people what you have and what you want them to know bout you...right?

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Coward

I'm a coward, when it comes to thing called love.

Liked someone for so long, but didn't even dare to tell....

Wondered how some girls got the guts to go up to the guy they liked and tell him that they liked him?

Wished I am as brave as them.

But I have no courage.

I don't tell. I keep to myself. And all I did was let it go, regretted and trying hard to forget about it.

But when you couldn't even forget him, you'll regret again.

Friends said that I should try telling him, so that I won't regret.

I understand that...but the only thing is, I don't have the guts. And ...I think him deserve other girls better than me.

As long as he's happy and found the right one, I'm happy too...

Am I foolish? Perhaps you might think that too...Cause I'm not that kind of girl who knows how to chase after her happiness.

Well, leave it to fate.

All of Sudden Thinking....

What I was thinking?

Hahaha. Perhaps, my mind is not in the right state.

I was thinking, perhaps it's out of curiosity, how it's like to be a 3-days lesbian?

Lol, told you! My mind seems like going haywired le. Like that also I can think dao...

But, I really don't know...

All of sudden, I'm sick of guys...

I just realized that it'd be hard to find a guy that I'll like...

Which matches my requirement...

Actually, my "yao qiu" also not so high la...[ Even my Sporean girl-friends said so...=(  ]

But, I can't find any guy that matches the type I like yet...Even if there is, most of them already attached la...

Then, this was when I started to think, since it's not something I've tried, and it also seems to be common here at Spore, why not try a 3-days relationship with a girl? LOL.

Why 3 days? Hmmm...Cause I just wanna try out and see how is it like??

LOL. Okay, I'm crazy. Ignore me please =(

By the way, I'll have to check out this after exams!

http://forums.cozycot.com/cosmetics/5818-eyelash-extension-105.html

Felt like going for an eyelash extension, but scared sia...RAWR!

Stanford is Awesome..right?

Check this out!

http://www.cs101-class.org/
http://www.hci-class.org/
http://www.nlp-class.org/

Their lectures are simply awesome...Good for you, Teo Rui Jie...If you are looking at this post! =)

I wanna Learn this..Can?

Their love is so SWEET~~

I misses B.O.F =(

I misses watching BOF...

Sob..sob...sob.... =(

Felt like watching again....

I misses every single moment of it...

Those sweet and bitter moments of them...

Cried and cried....

Laughed and laughed....

Smiled and smiled....

When will I get the chance to watch again? =(

An Engineering Student Survival Guide - by Richard M. Felder

All along, in the past 3 semesters being here, in NUS, I've always asked, why universities are so different from high schools?

Teachers in high school are more dedicated than universities lecturers...
Teachers in high school can understand what you don't understand, while universities lecturers, some of them don't know what you don't understand even you asked them, pointing out what you don't really understand...
This made me started to hate my university life...
Really...I hated them so much because I always think that lecturers don't tell you everything they know...And the contents are dry and so on...

But now, after reading a message from Richard Felder (go google him if you don't know who he is), I realized, universities are different because it is supposed to be different! Seriously, this message from him strucked me, and I soon came to realization that I, shouldn't put all blames on the lecturers...

Let me quote the things which totally changed my views:

" First, though, let me suggest that the real problem is not that professor who's making your life miserable. It's that over the years you've brought into a message that goes like this: " My teachers have the truth, the wisdom, the tricks of the trade. Their job is to feed it all to me in lectures, and my job is to soak it up and then repeat it on homeworks and exams. If I can do that, I've learned what I need to know...and that's the only way I can learn it" "


Seriously, doesn't all theses sounds familiar to you? This was what I used to think...and I realized, I'm totally wrong...Here's another one:


" That approach may have worked in high school and earlier, but it begins to fail in college -- and once you get into the plant or research lab, it stops working completely. On the job, there are no teachers, lecturers, homeworks or exams. There are only problems -- usually poorly defined ones -- and solutions that are either acceptable or not. To make it worse, you no longer get partial credit for solutions that don't work, even if you used the correct formula. If you design ten reactors, and only one blows up, trust me -- they don't give you a 90 and congratulate you."


