Dear Comp

Dear Comp,

Do you know that you're driving me crazy and insane MOST OF THE TIME ?!
You freeze when I'm doing my lab report, FINE!
You freeze and that fucking blue screen appears and had to restart when I'm watching movies, still FINE!
WHY THE FUCK MUST THE BLUE SCREEN KEEPS APPEARING??!!!!

Okay, so what happened?
I was making payment halfway when you fucking froze-ed and your fucking blue screen appears!!!!!
Do you know how much the thing I'm buying cost!?????
Will you pay me back if I have to remake my payment!!!!~!!!!
Well, this is for YOU!   _|_

And do you know how insane you made me?
How impatient you caused me?
Do you know the window in front of me has no barrier and I'm living in LEVEL 6?!
Well, what if I'm living in like LEVEL 30+?
Good enough to kill me if I were to head down!
You're driving me so crazy that I wanna hang myself just now. DO YOU KNOW?!!!!

Yeah, pointless to die just because of a fucking comp right?
I know. I know. I know!
I don't need you to tell me!
You're ego. You're happy that you made me gone crazy and insane!

Well, you're happy now? F.U!

Plans before I go back

Doesn't really get much excitement in things I'm doing nowadays.
Even I find watching movies boring nowadays.
Don't ask me why. I'm not sure myself.

Initially I wanted to go walk around Esplanade at night, looking at the night view. Then, after a second thought, I think it would be boring too.

I'm not sure when or why I started to get bored with my life. It's like no excitement at all. Is there things where I can do and I'd find exciting?

Great, almost got myself hitted by a car. Guessed I've must be thinking too much and walking aimlessly.

I was thinking, should I go to places where I can play with dogs? But but but, I don't know where on Earth in Singapore to go where I can play with dogs.
Perhaps maybe I can find more excitement there since I love dogs so much. At least there's something interacting rather than just hanging out aimlessly right?

More research shall be done later after grocery shopping. Like where can I go to play with dogs and things like that. I can see the glimpse of smile on my face now. Yes, I know this would bring excitement to me. After all, dogs are doctors!:)

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tired n bored

I felt tired and bored.
Hmmmmm.......................
I don't know why I ____ to myself.
Must have been feeling tired.
Hmmmmmm..................

Lazy butt,
Let's get up. Make some moves. We're going for grocery shopping, remember??? Arghhh. Why so lazy?

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Night of Insomnia

I don't get it.
Why can't I sleep these few days?
I hardly have sleeping problems. Except for sleeping too much I guessed.
Several times I turned to my right side, and to my left, and sleep straight.
Still I couldn't get myself to sleep.
Maybe there are thoughts in my mind. I really tried hard to shook them off, but I can't.
I've also repeating the same 5 soothing tracks for the 4th time. -.-"
But nothing I did helps.
Uneasy feelings, uncomfortable, thoughts in my mind. So many.
Things are all so jumbled up that I'm going crazy soon.

I'm not sure what I should do to occupy myself with stuffs so that I don't have any thoughts in mind. Felt like going out instead, but at the same time, doesn't really felt like going out when the hot weather is driving me crazy.

I don't have plans for tomorrow. Hmmm... just thought of something. Since roommate won't be around tomorrow, shall I go for grocery and cook tomorrow?
Sounds better at least, healthy eating and perhaps can bring my thoughts away for a few hours.

After cooking, go for the $5 experiment. Then go swim. Yes, shall do that tomorrow. Occupy my time with activities so that I don't have time to think bout bad stuffs.:)

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Not sure...
Is it because staying with her makes me more easier to get jealous?
Cause each time, upon her returning from her dates, she told me her stuffs. Maybe not listening to all these would at least doesn't make me think so much.

Yeah, what all her bf did for her is really sweet. I know I know I know.
But to the extend that I got so jealous. Not because I'm jealous of her having a bf. Not because that her bf is very good looking. In fact, surprisingly, I didn't even like (as in love=like) her bf at all.

Just that...
What is happening to her is like a romance story in novels. Yeah, maybe her bf is good, I guessed. Everything is so perfect.

Is it only me? Or are all girls longed to have romantic love for at least once in their lives? Sweet gestures. Simple and inexpensive stuff. just as a way to show how the girl meant a lot for him.  Even picking up flowers from the ground can be sweet. Well, at least for me. I'm not sure about other girls.

Sometimes, I think, maybe because I'm too free. That's why I have so much time thinking about things. Causing me to think too much. Sherlyn ah...Don't think too much le la...Think too much is not healthy ahh...You should know. :(

Now, let's go to bed. :)

Confused

Today's post will be using pictures to describe my confusion. Anyway, I, myself also very confused.



I want....



But......


Cause sometimes....






I don't need...

 or 

I just want..


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The girl in the reflection

There's a girl in front of me, I wonder who she is. Sometimes I think I know her, sometimes I really wished I did.

There's a story in her eyes. Which you can see through it.

Remembering after the 2nd day of incident, still couldn't really get herself to sleep much.
It's impossible for her to act as if nothing happened when things happened.
She has been loosing sleep numeral times. And when things got worsened, she freaked out. Unsure of what to do to keep things at its best. The mind has been actively participated in the thinking process, probably because she's worried of the past reccurance. She tried so hard, but, nothing works. It seems hard to keep away from those thinkings.
Ever since, she started loosing her sleep.

And when she's looking back at me, I can tell that her heart breaks easily. Is there something I can do to help her?

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