Sunday, December 23, 2012

2nd week of internship

Monday (17/12/2012)
Working the whole day on the nutrition labeling thing. Cause I need to do research on the health benefits and make sure that my sentences are not medicinal or drug claims. Even in Nutritional Claims, we have to comply to the law and are not allowed to do medicinal claims such as "This product would heal bla bla bla". Of 4 gourmet ingredients, pikopiko fern is the hardest to find. Trust me. You won't even able to find any information on the gourmet ingredients in journals. I've used Google Scholar but nothing is found. I'm curious, why nobody do a research on the native plants in New Zealands which is used as medicinal benefits by the Maoris?

Tuesday (18/12/2012)
Saw a new girl today. Actually she's not new, she's actually an ex-intern. She's here for a month to help Harry. Her name is Ariel. Also quite friendly person :) So, since yesterday I submitted my labeling to Joan, today I'm working on finding the 14% solution thing. Just to make sure if the method to make the 14% salt solution in my mind is the same as in my findings. Then, during some free time, I take the opportunity to self study what is food extrusion is about and how pet foods are made and I tried to relate to the method that Joan explained to me last Friday about the pet food production method in our plants in New Zealand.

Wednesday (19/12/2012)
Joan gave me a new task. This time I can feel a little pressure. Cause it was something that I totally haven't done before. It's formulation of the product for our Kangaroo Apples. Then, I must alter the percentage in the formula to meet the AAFCO requirement as well as the does not exceed the company's budget. I was given time to digest the information, thanks to Joan who is being understanding :)
After work, I meet up with piggy. So long didn't meet him d...Happy that he made an attempt to ask me out <3 Hahaha...Piggy, I think next time when you had the chance to meet up with my funny colleagues, they'd nickname you "Blog" lo..Cause my colleagues they give nickname to each others' bf/husband...One of my colleague's husband was called "forum" because her husband always look at forum for information. Then there are also nicknames such as "Christmas tree", " bus stop" , etc. Hahaha...It was because it was how they met. LOL. Since we met through blog, maybe you'll be called blog :P


Thursday (20/12/2012) 
OMG. Today first time see my boss. He's so good looking and young! Hehehe..And he had kind of a deep sexy voice. <3 According to my colleagues, he was only about 33 or 34 only. So young right!!! I looked so shy and blushed when he greeted me this morning. LOL. So, today, Joan suddenly thought of a new idea. To use crocodile meat in our product! LOL. So, I had to look for the supplier. Again, it's not something I learned before. So, I learning it from my colleagues. Certains such as FOB and CIF and MOQ. Sounds very chim right? Hahah...All these terms are business related actually. :)

Friday (21/12/2012)
So they said today the world ends. Lemme entertain you with my funny colleague's story about her cute mum. Her mum gave her a packet of batteries and a torchlight today! Heehehe. Cause her mum said today the world will end. She's afraid that her daughter can't see in the dark. So cute right? Okay. This is not the end yet! Then, her mum also got called her to ask her what time she's coming back. My colleague said won't be so early. Then her mum asked "Can you come back by 8pm?" Then she replied "Cannot leh...Later got party ;lehh" Her mum replied, " Har?? Cannot come back by 8pm ar? Then you don't want die with us ah? You rather die with your friends is it?" She then replied, " Ma, mai siao la...The world not ending la" Her mum replied, " Nvm la, where is your party? I come to your party." LOL. So funny leh....
Anyway, today been trying to work on the formulation. Not easy but keep trying :)

First Week of Intern

1st day (10/12/2012):
I was 30 minutes early to the company. I was supposed to report to Joan on my first day, but when I reached Mayki was the one who brought me in instead as Joan will be late today. She introduce the places around the company to me. The toilet, pantry, warehouse, colleagues and my table. Mayki was a very nice and friendly person. And OMG. I only knew after lunch that she was 30. To my horror. She looks way younger than her age! I thought she's only 26 or 27. And also Ria. She's an Indonesian. She's only 27 but she looks about 24 or 25 >.<  The people working here looks so young than they really are. Mayki made toast kaya bread for me on my first day and keep me company till Joan comes. And Mayki was from Penang and she's the company's graphic designer. Her designs are really nice. :) Heehehe. And one thing I agree with Mayki is that, although you get all strings of A's in studies, that does not makes you a successful person. What makes you successful is the amount of digits you earn, which is true. As in, for what you study so hard and showing off your A's when you don't earn much?

After that Joan came and after a while, she passed me a project that the company is working on. And so, I get to do New Product and Development for dog food. Due to company's privacy, I wouldn't reveal much. But I am in charge of the food production and formulation. A bit stressed cause it seems that I'm the only Food Tech there. :(   So, basically, it's like I'm kinda working on my own but not really my own. Okay. It does sounds very confusing. But ahh.. nevermind. So, first day, productivity was ZERO 'cause I really couldn't find any information regarding the stuffs I had to find.

2nd day (11/12/2012):
Not much stuff but feeling a lil sleepy while working. Blame it on the lightings. It's kinda dark when it gets by the evening and this kind of atmosphere really makes you feel like sleeping. Trust me. Sit at my place and you'll know. So, second day, I tried using different keywords to find the information and gets some information although it's not directly the information I wanted, but I think it should be applicable. So, keep searching and searching and searching. According to Mayki, boss is always not here (in the company) and he's only back about once every 4 years? or is it 4 times a year? Can't really remember that. :|

3rd day (12/12/2012)
Saw manager today and she looks kinda fierce, but sometimes very funny. She got a cute daughter called "Chita?" LOL. I don't know how to spell. Today Joan made a twice attempt to scare me. Hmm..first attempt. not so successful perhaps because my reaction doesn't show that I got scared or something. So, while I was being so attentive listening to Mayki's story, all of sudden when I turned to my apple crumble, I got the shocked of my life that I screamed and jumped off from my chair. I can say that Mayki was a good actress. She act very normal (as in she doesn't laugh or anything) when I'm so innocent-looking. LOL. Self-praising again. :|  Hahaha! So, when Joan saw me got shocked, she laughed and she's like so happy. LMAO. Then, I said, "Wow. Joan. Finally succeeded to scare me after your 1st attempt. " Then, we all laughed and laughed and laughed.

