Feeling Lost

I dreamt of him today...No...It's actually i dreamt of him everyday since the day he left...I was really sad...But i guess that he wouldnt know how sad i am...And if he do,would he even care? I tried to be more optimistic...Telling myself over and over again things might work out better than what i thought...Telling myself that everything would be okay....*sighed*
I dont know if liking someone is wrong or not...You see...When you tell someone you like him/her,when they know your feelings towards them,they start avoiding you...This was not in my case...What im saying now is based on a movie...I can accept that they need time to think but not avoiding the person...It was as if that person had just commited a crime or something...And the worst is...I hate people who likes to toy with people's feeling...What a cruel thing to do!!
If i ever met a person who likes to toy a person's feeling,im gonna kick her/him on the arse!!!Dont try me!If i can say,i can do~!
Dear Goddess,I really need ya help...I cant find the Cardcaptor Sakura anime series at my hometown...I really need it badly....I wish i could find it one day soon...Since it was actually a bit old d...But i wont give up easily...No i wont....AS long as if i didnt found the series...I wont give up finding it~!!! I could even sacrifice anything just to buy it...If God hears my prayers,I hope things would work out the way i wanted...PLEASE GOD~!!!
There's one things i wanna share...Sometimes,the things we hear,we see arent true....That's why there's many misunderstandings in this world....When we realised it,we might loose our loved ones...So,communication are encouraged to ensure a good relationship with your loved ones...ASK before you JUDGE them...Of course i do know that TALK is easier than ACTION...
This is just a piece of advice...
*NEVER HAD A DREAM COME TRUE* --> This song is really touching...When i hear it, I could even shed a tear...It was as if Im connected to it...Maybe it was because when i hear this song,I would think of him..."Syaoran"

Emptiness

Dear Goddess,
I hope that he and his family are always in good health...They are heading to Macau for holidays...I hope that you will protect them...They mean so much to me...Although they live for just 10 days,it was as if they live at here for only 1 day...Before he go for Spore actually i wanted to confess my feelings for him...But i dont tell him that...It isnt because that i don't have the guts...But i guess that it's not the time yet...And i think that...He may not have the same feelings he have for me as before...I wanna cry till my eyes dry...But...no...I didn't...That night before he left...I cried for a while...I can't sleep though...Am i thinking too much?? I ask myself...So,i start counting goats...1 goat,2 goats,3 goats,....Still i cant get myself drove off to sleep...I guess that i dont want him to go...Anywhere he has left...3days ago...And i still miss him soo much....I must stop it somehow...And i really dont know why...When I saw him,I felt as if i saw Syaoran(an anime character that i lovee soo much) *sighed* I guessed that i have to wake up from these SWEET DREAM...But the day before XM left,I thought that he will left too...So,not letting myself to regret,i gave him a Piggy...Which is my "baobei"...I told him to look after it for me...But...I dunno if he would or not...Dear Goddess,i hope that he will look after piggy for me...