This explains why universities are so different from high schools. Because, it's a reflection of real-life situation. Now, I understand...


I shall work hard on my another modules. Thanks to Felder's message which totally changed my views. Universities equals to independence. We, have to work on our own and never rely on anyone's help. That's independence, because no one will be out there to reach out for you to give ya an answer...

My Pride

My Pride

Pride in your eyes
Whole and sincere you adore
Reaching deep you have found
the Little girl i once lost
Light of hope you have shone
I am full of life once more
Never knew i can be brave
So much more than ever more

See me fly
I'm proud to fly up high
Unswayed by winds or rain
as long as you're close by
Believe me I can fly
I'm singing in the Sky
My future shines so bright
My all in heaven's nigh

Love in your eyes
I hold tightly with my all
Frail and weak I cling on
Can't be strong, Can't go on
While our love will never change
Just for now we must let go
You're no longer by my side
But your Pride is still with me

See me Fly, I'm proud to fly up high
I shall rely no more, I shall depend no more
Believe me I can fly
I'm singing in the sky
you always told me to
be brave and to be strong.

I dream the day that we will meet again.
And in your arms you hold me up
and proudly i will sing

See me fly, I'm proud to fly up high
Show you the best of mine, till the end of the time
Believe me I can fly, I'm singing in the sky
and to your eyes I'll smile
the courage that i live

I'm not alone cause you have pride in me.

Proud of You

Love in your eyes
Sitting silent by my side
Going on Holding hand
Walking through the nights
Hold me up Hold me tight
Lift me up to touch the sky
Teaching me to love with heart
Helping me open my mind
I can fly
I'm proud that I can fly
To give the best of mine
Till the end of the time
Believe me I can fly
I'm proud that I can fly
To give the best of mine
The heaven in the sky
Stars in the sky
Wishing once upon a time
Give me love Make me smile
Till the end of life
Hold me up Hold me tight
Lift me up to touch the sky
Teaching me to love with heart
Helping me open my mind
I can fly
I'm proud that I can fly
To give the best of mine
Till the end of the time
Believe me I can fly
I'm proud that I can fly
To give the best of mine
The heaven in the sky
Can't you believe that you light up my way
No matter how that ease my path
I'll never lose my faith
See me fly
I'm proud to fly up high
Show you the best of mine
Till the end of the time
Believe me I can fly
I'm singing in the sky
Show you the best of mine
The heaven in the sky
Nothing can stop me
Spread my wings so wide

2 Movies Review

Oh gosh. I came across Autumn Concerto movie in You tube. Well, I have yet to watch it,it's such as shame right...Seems like everyone's already watched it...=(

Yeap, so, I'm gonna add Autumn Concerto to my drama list for the holidays as well! Hmm...Wondering if I can manage to finish watching it or not...Hmmmph! >.<

And oh yeah, I've just watched 2 movies this midnight...

1) Marriage with a Fool...

I laughed and cried when watched this movie. Indeed, I cried more. And at the ending, I cried even like a pig...OMG. But luckily, no one's there already. Hahaha! But I have to quickly washed my face after that, though my eyes are still red because I cried.
But ...I just don't understand the ending...Hmmmph >.<


2) Marriage with a Liar...

But of course, there are some scenes that are a bit...uhm...(i'll leave that for you to see!)

But hey, I think it's really a good movie...Sometimes, it's really scary about love and marriages. Marriage is like a life-time decision. We must think twice,thrice and so on before committing ourselves to marriage. It's not really something simple as I've always thought, I realized. Haaaiiizzz...Life is too complicated, isn't it?

But sometimes, guys really easily tempted by seduction? Even though they said they really love the girl? Hmmm...Why some girls are so bad...? Even they know that the guy is already married (like the one in the case of movie #1), they still keep texting weird and suspicious messages to the guy...>.<
Haizzzz....Is guy too complicated? Or girls? Or is it both?