4th day (13/12/2012)
Today nothing special. Sent my draft to Joan and working halfway on the nutritional labeling as requested by Joan yesterday. Joan said that the work is actually marketing people's work, but since I'm an intern, I get to do everything :) It's good I think, as I get to learn about labeling as well :)   But I'm still kind of worried about the New Product Development thingy. Cause this time, I really have no one to refer to. Joan doesn't know much about processing method. :|  Oh yeah, met a new colleague today. Her name called Aiza (?) She's a Pinoy <3 Hahaha. Don't ask me why but I like Pinoy people alot. Maybe because of Charice. LMAO. Aiza is also 30 but she doesn't look her age also :|  Most people at here had been given the opportunity to go overseas to work. Arghhhh....I really wished to work in this company next time. Imagine being given the opportunity to travel and work like my other colleagues. Oh yeah, Aiza is also from the production and formulation line. But she's leaving Singapore next week :|   Sighh, thought she can be my "tutor" in this new new line. :(

5th day (14/12/2012)
So, today working on the nutrition labeling. Never know Green Lipped Mussels have so many benefits. :) Can recommend mum to eat this for her knee and joint pain. Didn't know that the Maoris are so good with the herbs. Kawakawa leaves and pikopiko ferns are native to New Zealands and actually had many nutritional benefits. Supposed to submit to Joan for review but I aimed to get it done by Monday. Jia you! :)

Monday, December 17, 2012

Interesting fact learned during Intern

Learned an interesting stuff while working on my research. In fact, this is the first time that I heard that ONLY leaves that have been chewed by the larvae of a type of moth signify that it is ready to be used in medicine because most of the time, we wouldn't want our food/vegetable being chewed or eaten by insects/larvae.

Friday, December 14, 2012

the seven-years period

My colleagues said that the seventh year of relationship is the most scariest period. It's usually known as the break-up period.:'(

With all the confusion that he has given me now of saying he loves being alone, what does that mean? For now, I don't even know if we can survive the seven years? Feeling so emotional these few months.
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Saturday, December 8, 2012

I'm so in craze with these songs...
It is so beautiful that it makes you felt like looking forward to getting married. -.-''
Hehehe...

So, in future, these few songs shall be in my wedding song playlist. :)











A reflection of my studies in NUS


Although this is not my official time of leaving NUS, but 30/4/2012 was the date that marked the day when all of us (NUS FST Year 3 students) separate. This is because after the exams, we would be having our internship. And after our internship, some of us would be graduated, some of us would still stay for Honours, while some of us would stay for another semester to clear up our MCs. 

Didn't realize that time passed so fast, and all these came to an end. I thought I wouldn't miss anyone. But, somehow, I started to miss the teases, the hates, the fun, and so on. If not because of the conversation with a friend who used to be my best friend when we're in Semester 1, I wouldn't even have these nostalgic feelings. 

If there's one thing I regret, I'd say that, I regretted that I didn't attempt to really really know everyone in the class. Until this semester. 'Cause the past 2 years, the people that I knew in class wasn't helpful in guiding me things that I don't know. My first semester was tough as I was new to the environment and I need a lot of adaptation to learn as the teaching was very different. So, there's been a lot of new things that I don't know and I don't understand. So, I tried asking those smart people that I knew, but all I get from them is the answer "That one I simply do only. I also don't know how to do". But the answers they got are all correct. So, I realized, that as our cohort is very small, the competition is very high. So, people usually might be afraid that others will be smarter than them, so they don't dare to teach too.

Anyway, since then, I started to learn things on my own, and rely on myself. I tried to work harder but Semester 2 was not a good semester for me. A lot of things happened..and that caused my CAP to suffer. Abit depressed about my CAP but I told myself, the next coming years, I must strive harder. So, I worked harder, and slowly I saw improvements in my CAP. Semester 3, it increased. Semester 4, it increased again. :)

And now, I'm in Semester 5. I really hope to see more improvements. And of course, I need to thank some of my helpful Professors. This semester I had 5 core modules and I would say that although semester 5 had the heaviest workload and most hectic ones, I really really learnt alot this semester. From Food Microbiology to Food Safety to Food Engineering and Food Innovations, Sensory and Packaging as well as Nutrition for Disease Prevention. As for Food Microbiology and Food Safety, I became more aware of the foodborne pathogens. I didn't even know before this that, even without signs of defects in the food, food poisoning can occur. And it's all due to the foodborne pathogens. And also, some pathogens are actually able to grow in refrigerated or frozen foods, like Listeria monocytogenes and Yersinia Enterolitica. Their names are quite unique right? Hehehe...I like the name Salmonella. Probably because got the word "salmon" in it. :P Hehehe. :D   Then I had some funny friends that call my professors "Sin Bin kor" or "Biao kor" ...LMAO ROFL LOL. Okay, of course they don't call that names in front of the professor la. If not, later the professor would think " Wah, I'm very close to you ar? I'm your brother ah?" Hahahaha. Oh yeah, and also we learnt about fermentation too! We learnt how to make wines and white kimchi and also we had a hand-on project in which my group chose to make "chou tou fu" which stinks the whole lab whenever we opened the cupboard. Hehehehe. 

