Out of my hands

Darlene Zschech - Here I Am to Worship

I LOVE YOU LORD! I wish to draw myself nearer to You, Lord. I want to know you more, Lord. Thanks for being there with me all the time and let me felt your Presence and opened my eyes. I trust you with all my heart and I want to Praise You Lord with all my heart. :)

Words Will Never Be Enough

Words alone is never enough to describe the feelings I'm having now.
It's weird. I havent finished my studying (I've still got 10 chaps to go), and I don't felt any stress...This is so unlike myself. OMG. What had just happened to me? Shouldnt' I feel stress right now?? I still have mood to go here and there and shopping...LOL~!

Next thing is, I was studying this chapter about Food Colour Chemistry...All of sudden, I thought back about those days when I'm in Form 6. And I remember those days that I will study hard in Organic Chemistry just for her. Yeah, she's my idol teacher. She's the one who has motivated me in ORganic Chemistry as well as Inorganic Chemistry. Anyway, physical chemistry as well. No doubt for that, but my physical was weaker as I'm obssessed with Organic and Inorganic...

I remembered those days where I would borrow her notes back home and start studying and copy her notes to my books. Then, each week I would do exercises for Organic Chemistry (I'm not a mugger in this case, but it's because I love Organic too much and I'm so obssessed with it)...Then, I would let her mark the exercises that I've done. It makes me hate university life! How would I know that I understand the concept well if I didn't do exercises? This is so true for Chemistry...To me, to understand Chem, it's matter of doing exercises to make u more understand and know how to apply the concepts. But, too bad, this can never be done in NUS or maybe in the varsities because the lectures don't have the time to commit for us...

That's why I think Pn Teh is the best teacher among all...And Pn Teh, I really hope that you'd know how much I misses you..=(

What's the significance of this dream?

I had a weird dream today.

Well, it goes like this.

I met a girl in a park. It seems that she was hurt or something. So, I asked if she needed any help. Though she looked a lil afraid of me initially, she trusted me after a while. It seems that she has magic and she was trying to escape from something. Then, I saw that she was actually protecting something---> a book.

It seems that she was under some kind of spell but a bad people that wanted to snatch the book from her. And it seems that the more she uses her magic to break open the door, the more she''ll get hurt. Suddenly, she asked me to help her to protect the book.

Okay. Then, I don't know somehow all of sudden I was in another place, with the book, that I was assigned to protect. Then, I'm not sure how and why I was in the toilet,( I assume I was alone at first), I was trying to pee..(IN THE DREAM!) Then, somehow I was curious, so I actually looking up at the book to see what it is... Dear readers, guess what is the book about? The title is --> Holy Bible. Yes, I'm not fooling around. This is what I saw in my dream. Then, all of sudden, I realised that there was this old man ( I don't know when or how he appear) standing behind me. I got the shocked of my life! How can he be there when I'm ......peeing?? Then, I try to run away, suddenly I was held by this guy leader that asked me what book I'm holding. I lied and said that it was just some novel. He then grabbed the book from me and ....I don't know what happened next...

Sigh...I really don't know what's the significance of this dream? Am I a failure to protect Lord's holy bible in this dream? Or...??? :((

When Pam said that she wants to be attached, I laughed at her.

But now...

I think I should....

Laugh at myself.

Because .....

I felt so lonely. Lol. Laugh at me if you want! I felt so bored and lonely.

Oh my...

Is it me?

zZz...All of sudden I want to get attached too...

I want someone to accompany me when I'm lonely...

I want someone to listen to me when I felt like complaining bout my studies...

I felt like telling someone which I can't tell my girlfriends here...

Sigh...

But I'm too afraid of everything...

Too afraid to start...

Afraid to get hurt like in the past...:(

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[FV] Super Junior - In My Dream MV [ENG]

Week 13 is approaching.

And what's worst is....FINALS are coming.

I'm afraid.

As you can see, FST 1101 doesn't even have CA. And I don't even listen to the lecturers. Sigh. I'm afraid that I can't finish reading. And IT 1001, my computing module...We've only have projects and finals...But thank God, our team presents well yesterday. I was totally amazed by the way Kenneth (our team member, a Science student, good-looking but attached, iguess) presents the presentation of our websites. It's so awesome! He looks good and fluent in his delivery of the presentation. And he even answered well to the lecturer's and tutor's questions. I guess he must be a very smart guy.

And I saw this super cute guy! He looks like a mixed child. LOL!

Anyway, yesterday I met ZK. I acted that I don't know him. Okay. Don't ask me why. I think it's because of the prank or...hm..I'm trying hard not to like him...Argh...I don't know why I always felt afraid when I saw him. It's like I wanna avoid him. I guess, I think, he knew that I liked him. LOL! But then...okay..Whatever...I don't know what to say...Sigh...

He ...Hm..Lol. PAM, I don't know what to talk about him!:(
My mind is blank. Haha! Okay. Just wanna tell you, I still find that he's funny and cute.
So far, no progression in feelings development except that I will feel nervous whenever he's around. That's the reason I'm avoiding him. But don't ask me why I'm nervous. 'Cause I don't know why too...:(

Well, Now it is WEEK 12!
LSM 1101 CA2 was supposingly an easy exam. Truly. I wasn't satisfied with my "future" results...
Because of the stupid careless mistakes I did.
This made my whole mood down.
It is easy! But why would I do such stupid mistakes!
I'm so angry with myself.
But what can I do? Who can I complain to ? What is done has done.
There are no ways I can take back my papers and calculate again. And why the heck I will write nucleus of DNA? It supposed to be nucleus of egg. !!! I know how to answer all the questions. I've studied so hard. But.... I made those stupid mistakes.
Why? Why? Why?

Sigh...

Anyway, let's forget about this. Pray that God will be merciful that Prof Swami will never mark me whole thing wrong just because of one stupid word being written wrongly. Lord, I pray to you...Please let me get the marks that I'm supposed to get after all those hard works.

Sigh...

Probably, I shouldn't really slack that Sunday. Sigh.

Josh Wilson - Before The Morning