I would rather say it's both. Humans are too complicated. Feelings, bodies, emotions,....Even their boy functions and pathways are SO DAMN COMPLICATED! >.<

Keep The Spirits High!

Enough of emo-ing and having mood swings for the past 2 hours...

You've had your favourite spaghetti for dinner a while ago.

You've bathed yourself for half an hour plus to refresh yourself...

Now, it's time for the battle again.

Tell yourself, you'll be able to do it...

Tell yourself, you'll be able to remember every thing that you've studied...

Tell yourself, you'll be able to calm yourself down...And continue to study...!

You, will be able to do it, Sher lyn!

As long as you keep your thoughts positive and not worrying about what you've forgotten, tell yourself, I'll be able to recall...

Every pieces of information will subsequently come out naturally!

Tell yourself, hardworks will soon bear you more fruits...

Be positive, be positive, be positive.

Overcome the fears, and you'll do fine!

Jia you!!!

i wanna watch ...

Watch Marriage with a Liar at exam!!!

那些年，我們一起追的女孩...

Seriously speaking, I really like this movie a lot. Really really a lot. Despite the weird scenes. Despite the fact I'm watching it with a guy from my ES class that I hardly talk to. Don't know why...But this movie left a lot of impact on me...I still felt like watching it again...If only, this time, I can watch with someone I really really like...But time is too short, I still couldn't find the right guy ...

http://www.cracked.com/blog/the-7-dumbest-things-students-do-when-cramming-exams_p2/

Inspiring Videos

http://www.dolectures.com/lectures/?view=all

Stressed =(

I'm left with 4 days to my first final paper. Oh gosh. This is crazy. I'm going crazy too. =(
I'm too stressed now. Seriously. Days and nights of mugging like crazy. Sometimes even forgotten my lunch/dinner. Now I guessed I'm having gastric pain? There's this inexplicable pain at somewhere around my upper abdomen area...This is bad =(

I really need to keep myself calm and tell myself that I can do it!

And also must tell myself to "JIA YOU!"

This pig is cute, right? Hahaha...Yup, must jia you like the pig. P.U.S.H !!! =)



Yeah, who doesn't know that studying = boring? Sighh...But, this is the fact of life. If you don't study, you have no knowledge, and people will say that you're stupid if you don't know simple things of life which can be found in basic education.

But in university, everyone's is on the race. If you didn't study, people will look down on you. If you mug hard, perhaps it would bear a fruit one day soon. But sometimes, people in the university are just too hard to understand. Perhaps, you'll never understand them. Just that one thing you'll know is, they only care for themselves. Though 0.0001% of them are really kind and good.



Tomorrow will be one of my friend's first paper. Let's pray for her. =)
Pray that her paper is like a peanut for her and she'd be able to do well =)

                                           


                                              

To my friends and I, let's JIA YOU !!

As for myself, I really need to pull my CAP. It's quite frustrating to see my current CAP =(
I really need to pull hard from trash list to dean list? C'mmon, who doesn't want to be in the Dean List?  

                                                 

Although I wanted dean list, but, with my current CAP, how to reach there? I'm already satisfied if I can maintain my scholarship. =(

                                       

See? Even baby reads. Tsk tsk tsk...
So, come on, Sherlyn!
You must do it.

You see, even this movie pin point on the importance of studying. You said you wanna be like the girl in the movie, don't you? =(
So, must jia you!!! Must be like her. Study like her.
Next sem onwards, must use cue cards to study!

                                                         

                                    

So, if I study harder and smarter, I'll be able to ...

                                           

Or else, I'll be doomed and ended up...
           
                                       
Wondering which is which...
Unsure of what is what...

Lastly, a wish to myself. And also my good friends who are having their exams...

                                        

Okay. Enough of blogging. I better get back to my studies! =)

Dramas and Movies to Watch after EXAMS!