As for my Food Engineering module, I also learnt alot from Prof Zhou. Sometimes, I would think how good if I had a father like him. LOL. Too much imagination. Haha! But seriously,he's really a good lecturer.  And to be honest, Semester 5 was the first semester that I do every tutorial without fail. :)  Perhaps, it was because his teaching was really good. And he really make sure that we understand everything we learnt. And when we asked him question, he would want us to think. And that's really a good point about him :) Of course previously there's another professor who is similar to him, but I don't even know why Prof Zhou (my Food Engineering module professor) had such a huge impact on me. Especially when a student like me who never do tutorials. -.-''

As for my Food Sensory module, I also learnt a lot about our senses, particularly the taste and the smell. Professor Ong was quite young and cool. And we always get foodies from him during lecture. I remembered the first time when he was trying to make us experience retronasal aroma so that we can understand it. So, he gave everyone flavoured mentos. And he taught us how to get that experience. Cause as a food scientist, apart from orthonasal aroma, retronasal aroma is also important. In layman's term, orthonasal aroma is the aroma that you'd get by sniffing the food. But for retronasal aroma, it's the aroma that you'd get from the action of biting or chewing of the food. There's also one time that he wanted us to understand the Signal Detection Theory. So, he asked the class to pick any song that we want to hear. Some of us gave some suggestions like "Lady Gaga", "Bad romance", or some lao ge (old chinese songs). Then, he said, "hmm...don't want la. Okay. Let's listen to Bruno Mars's Lazy Song okay?" Then we all like, "Wooo~~~~" Hahaha...He's quite cute. The idea of putting the song as the background while he's teaching, although it's quite distracting, but that's the main point! Cause Signal Detection Theory is about a person making their decision and reasoning under the presence of uncertainties. In other way, it actually means that you're trying to detect a signal (the professor's voice) from the background noise (the music). He really explained things in such an understandable and easier way to remember. Even when writing these out, I don't even refer to the notes although it's already after exam, which is a good thing. Cause usually for me, I tend to forget everything after the exams. :P

And lastly, for my Nutrition and Disease Prevention module, I also learnt a lot. And do you know that nutrition indeed has a lot of controversies? As in, you might think that excessive salt intake is the only reason that causes high blood pressure. But in fact, studies actually showed inconsistencies of the results. Some studies showed that salt causes hypertension, but some studies showed that salt doesn't have effect on blood pressure. Nevertheless, it's very important to reduce salt intake though, because the inconsistencies could be due to salt hypersensitivity or other secondary problems such as kidney damage , defects in the salt management of kidneys and so on. Also, I learnt to eat better and healthier in order to prevent myself from those chronic diseases. And I should avoid pickled food too :(    Cause pickled food can cause cancer too. :(   Sad face 'cause I love pickles alot. >.<
Also food to be avoided are of cause the most famous trans fat and saturated fats. And I should eat more of the PUFA and MUFA and Omega 3-FA. Eat more good fats to promote healthy breasts ^_^  And also, I should start losing weight too. Cause I think I'm in the overweight category now (Asian BMI and Caucasian BMI are different). And also I learnt how obesity can lead to so many chronic diseases such as hypertension, DIABETES, CVD....All these conditions in combinations lead to a medical condition called Metabolic Syndrome. So scary huh...Cause obesity is actually not only a problem of eating too much or storing too much fats. Our adipose tissues actually had its capacity and it's actually an endocrine organ as well. I never knew fats send hormone before until I learnt about this in this module. And so, when our the fatty acids are overloading in the blood when the adipose tissue is at its capacity, they start to search for places to be stored and they usually will get stored in the muscles, liver and pancreas. And how does obesity leads to diabetes? Interesting right? Okay, it's actually because when the organs became overloaded with fats, glucose uptake by our muscles cannot happen. So, the glucose will be like floating around in the blood. Then, the fatty liver causes insulin resistance :(  That's how you actually get diabetes from obesity. OMG. I wrote too much. Hehehe. Sorry, I'm a person who tend to write things long-winded. Such a bad habit >.<

Besides feeling "smarter a lil" for this semester, there is also a few of my classmates that I just got to know better this semester. They're really willing to teach me in things that I don't understand although I'm not so close to them yet. They're smart but humble. Not like others that I knew in the first semester. And the best thing is, if you don't understand, they're willing to explain till you understand. :')  

And regarding about my best friend in Semester 1, after we parted after the first semester, we hardly talked to each other together much until like the end of this semester. She is also the one who has never fail to plan all birthday surprises for me each year. Seeing her Whatsapp message, being invited to her party, planning for hangouts, although we're back together, but it doesn't feels the same anymore. As in we're not that close anymore. Perhaps it's because there are differences between us but the only thing that we had in common is GOOD FOOD and HANGOUTS. And the worst thing is, she kept making fun of me being drunk once. >.<    OMG. Why all my friends' "fondest" memories of me is me being drunk? >.<
Suddenly felt that I'd miss her most. Anyway, we're planning of a Graduation trip together after our Intership or is it after our graduation (i can't remember). Hahaha. And also, we probably would be hanging out together after work (if our body allows us). :) 

Oh yeah, before I end, I wanna talk about this cute friend of mine. She's actually from China, but she doesn't even look from China and doesn't even have the China accent. LOL. And for one year, I really thought that she's a local until my friend said whenever the professor asked whois from China, some will look at Mi Jie also. Then, I'll like, " Huh? She looks like she's from China meh?" My friend then tell me that she's originally from China. She's hmmm...not to say tomboyish, but a lil tomboyish. LOL. Oh yeah, she's our health advisor. LOL. As in, she's a person who is very particular about health and also an environmentalist. Hahahaha! If you wanna eat snacks or junk foods, better not in front of her, you'll get last warning from her. LMAO. But of course, in a funnier way la. It's not that she scold us or what, but she'll like "Eh, sherlyn, why are u eating this? Not healthy you know. See all those saturated fats and trans fats and bla bla bla". And also, shouldn't eat animal products in front of her. Hahaha. Cause she will give another nag. :P   Being a vegetarian is actually her own choice. It's actually because after watching the videos about how those animals that we eating is killed, she felt very bad about it and pity the animals. That's why she chose to be a vegetarian and I respect her for that. 

I usually respect people's choice of food  except some people who restricts their food just because they wanted to stay slim. Oh c'mmon, as long as there's energy intake and energy utilization, you won't gain weight unless your net energy is positive (energy intake - energy utlization). The idea of people keep counting their calories and don't allow themselves eating those nice foods although it's like not in an often occasion really makes me felt that it's ridiculous and unnecessary. Sometimes, we should just free ourselves up and just enjoy the food although it's high in fats or whatever. It's not that you're doing it everyday duh! 

Thursday, December 6, 2012

The Power of Time

People says "Power proves everything".

And I couldn't help agreeing. It's a fact. Time proves everything.

It proved to us that things changed with time.
It proved to us that people changed with time.
It also proves that .... changed with time, doesn't it?

Sometimes, I wished that I could just freeze the time so that things would last forever. Feelings. Relationship. Love.

It doesn't feels like what it used to be before anymore. Everything seemed to changed. It's like the world turned upside down.


Just hope  it's not what's in my mind. Maybe I should stop thinking about it and go get some sleep.

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Sex is Zero

Don't get me wrong from the topic of this blog post.
It's actually the name of a movie.
And yes, from the title of the movie, it's actually R-rated.
I came upon this movie during the exam "stress" period. Hmmm...yes, I'm stressed during the exams, but usually probably there are some hormonal changes within me. I won't elaborate more.

So, exams had finished. So, it marks the commencement of some movie marathon that I wanted to watch during the holidays, commencement of my "weight loss program" due to the weight gain during the pre-examination period, and also it marks the commencement of ....my INDUSTRIAL ATTACHMENT ! Arghhhh~ Abit nervous and a bit scared.

Anyway, kept these aside. Lemme talk bout this movie which made me cried so much. Okay. As I'm a more emotional person, I tend to cry easier than others. So, maybe this movie wouldn't make you cry at all!
But, from my point of view, this movie actually touching perhaps due the love that the guy gave. This man, may not be the most good looking guy in the world, but his love is so unique in a way....I don't know how to describe but I strongly recommended that you should watch.

His character is actually quite pity leh. Other people might view him as silly or something, but sometimes, when you love someone, you'll do anything for them just to make them happy right? Even though he's poor, even though he's not good looking or even though he's not super smart like others.

It's like he's the best guy in the world. And the most important thing is, he's loyal. :) Although his friend dragged him to the whorehouse, he's not even intended to have anything with the hooker. And yes, he also does have his own needs. Every guys have their own needs, and we women should respect that it's their needs as long as it's not over-excessive and it does not influence your relationship, and the most important thing is, the guy respect you and is responsible.

Anyway, here's the full movie from Youtube and enjoy! :)

Part 1:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cE89-2Ne1PU



Part 2:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0PqgEnS_Y74&feature=g-like


Friday, November 16, 2012

why must it be her

All along I've sensed something. Maybe I'm too slow. Everyone knew it started beginning of this sem. But towards end of the semester, I'm the last to know.

Do I feel unhappy about it? I don't know. Or is it I'm unhappy because I'm the last to know bout it? But why am I feeling so grumpy and unhappy after knowing bout this and worst thing is, I'm the last to know.

Anyway, I won't be meeting these people anymore. So... it's great. Cause it's one of my wish Not to meet them. Except some people, of Course. There are some that are good friends but certainly I put up a boundary wall cause I don't wanna come into conclusion too fast like one of the classmates that I thought I can trust on but in the end, I realize I couldn't put trust to her anymore. It seems like she changed a lot after she went exchange with the others in the class.

Anyway, enough of feeling grumpy or unhappy. It's already the end of our journey and I won't be seeing them either. So yeah, I'll end it here.
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Monday, November 12, 2012

My blog is a place for me to venge my anger

Bitch please!

If you don't wanna help me in explaining on how to do the lab report, just tell me! Don't have to come with all sorts of excuses to avoid my questions.

In fact, if it wasn't because you're the only one who finished writing the lab report, I'm just trying to ask a minor question due to some contradictions from the graphs that I've plotted. I'm not asking you to show me how you plot the graphs or ask u to do anything for me! Just because the ln(delta LAB) vs time plot gave a super negative regression value, which is not normal, so I'm just trying to ask if you got the same problem as I've encountered. Yes, you answered that question. But, as all of us know, that regression values shouldn't be negative. But, you're trying to avoid my questions and not even try to think about it together. We did the experiments in a group, but you bitch...Okay whatever. Any updates, if you've done it wrongly, then it's your own problem. Probably, you just blindly copy whatever the senior did. Which in the case, the senior actually did it wrongly. Thanks to one kind soul, who although not in my experiment group, was still willing to explain things to me and help me get my clarifications of my doubts.

I thanked you for not helping me bitch! Cause I learned more from that helpful soul compared to people like you. Although you're smart with GPA above 4.6, but your attitude is fucking bad!

Friday, November 9, 2012

Genuinely Good?

All of sudden these people "treat" me good...
Giving me fruits and tidbits...

But sorry if you're sincerely good to me, but I know I had this habit of doubting people since I came here. Since people had hidden meanings when they offered me food.

I had this classmate who occasionally offers me stuffs when he don't want it.
One of them I could remember most is when he offered me an egg tart that a friend made for him on his birthday.
So pity that girl right. People make for him so xing ku, (no intention, not trying to woo him or something okay. that girl already had a bf). Then, he asked me if he wants it. Then, I happily said "yes". A bit dumb that time cause I don't know it was an unwanted stuff. Then only my friends said, "Eh...X, why you so bad?"Then only I started getting curious. Like, why they said like that.

Another occasion, a friend offered me expired cereal drinks. @.@
What's her intention???

Then, from now on, I started to become more careful and selective and grew wiser. Not all things people offered to us, we can accept.


Monday, October 22, 2012

The Feeling of Nakedness

Under this super hot weather...
The only thing that you wanted to do is ...
To strip off your clothes and enjoy the wind blow against your skin.
Yeah, this is what I wanted to do so bad.

But, because I'm in public, I can't do that. >.<
Oh dear, why must the weather be so hot?
Hot weather seriously pisses me off.
Cause I hated to sweat.

Damn, I can't take off anything and enjoy the air-cond.
It's better to enjoy the air-cond without clothes on. Seriously.
Miss my room (in Taiping), where I can just lie down on the bed with the air-cond on and feeling so nude. :)   It's the best feeling ever!

Friday, September 14, 2012

Sometimes you just got tired of asking

Asked...rejected...
Hinted...yet no actions...
Given hopes...and later you crushed all the hopes...
All of sudden, I felt lost of hopes...Don't dare to put too much hopes in whatever you say anymore...
Which is why I realized why people said action is louder than words...
Words are easily said. But actions show more than words.

Anyway, after much of the disappointments and being happy and suddenly being unhappy because of the crushed hopes, I decided that I would ask and hint no more. Unless, unless...something (which you should think it yourself).