Material Queen:

Sector 7:


Tin Tin:


Aladdin:


Beauty and the Beast (rewatch):


And a lot more!! =)

Stop Kissing in front of Me (when I'm studying)

The moment when you tried so hard to concentrate to memorise the metabolic pathways (which is really a lot), and you thought that you grabbed a good seat (after your friend told you about a secret place in UTown), and you "happily" concentrating on your readings for the first hour...

And when the next hour, a couple seats just right beside you, and doing weird stuffs...

YOU KNOW THAT YOU'RE DOOMED!

Simply because it was damn hard to concentrate...I mean, do you have to kiss till I can hear the kissing sound!!??

I, should have brought my earphones with me.

But anyway, I find it too hard to bear, so I left that place.

I'm lucky, because I managed to grab a place to sit now! =)

p/s: The more secretive a place is, the higher the tendency people do weird things. I understand, I am still unable to adapt to PDA. But, when you're in such a country with open-minded people, it's just kinda...hm...I'll leave this to your imagination. =)

I WANT TO LEARN DANCING!

http://www.groove.com.sg/courses_description.asp

Came across this website, while studying. OMG. I AM SUPPOSED TO STUDY! =(

Hmmm...I really wanted to learn either pole dancing, or belly dancing.
But the prices are so freakingly high =( =( =(

ARGHHHHH~~~~! =(

I wonder when is the time I can learn? Only during semester break I can learn all these skills..But semester break the time, I need to work. And need to find a very lucatrive job nehhhh....Like Yun Nam. Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....=(

New Hairstyle, New Life

After years of having that innocent look, I felt that I need a change!
From innocent to a lil wild, perhaps?
Haahaha...So that people wouldn't bully by the innocent face I had! =(

So, I went to Snips Avenue on Friday (to cut my hair) and Saturday (to dye my hair)...

Okay, Now, I know you all might think, why do it on 2 separate days and not one day (so that I don't have to waste time)...

Well, on Friday, I went there with a friend. In fact, she's the studious type and she's not someone really close to me. So, I don't wanna waste her time any longer 'cause she only cut her hair. Therefore, I have to cut my hair and dye only the next day. =(
In fact, she also have a class later. Therefore, this is why I have to go on separate days.

On Friday, this professional hairstylist was the one who cut my hair! Hehehe. Although he's a bit "cool cool" type, but he's actually QUITE good looking lar...

But on Saturday, another hairstylist dye-ed my hair for me. In fact, he's the MOST GOOD-LOOKING hairstylist working there...REALLY!!! He's really cute too! =)

OMG. And I just realized one thing that made him remembered me is, I laughed when I saw him eating his rice at the counter on Friday (when I cut my hair).....Aiya, I laughed because when he looked at me, I thought he still remember me. (In fact, I recognized the wrong person la. I thought he was my first hairstylist who cut my hair a few months back when I first visited that saloon)

LOL. Then, when he dye-ed my hair on Saturday, he said he still remember me, AS THE PERSON WHO LAUGHED AT HIM WHEN HE WAS HAVING HIS LUNCH  ....     : x

Anyway, The guy who cut my hair is called Jun Ling. And the cute guy who dyed my hair is Winson Tay.
Check them on FB. They're really quite good looking!!!

Relationships :X

It's funny how I keep telling myself I'm happy being who I am today. I am happy for being single. I am happy that I'm free for any restrained activities due to relationships (in fact, because of my past relationship, I don't get really get to to hang out with my besties much. )

Anyway, dad also caged me like a small bird, I have less freedom either. Hmmmmm....

Then, the funniest part when you saw a couple in front of you, being so intimate and close, in night likes this, you also crave for some love.

You just wanted to be loved. To be cared.

Okay lar. I don't wanna write as if I'm sounded so despo for love, in fact, I really love my freedom life. I love my life being able to do whatever I want - hang out with my besties, flirt at times (it's very minimal), hang out with whoever I wanted, and so on...Life is so carefree, without boyfriends. Isn't it something I wanted after my bad experiences in relationships?