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Shall Stop...being Clingy

Feels so silly to cry in such a public place. Know it's embarrassing (hope no one STOMP me, will KILL that person if STOMP me crying >.<), but these stubborn tears and nose keep refused to listen to my brain's command.

Dear tear glands and mucous glands,
Why must you all listen to my heart!!!!??? Can you please listen to my brain, stop crying and stop producing mucus, making me looks like I'm crying like ...I don't know...

Feel so sad whenever I see couples together....Seeing my friends meeting their boyfriends after lessons. Then, makes me wonder....where's ...mine.

Yeah, I know I'm too clingy. Sorry for that. I'll try to be more independent. Be less clingy too. I'll try.

Sunday, September 9, 2012

Accusation

I really hate being accused for things that I didn't do, or the things I didn't do on purpose.

Last Friday, we had a Sensory Lab. I placed my bag and my file on the first table next to a coursemate. Then, a friend called us up to go to the table behind the first table for HACCP discussion. V sat on the seat opposite to my seat. Since half of the first sem, V and I became enemies. I was still angry for what she said about how she deserve a scholarship more than me, but I do try to shook it away and tried to be good to her. But, V never appreciated that. So, I just remain unfriend with her.

But sometimes, she really gone too far. Not only she has been saying bad things behind my back, she accused me of "stealing" her friend's lab manual. Please, why the heck must I go still people's lab manual when everyone has the same lab manual??? I have no rights to point fingers to say that she's the one who placed my lab manual far away and put her friend's lab manual on my file. (Cause before I went to the other table for my discussion, I put my lab manual on top of my purple file).

Yes, I admit that I accidentally took  her friend's lab manual as I mistaken it as my lab manual because it's on my file! And I swear that I didn't did it on purpose, because the sensory test was quite fast, and I was is the midst of the discussion. So, when the TA called our numbers, I just rushed to my seat and grab the lab manual on my file. And I seriously didn't know that the lab manual wasn't mine until I do my sensory test in the conference room! And that was the time when I started panicking during the sensory test because there's a form in the lab manual that we have to submit and I realised that lab manual I'm holding, wasn't mine and the form is not there!

I was lucky that my lecturer was kind to me, and gave me another form as I told him that someone misplaced someone else's lab manual on my place. Then, when I came back from the conference room, I put the lab manual on the first table back, just in case that person would frantically find her lab manual. So, I tried searching for mine, and it was far away from my place. I seriously unsure if that person did it on purpose, or genuinely misplaced my lab manual. Then, when I found mine, G shouted my name loudly and said that I took her lab manual. I apologized to her and explained what happened. Then I saw V whisper to her and said that I did it on purpose.

That time, I felt angered and a lil hurted. For I know that G will trust V's words. I broke down (of course not in the lab) and Grace and Weng Chan saw me crying, offering me help if I needed. Grace tried asking me what's wrong, but I didn't tell. I wanted to tell, but still, I think, even if I tell, there's nothing much they can do. I was a lil touched that Grace came to me to comfort me awhile, but, sometimes, I'm too scared of people. Maybe I find it too hard to open up to people from my course.

Well, there's one quote from Lea that I really think it's relevant to me:

"Don't be defeated by people's words. People may try all ways to bring us down, but it's so funny when they realized that their words and actions doesn't have any effects towards us. Just be ourselves :)"


Thursday, August 30, 2012

Difference between NUS coursemate vs Form 6 schoolmates

Not sure if it's because I'm not living in a big CITY instead of the small TOWN of Taiping...But I really note a SUPER MEGA HUGE DIFFERENCE between my NUS coursemates and my Form 6 schoolmates.

In the case with my Form 6 schoolmates,

Despite the time of knowing one another is actually 1.5 years, it has always seemed that we knew one another very long time ago. We accept one another easily and it's easy for me to open up to them. They are kind and are good listeners, keeping your secrets unlike some people at here.

In the case with my NUS coursemates,

Despite the time that we've known and been in the same class for almost 2 years plus, they have always been a STRANGER to me. And I don't feel like opening myself up to them. I know people here are super brilliant and bright and rich and so on, and they like to look down on people. Of course, I'm not generalizing but I'm quite sure there are 1 or 2 which really makes a good friend! Cause I somehow can feel it, but I don't want to jump into conclusions too fast!

It always happened to me, the moment I thought that the person is good, after I think that I could open up to them, you can hear them bitching about you in the toilet. Yeah, they don't know I'm in the toilet cause it's a kinda rare for me to use the Science's toilet. I just happened to be in the same toilet where they're talking bout me.

I know I'm POOR, I know I'm INCOMPETENT and not as SMART as you, and that's why you think that I shouldn't come Spore to study cause I'm ZERO huh...Yeah, I'm a loser, look down on me people. One day, I'll grow stronger than you can ever imagine. So, just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth so that everyone can hear you!

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Everybody Lies

I had a principle or you can call it as something I believe in, which is..."Everybody Lies".

I know I've posted numerous times about me not trusting people and I have trusting issues. The reason I'm like that is not because I wanted to be like this, but it's just so impossible to fix it after you've been betrayed over and over again. It always happened to me that, when I started putting my trust in someone, it's like, initially, I always told myself that I shouldn't put much trust on that person, but eventually, that person seemed to make me think that she's worth the trust, so, after I start putting more trust on that person, that person will show their flaws. It happened to me now, still.

Is it really hard to open up our hearts? I think I should slam it shut. Everybody lies. I guessed I should just lead a normal life. I know that person is bitching behind my back, used me, and acted good when I'm in front of them. Anyway, I shouldn't show too much that I realized everything about them. Maybe I should just act normal and ignore whatever they said about me.

Anyway, haters will continue hating us. We are not born to please them. Just keep doing whatever I'm doing. :)


Wednesday, August 22, 2012

This Semester

So far, this semester seems to be OKAY.

But almost freak out when I see past year papers for FST 3104. Things look so difficult. :\ 
Okay, perhaps we haven't learn much stuff yet. But basically some of our lecture timings are used for our project discussion. Hmm...I aim to contribute as much as I can and hope people will evaluate me fairly on my contributions through the peer evaluation. Cause, I think I worked a lot as well! So basically, I think so far, SO FAR la..for FST 3104 project groupings, I'm quite satisfied. I really like the Philippine exchange student (Kriza) a lot. Hahahaha! Trust me, I'm not the only one saying that she looks like CHARICE!!!! :)

And she's SMART! I think. And I guessed a lot of people thinks that as well. She has good communication skills as well as AWESOME secretarial skills. I think I need to learn that too! Writing minutes and agendas and so on...I seemed to be struggling although I've learned that before. :\
No experience ba. But Kriza, she is super organized and I really feels that she contributed a lot alot! So, in my peer evaluation, I'm giving her very high marks! :)

But,...for FST 3101 lab...I'm not very happy with my groupings. :(
Initially I think it's okay, but one of the girl (there are 5 of us) seems to like to DOMINATE a lot! It feels that she's the only one doing everything! And to be honest, I REALLY DON'T LIKE IT! I thought we're supposed to work in a group and let everyone has the chance of hands on. Come on la...you're not the only person who's doing the experiment what...Or are you thinking that the rest of us are not competent as you?!!! Damn beh song with this kind of people lo...Everyone should have the chance to learn things also ma...Why is it that you think that you're the only one who has to do all the things? And when we asked her, she said "Nvm.. I can do it." Seriously wtf man!

And FST 3101 lab got fermentation and microbiology labs...For fermentation labs, oh gosh, it'll be sucky for me. So I think I just have to endure. Cause...in my group got someone that I don't like. Okay, we're both kind of like enemies, we don't like one another. I don't like her because she said that she deserved a scholarship better than me since her grades are higher. Show off girl. Yeah, it was 3 years ago, but sorry, I'm a person who will remember people's hurtful words for the rest of my life.

As for FST 3101 lectures, hmmm hmmm hmmm...so far so good. But kind of difficult to catch Dr Yuk's accent. Sighhh...if only I can filter his words. But most of the time, especially in the morning, I'll be stoning and my mind kind of somewhere else. Also perhaps because of morning laziness.Need to get my mind back and focus focus and focus during class.  -.-''  

Okay...now I shall get back to study FST 3102. Have not study at all since the last week due to vigorous project research :(

Thursday, August 9, 2012

Awkward silence

So here we are... in the same room. And there's an awkward silence between us. I know probably it's due to my fault. Maybe I should apologize...:'(
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Sunday, August 5, 2012

Sweet Marriage Proposals

Actually I've seen the Tim & Audrey's proposal being shared around in Facebook but I've never bothered to   watch it..Till, I saw Poju shared this link and since I've nothing to do, so no harm watching I guessed...But I cried when I watched this. :\

It's so touching but I do laugh from time to time because of the humor he puts in throughout the proposal. I really think it's cute. Rather than just going for a candlelight dinner, then all of sudden, pulled out a ring and asked me. Uhmm...if it's this kind, I would never accept cause ... lack of something that I would call it cute and sweet. :\  I know I'm kind of asking a lot but it's a once in a lifetime thing, so I want it to be special and not boring.

Let me introduce you to the Meme Proposal by Tim & Audrey:

I think this kind of proposal contains a lot of humor in it and you can see the efforts that the guy has made although it seems so simple and spontaneous. :)  And this style is really good if you have a number of best friends to help out :)

This proposal also quite cute...But, requires lotsa friends who are willing to help out. Hahahaha. Inspired by Glee I guessed, but it's really really sweet too. :)

Hahaha...Probably the guy also asked the girl's girlfriends to help out. Hahaha..And his parents...Hehehe..Isn't it cute? Parents so kind even to help out in the proposal, how can the girl says No? ;)

Here's another one - this proposal is very very sweet that I cried most I guessed. Hmm..but I never laughed...:(   Although it's really sweet, but I'm not sure if I want to cry a lot. I like, but not sure if this kind of proposal if happened to me, I would end up with goldfish eyes, if you know what I mean. Here you go:


And if you really observe in all wedding proposals, SURPRISES are the most important element in wedding proposal! No surprises = failed wedding proposals. This is because all girls like surprises, I bet.

Hahahaha. If you're planning to propose to your gfs and you're reading this, do search in Youtube for marriage proposals for new and fresh ideas. Thanks for reading and Good Luck! ;)

Somang's AHA Apple Cleansing Water

I love this product OMG... after using it for once, my face feels soft and smooth. And I like the apple smell so much,seems yummy yummy xD.

This product is formulated with Apple and other fruity goodness to actively stimulate cell renewal and cleanse pores for radiant skin. That's why it's smell is really nice.

It's actually an exfoliator whic exfoliates with AHA extracted from apple. This also helps to deep cleanses the blocked pores with botanical oil. and lastly, yup it moisturizes and protect your skin with fruits water. I still apply moisturizer after using this though. Cause usually they said moisturizing is an important step after exfoliating so that the moisturizer can be easily absorbed by skin.

Worth the try:)
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Saturday, August 4, 2012

Sentosa Day <3

Today we went to Sentosa beach:))

Made egg rolls in the morning at 1030 cause we're meeting at 1pm at vivocity.
Went lunch at Soup Spoon and shop at Daiso awhile. Haha. Around 3.50pm, we headed to Sentosa Express to go Sentosa;)

Hehehe... we took a lot of pictures xDD


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Sunday, July 29, 2012

Obsessed with Love - Am I or am I Not

Call me an overly emotional person, I don't care - for I know I'm actually one, and I admit that.

As far as I know, no matter how hurted I am in my past, I'm still a believer in true love although most of the time I lied to myself about it.
Trust me, all girls do believe in things called true love no matter how hard they said that they never believe in it. Yeah, I know some of the girls would say I'm crapping and they never trust in true love. Sorry, but shut the f* up. Do you dare to ask yourselves honestly when you saw an elderly couple still so loving and devoted to one another, and you've never wished that things like this happened to you? To be still loved by someone so dearly even though there are creases and wrinkles on your face and so on??