But why at some times, I really hope to have someone that I can love, someone I can hug to sleep each night, someone that would care for me,...and most important thing is, SOMEONE WHO WANTS ME NOT FOR SEX!

Sorry to say, I can't, and I find it hard to give in to their weird activity. I still find all things like that weird. Of course, it's perfectly normal if it was others performing that act, but not me. And it's so SCARY and PAINFUL. I'm not so into it. =(

LSM 2201A: Can I Not Divorce You?

I've just finished my LSM 2201A final paper.

Practically, if I did studied all the past year questions, I'll be able to guarantee myself an A+. Why? All the questions are exactly the same! Initially, I was quite reluctant to believe that it would be the same because people keep saying that Prof Kini would set very tough and difficult questions.

So, although I'm not really that free, although I still think that I need to re-revise my notes, I googled Prof. Kini to see which semester he had taught before in the past few years. Indeed, it's a lil tough to search, I just manage to search that he taught before in 2008, 2010 and this semester.

And another thing is, he's into SNAKE VENOM thingy! LOL! So, I was thinking maybe he would set the questions related on purification of snakes venom?

Surprisingly. when I sat for the paper, to my surprise, and also to my delight, the questions are 100% the same! SAME AS PAST YEAR'S PAPER!

I was quite lucky, because I thought that I can land myself by 100% sure to get 10 marks for my Section B and C (which is 5 marks each for each section). BUT, I WAS LATER FOUND OUT, DUE TO MY SILLY MISTAKE, I COULD HAVE LOST MY PRECIOUS MARKS!

There was one question in Section C, the actual answer should be "Ligand leakage", and instead of that, I put "Affinity leakage". How stupid I am to make such mistakes! =( 
Now I'm not happy because of this little mistake which could have shifted my marks =(
I know, I know it's something leakage, but I can't think of what leakage is that at that time...
Sigh...

And I'm not sure about my Essay part ler. Although I think I did quite fine, but I really unsure what Prof Kini actually wants. Sigh.

And also hor, I wanna tell about my 6th instinct. I think next time I should have study according to my 6th instinct? Cause I was thinking that, only Dynamic Light Scattering will come out for the exam (which is in Lecture 5)... And IT REALLY COMES OUT!

However, I wasted a lot of time reading that...Sigh...Cause nothing from there comes out except the DLS...>.<

Anyway, one paper down. I'm left with ONE PROJECT, TWO FINALS!

JIA YOU SHER LYN!

p/s: Dear LSM 2201A, although I can officially divorce you today, but I still think that you're my one and only favorite...REally! I learnt alot from this module. And I guessed it's the only module so far that I've read once, and can still retain in my brain till now. =)

The Fact about University

I'm not sure if this applies only in NUS, but I had a talk with my friend a while ago about the fact being in NUS.

And this is what he told me which I find it quite true, "In the university, it's a fact of life. People are selfish. You can't expect them to share things they know to you. Everyone here wants to get A. Plus, your cohort is very small, so, in order to get an A, you have to pull someone down."

Now I think, why university has to be like that? No wonder most of my coursemates are so reluctant to teach what they know despite their high CAP. Are we forever fighting and hence, this is why true friends can't be found in my own course?

Seriously, when I realized what he said about the ugly truths about university, I really think that I will hate my university life. It's really different from our secondary schools or even our high school levels. People in Hua Lian(high school), despite knowing them for less than 1 month, they are willing to share what they know and we learned together. I don't know why in the university, it's not like that at all.

Please Give Me Strength

Sigh...First final paper start on Wednesday. And I really hope that the problems with my project proposal could be finalized as soon as possible. I don't want another sight of it. And yeah, I'm sick of it too. =(

LSM 2201A, there are so much to study. I'm really afraid, that I almost started emoing this morning. In fact, I did emo. And I tried to overcome it but to no avail. And when I'm stressed, I'll get headaches.  Sigh, this sign of sickness always come at the moment when the exam is near. I really don't know how to deal with stress, seriously. I thought I can handle it, but I realized that I can't, especially when I see others mugging so much; although I mugged constantly, I still felt myself lacking behind others...