And guys, please note that you should always remember your wife's birthday and your anniversary. It really upset girls when you forgotten it although you genuinely forgotten bout it. It applies to your gfs too, if you're really committed to her. I know some guys would never understand why anniversary is so important to girls but these dates are the only dates that most girls would never forget for it as from her perspective, she'll see the day as a time to remember all your "firsts" together (first date, first kiss, etc.). There are actually tonnes of reasons, so you'd need to do your homework yourselves.

As for me, I always know that I'd never want to follow my mum's footsteps. Sometimes I tend to get jealous listening to my friends how happy their parents are being together and how sweet they are and etc. I was actually pitying my mum and amazed a lil how she could pull herself up and being strong. Dad never remember her birthday neither their anniversaries. :(
And I clearly know how upset she is, when she told me dad would never remember her birthday or anniversary... no matter how neutral she made her tone sounds, I know deep inside, she has never been really happy with the marriage. Although she always said she hates dad, but I know somehow, somewhere, she still loves dad. :(

Although I've seen failed love and myself been hurted for over and over again (sounds like I've never learn my mistakes:/ ) , it had never stop believing in true love. I know I sounded like a little kid that believes in fairytales. But I am realistic enough to understand that there won't be a prince charming riding a white horse to see me or there's such thing called happy ever after. Of course, every couples- young or married - they do fight and still get back together. So, it's impossible to have perfect relationship where you live happily ever after without fights.

Perhaps you might asked, why do I still believe in true love despite all the downsides I've been through. But, I've also witnessed true love. Like my grandpa and my 2nd grandma. Yes, my 2nd grandma is my grandpa's first love. They liked each other but grandpa had to marry my grandma(yes, this is very confusing but yeah, my grandma, which is the 1st wife) due to arranged marriage. Before they get married, my grandma knew bout my grandpa and his first love. and she tried so hard to make them separate to the extend of consulting a few bomohs. (Bomohs are malay shaman well I don't really know how to define this exactly but I know they can summon spirits to heal or to cast spells) of course, because of the spells, they do separated a few years and grandpa had to marry my grandma. It was long enough but somehow fate brought them back together. They fell in love with each other again though my grandpa has never forget her. It's cute to know that sometimes my grandpa will use an excuse to bring my dad to go kia kia to paktor with my 2nd grandma. And as a reward for my dad for keeping grandpa's secret, dad was always given sweets and toys. Lol.;)

And despite the objection and so on, they somehow got married and grandpa choose to stay with my 2nd grandma instead with my grandma... and also it seemed that grandpa learned that my grandma did put a spell to make them separated. It's beautiful that how true love can break spells.:)

Although 2nd grandma had died, grandpa would still misses her so bad and there's no more the familiar delightful face he had after her death... This is the reason why I still believe in true love. You can call me silly and unrealistic if you want... I actually don't mind.

But, I know it's rare and hard to find one...:( sighhhh... I spent my lifetime searching and I'm not still sure if I found one. But I know I'm always been serious and committed when I'm in a relationship. Sometimes I'd find myself so silly for being fully devoted in love.
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Lessons and review from "The Wedding"

One of my favorite statement is:

"The reason why I read to Allie is because, each time I read to her, it was like I was courting her, because sometimes, just sometimes, she would fall in love with me again, just like she had a long time ago. And its the most wonderful feeling in the world. How many people are given that chance? To have someone you love fall in love with you over and over?"
-Noah from 'The Notebook'

Sighhh..... I wondered how many guys think the way like him. :(

Besides that, according to Experts' advice on improving a marriage - 4As: Attention, Appreciation, Affection, and Attraction. However, most of the time the first 2 is the most neglected ones. Though affection and attraction may still present, one of the reason for problems that causes relationships falling apart is because of the lack of attention and appreciation. :'(

Another statement from The Wedding that I adore is: " If it had taken 29 years to drift apart, I knew that a few weeks of effort was simply the beginning of a long process of approachment. "

It makes me wondered, how many man in this world think exactly like him? For I know in most man, once they thought a relationship is failing, that's the end of it. Or even if they tried for a couple of months to win their loved ones back and they still failed to do so after falling apart from the relationship that's worth a few years, they actually gave up quite easily. How many man would think that way like the guy in the novel did?

Love is more than the 3-words mumbled before bedtime, which is sustained by action, a pattern of devotion in the things we do for one another every day. But, how many of us know that? Sometimes it really occurs to me that saying the 3 words would just be a habit for uhmm..., but I really wouldn't want that to happen. :(

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Saturday, July 28, 2012

The Wedding

I was just at the page of 8 and tears flooded my eyes. Makes me wondered why I would cry so easily. I know I displayed my emotions with childlike ease. When I'm sad, I'd cry. When I'm happy, I'd laugh and smile.

But the story in "The Wedding " somehow reflects what would happened to me in the future. The woman described in the novel is almost similar to myself. From personality and to some characters. And also something else.

Also because of what I'm in right now is almost like in the story. Yeah, the life after marriage can be devastating sometimes when things fallen apart and something else.

Because our "story" almost similar, it makes me wanting to finish "The Wedding " as soon as possible. Hope I'd never cry too much. Yesterday's already made my eyes looks so freaking puffy. Too much crying makes you looked uglier.:(
Wished I'm not that kind of girl who cried so easily. :(

Well, let's wait till I finished reading it so that I can give a review bout that novel:)
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Fear

Feeling scared? Insecure.... afraid of falling.
Hmmm... anyway, what if a wrong decision makes a healthier relationship? Reluctant to do so, but.will be trying hard to accept the consequences. There's always a risk in every single thing. Well, maybe what this phrase that my dad said to me before was true. And yeah, I realized it was indeed true. Everything, everywhere, there's always a risk. Don't be fear of taking risks. It may turn out to be good to you. :)
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Thursday, July 26, 2012

Fresh Spring Look



OMGosh...I wonder where to get ÔSCILLATION INTENSITY Power Mascara?? It looks cool...:\

DIY Ice Cucumber Pads (bye bye puffy eyes)



Cool~~I guessed now I can save up from buying eye masks...:)

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Stop Your Judgements

Last few days, saw a post on Stomp about the confession of a sex addict. Without analyzing why a person became like that, people started flaming at her and called her "whore". And also an episode from "House" where the girl's classmates laughing at her for being fat. It's in everyone's nature to judge people, huh? People just don't realize how calling people names and making fun of people hurts people's feelings.

Stop judging people when you know little about them. Don't think that you know everything when you actually know less bout them. Calling people whore, fat, ugly...Don't you know it's hurting?

Before you judge people, please make sure that you're PERFECT.


Saturday, July 21, 2012

Wide Awake

Trying hard to sleep but still feeling awake. I know it must be those thoughts of fears making me wide awake. Close my eyes, and the thoughts came. It's not easy to shook them off right ??
Or is it because I've been sleeping late the last few days?

Scan my brain through fMRI perhaps would show that my brain is actively thinking. Oh, those useless scary thoughts. Wished I can somehow just make you vanish the moment you appears so that I'd be able to have a good night's sleep.

Go away thoughts. Let me have a good night's rest. Let me have a good sleep.
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Thursday, July 19, 2012

Heora - Under The Moonlight 달빛이 지고 The Moon Embraces The Sun OST [Hangul...




Looks like my addiction come back. When I watched any Korean dramas, I would fall in love with their soundtracks...Currently desperately downloading their songs :)

Really Want a Getaway Trip after grad...

The thoughts of hectic working life after graduation freaks me out a lil. Okay, I know I still have a year before I graduate, but...I really wanna enjoy life before I start working for I know that there will be minimal chance for me to do what I wanted when I started working... :(

I wanna go horse riding, sunbathing on the beach in bikini (where no one knows me xD), go for an elephant ride like Jane from Tarzan, banana boat (but also kinda afraid if I would fall into the sea :\ ), spa, massage, etc...Sigh...

I was thinking of Singapore's neighbouring country like Bintan, Batam, Bali, ....
Hmm...sudden thoughts came into mind as I couldn't sleep yesterday. Probably because I was trying to keep awake when I was sleepy till I can't sleep. :\

Considering mum seldom get the chances of travelling, makes me wondered if she would be willing to go with me if I found good deals... xDD
But...she still can't travel to Singapore alone. Aiyorrrr.. :\
Arghhh...my mind felt so fahn.... :(

DEAR JI MUIS,
Your all wanna go together?? xDDD
Must start saving up money I guessed... :\
I think more people would be fun, but not too much. Around 6-7 would probably do fine. :)

Or else....
Backup plans would be...like my cousin sister...travel alone lo... :)

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Finally a cleaned fan

Thanks dear a lot for offering to help to clean the fan.
It was freaking dirty and you can actually judge it by the pictures below.

At last, I've got a cleaned fan and lesser dust environment. My roommate should thank him lo. Anyway, still hope she at least spot the difference. Cause I paid more and yet I'm the one had to do the cleaning.

Today we cleaned the fan and also changed the bed sheet and pillow case. Not to mention that we also swept the floor and I've just changed the dustbin plastic bag. Not sure how she stay with the overflooded dustbin, but since I really can't stand things becoming over untidy, I had to take the initiative to replace the dustbin with a new plastic bag. Everything looks fresher and cleaner:)


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Not sure if am I really dumb or what...
Paid 60% of the hostel vacation stay fee when I actually stayed almost the same amount of time with my roommate, but yet, I had to do most of the work..
Is not that I wanted to complain bout things, but shouldn't she at least tidy up her place?
I thought I was already an untidy person, but to be honest, I think she's a lil too much than me?

Well, most of the time, I was the one sweeping the floor. And she never actually sweep the floor. Okay, once, but it's only the area where her study table is. Okay, this one I don't complain.

Secondly, because of her dusty room and I really couldn't stand of the dust because of my allergies, I helped her changed and washed the bed sheet. Hey, it was freaking $2 okay. Not for free! >.<  This one I still keep to myself. Well, my bf knows it because I complained to him. :\

And now, I think I need to clean the fan as well? Oh well. I really got so shocked when I saw freaking thick dusts ON THE BED!!!!! >.<   What if in the midnight I slept and those huge thick dust fell on me???!!! I had super allergic skin (which I don't really like too) and now this is really bothering me! I'm not even sure if I feel safe to sleep on that bed, and I can't off the fan neither because her room was FREAKING HOT!  >.<
But....I can't reach the fan....T_____T

I'm not sure how am I supposed to clean the fan? :'(   And this also means that, I don't get to sleep on the bed till I found a way to clean those fans...T___T

Monday, July 16, 2012

3-days with HIM :)

12/7 - We went for our Korean BBQ+Steamboat buffet. He came over to my place after he collect his Matric card in school. Initially, the day before we planned to go UHC to enquire the doctor about the medication before our buffet. But time was rushing for us, and I received sis's Whatsapp asking me to try the medication for another day first to see if I completely recovered and if not, only go and see the doctor.
So, we went for our buffet at about 12pm in Toa Payoh. :)

Not sure if he eats less or I ate more. Hahahaha...But he said that he ate alot. Hmmm...  :)
Here's our photos:

*The "I-want-to-pang-sai-look". Hahahahaha!



After buffet, we went to Gardens By the Bay~~ Hehehehe...

*On the way...So we "zhi pai" in front of the mirrors..xD


At the Gardens by the Bay...










13/7 - We went to watch Spiderman 3 with his friends at Ang Mo Kio. :)   Spiderman 3 was a great movie in my opinion. There are parts that are really really funny as well as the near-end part that made you feel anxious to know what's happening and also some sad part.

14/7- We went for National Day Parade~~ Hehehe...It's my first time to watch a National Day Parade in my life. Most of the time, I've only get to watch in TV. It's really nice, and also very nice to have him beside me. :)  Before NDP, we ate at Manhattan. Oh God, it costed a lot. :(   But it's the first time someone pampering, allowing me to eat whatever I want and still doesn't complain. I'm actually very touched. Seeing him loving me, I felt very lucky. I'm really lucky to have him in my life. Really really lucky.

At Manhattan:


Yummy seafood platter...With the prawns in flame. xD

Here we are finally at the Yellow Seats, waiting for the NDP to start :)















The end of the day~~ Miss him though.. :(