This time round, I really hope that I can find more confidence and strength to carry on. I need more motivation and inspiration that can inspire me and motivate me at the same time to go further, so that I won't feel emo each time when I wanted to study. Please. Give me strength. ='(

Subconcious Mind Quotes

Power of Mind. Awesome?

How Good if I can Sing Like her =)

Pretending is not easy to sing!

It's not easy to sing Pretending although you don't need that really high pitched voice to sing that.

I don't know why I keep getting breathless when it comes to the chorus. >.< Arghhhhh...I made a recording of me singing My All by Mariah Carey...Hahaha! But no time to do the video yet! Nowadays chiong lab reports and projects. CAs are approaching but I studied a lil, still felt myself never studied much. I really hope to get A for it! 'Cause my lab reports (which is done in groups [luckily]) get quite high marks...And my first CA, though I'm not really done very well (which I could have done better since I get most MCQ parts correct (seriously, if you had read my previous post about this LSM 2201A MCQ test, I can tell you that this is the hardest and trickiest MCQ question) 'cause one question may contain multiple answers (means you can circle A,B,C,D and E as well) . The only part that made me unsatisfied is the last question, which is a short essay question. Sigh. I don't know why Prof Mok gave me only 0.5 (full mark is 1) for 3 of the question. Sigh....:(((((( Although Prof Mark said that my 12.58 is quite high, I'm still NOT SATISFIED, unless I know the bell curve. But even if I know the bell curve, I still don't feel that I am satisfied with my marks. =( Hmmm...Hence, I really really aim to get A for this subject! It's like it's the only module that I can rely on to get my first A? Hmmm...Sounds so noob right? Seeing others getting A so easily, and I still haven't get my A here yet. *cries* Anyway, after exam, I wanna do more more more recording!! hahahah~ I guessed this is my holiday plans ba. And also I hope my Bangkok trip will be alright la. I paid so much d ler...Why flood!!!!! =( Even made mum worried me after knowing I'm going Bangkok in December. OMG. And I really don't know what to do. When will it dry up? Will all the renovations be completed by the time I'm going there? So much worries le huh? Roar!~~~~ I just scared if dad know, I'll die instantly. Cause ...I don't know. Dad seems like not letting me go anywhere since young. That's why I know nothing much about this cruel world until I came to Spore. And when I have to learn to live independently here. People here are really scary, selfish and so on. But, of course, there are a few that are really good. Which means, out of a 1 million population, the chances of you meeting a true person is only 0.000001%. And I'm glad I've met one, but sigh..I don't know why only in sem 3 only I met him...Hmmm... Oh yeah, Jerald is also okay de...He also always motivate me. But just that I don't know why that I won't really tell him about my problem nia. And I still remember the first day we met (he's my colleague), he introduced me as his gf to a random aunty on the table. LOL. Samuel also did that before. That kiddo. But I not sure why, but I'm kinda happy? Uhm...nolar..Not really. Just flattered? Hmmmm...Feelings are inexplicable. Anyway, gonna get back to my lab report soon so that I can finish it asap and start on my presentation slides and my project proposal and STUDY~!~~~~

LSM 2201A. I CHOOSE YOU! =)

I'm Tired, but have to Go On ...

Projects...
Presentations...
CAs....
Deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepppppp Siiiiiiiiiighhhhhhhhhh....=(

I had hardly get a rest. Not even when I got the time to get enough sleep, the next CA is coming again. Well, I really wanted to sleep so much. I had so many sleep debts. =(

Tomorrow supposed to be my free days. But have to give in to project meetings and lab reports. Argh...Seriously, I know I learned a lot from this ES 2007S modules. Learned on how to actually persuade people in our speech (though I kinda know how, but I don't know if I could ever overcome my shyness in talking in public. It's like something which I've never ever been able to accomplish, no matter how I practiced for times in front of the mirror. It's like I seemed to talk well to the mirror, but then, when it comes to the real speech-delivery to the class, I stumbled a lot and got so nervous.)

I don't know why am I so nervous in front of people~! I mean shy, not nervous. OKlar, it's both. To be honest. Arghhh...

Presentation slides haven't done. And tomorrow going to have meeting again. Lab reports haven't really done, cause I wanted to read up about the chapter first before I start writing. Cause I seriously have no idea what is CE, CZE is about! Garrr....

So, now I'm trying really hard to keep my eyes OPEN BIG BIG to read up the things about CE and CZE. And I'm trying to study by creating slides (sounds like I'm doing my own "lecture notes" ) ....

Hmm...Okay, shall stop right now...JIA YOU SHERLYN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ROAR~~~~

Jar of Hearts ~ Recording 2#

make movie


Hmm...It's not really easy to sing this song actually, but I've tried my best. And this is the best I've come up with, after 3 times of re-recording. >.< Uhmmm....And oh, Pretending was so damn hard to sing!!! >.<
It's like I keep getting breathless when it's time to sing the "Ah-ah ah-always.." part... =(

Skills are bad. Anyway, trying to upgrade myself. Making recording and videos. LOL. Sorry if you don't like it, but you are free to criticize! =)
I know there are many rooms that I need to improve in...Aiks...

Get It Right Recording 1#

make movie


First time recording. Sorry. I'm too crazy over it le...Hahahaha...Nah, Enjoy!~
*p/s: Sorry if my singing sucks o...But you're free to criticize if you have any comments :)

Omg. This is super awesome

Guess that I have to do tonnes, millions of practice before I can enter ba...But the thing is, I'm a shy person. Imagine, even have to webcam my face, I'd freak out d lurh....Sob....>.< 

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.....Next time go lian xi ba...Need to overcome my fear in front of the public...Sigh...Even my presentation skills sucks because of this, now if ask me sing on stage, or in front of people, I already felt super pai seh...=(

But this is cool...Wish I can sing well...Wish I can enter...Wish ...Aiks...so many wishes....:(

Our Funny Conversation

Friend: Are you overdosing yourself with some sort of drug pills??

ME: ???? Huh????

Friend: That thing ...you always take...the one that looked like some sort of chinese pills. You know? The form of pills that you would see in ancient Hong Kong dramas....

ME: Hmmmm....You're talking about this???  *showing her the actual box of Hershey...*

Friend: ......Is it this what you're really taking?? but why you need to drink water after each time you take it???

ME: Hmmm...Cause it's heaty? :D   Aiks...It does look like some kinda pills. But it's not. I like its form. Hahah...I like people to feel curious on what I'm taking.  HAAHAAHAHA!!!

Friend: OMG. Your evil laughters again.

ME: Hehehe...But you like it right? hAHAHAHAHAH~~~

Friend: -.-''

ME: What's with that expression huh?? >.<

Friend: Hahahaha...*grinned*

ME: I HAAAATTTEEEE YOOOUUU...Merajuk dah! =(

Friend: ....Someone act merajuk pulak. Don't think I'd say sweet stuff to make you happy luh!

ME: Suak! >.< 

Friend: LOL. You really MERAJUK QUEEN hor!! Sure can get the Miss Merajuk Title!!!:P

ME: Hmmmmph!!! Felt offended le. HAHHAHAHAHA!

Friend: LOL.

ME: Hehehe...I where got merajuk? :) Act nia. :P

Friend: Your acting fail la!!!!

ME: =(

Friend: Go back study lur!!! >.< Tomorrow exam right???

ME: Yups lurpee!!! =(  

Friend: Jia you ba!!!

ME: Hehehe...Okies~~~ ♥ you ♥♥♥

Friend: -.-''

ME: Hahahaaha~~~

Friend: Okie lur...Go back study...=) ♥

All Cried Out - by Allure (Nice Song)