She's damn good in explaining the principles and ways of visualizing the methods in protein purification. Wish that I was in MIT instead. Why all the lecturers seemed to be better than NUS de? :(
Friday, September 30, 2011
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
first attempt to jog
This is the first time i initiated myself to jog after i've keep telling myself that i wanna jog for more than a hundreds time but i always failed to. Being a typical lazy person who hates exercises that made her sweat so much, this retriever(me) ended always "jogging" in her mind but not physically.
Surprisingly, she made an attempt to jog. And not only by just having the attempt in mind, but she finally go and jog on her own. Haha. What a big surprise huh.
Surprisingly, she made an attempt to jog. And not only by just having the attempt in mind, but she finally go and jog on her own. Haha. What a big surprise huh.
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C.O.L
Why am I so dumb? I've studied so hard and I've finished studying my lecture notes but yet I'm still unable to do the questions. Why is it have to be so tough? Lesson learnt: In NUS, even though you understand the thing you studied, you are still prompted to MEMORIZE every single things you studied cause during the exams, you wouldn't even have the time to recall the correlations of the thing that you understand, but didn't really memorized. That's what happened to my biochemistry. :( I thought i could rely on it to get my first A in NUS but heart sank when i did my paper yesterday. :'(
Now i know that i'll have to memorise all cycles and the every lil minor things as well. As well as the diseases related to it and the mechanisms of action in deficiency of the enzymes in the cycle. And sigh, I think nervousness also caused me to forget things. I depend so much on this module that I hope to score well in it, but being scared and nervous that i'll forget this and that made me so screwed that i screwed the paper. :'(
Now I know...but I wont give up hope. I believe in miracle. I still want to get A for this mod, I'll learnt my lesson and try to develop more effective nemorising skills for it. And i wanna learn more about the diseases and the mechanism in action for the deficiency if the enzyme cycles. I will conquer you, LSM 2101!
Now i know that i'll have to memorise all cycles and the every lil minor things as well. As well as the diseases related to it and the mechanisms of action in deficiency of the enzymes in the cycle. And sigh, I think nervousness also caused me to forget things. I depend so much on this module that I hope to score well in it, but being scared and nervous that i'll forget this and that made me so screwed that i screwed the paper. :'(
Now I know...but I wont give up hope. I believe in miracle. I still want to get A for this mod, I'll learnt my lesson and try to develop more effective nemorising skills for it. And i wanna learn more about the diseases and the mechanism in action for the deficiency if the enzyme cycles. I will conquer you, LSM 2101!
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Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Marry You Bruno Mars lyrics and download
LOL. I WANNA GET MARRIED NOW! LOL!!!! :P
In times like this...Though I'm a typical Miss-No-Marriage. Hahaha!
Monday, September 26, 2011
"Marry You" (Glee Cast Version) - Lyrics
I wanted to find this song for ages...And it's like my favourite song. If only I'm getting married (which I think I won't, sadly to say) I would want it to be my only wedding song. IF ONLY I'M GETTING MARRIED. Sighh...But I'm Miss-No-Marriage. So, I don't know. :(
Charice - As Long As You're There (Music Video) Glee season 2 finale
Sweet right this MV??? Sighhh...I wished that I can find a love like this :(
Btw, Charice's voice is damn nice! I love her voice so much! She's like another version of Mariah right?
I AM JEALOUS :(
I was Facebook-ing when I saw the picture of a friend of mine. Well, mutual friend. Just knew her after talking to her once cause she was from London Weight Management. Honestly, that picture of her...I was like...Why? Why? Sorry to read this. BUT, I really hate the fact that my chest is so flat! :(
Why people can have big boobs and mine is like...aeroplane? :( :( :(
Honestly, I am really jealous. Bought push-up bras but I guessed I had nothing to push. >.<
How good if I can have a lil bigger size...Even he said that my chest is flat! :(
In fact, not only him, 2 of my guy friend who were quite close to me (or maybe it's his nature to talk about dirty stuff in front of people he think he's close with) said that my chest is flat. :( :( :(
So hurting. Tsk tsk tsk.
And now I can only wish...How good if I can have slightly bigger ones...I just want a B size at least can? Sigh...I don't think I'm even size A. :(
Why people can have big boobs and mine is like...aeroplane? :( :( :(
Honestly, I am really jealous. Bought push-up bras but I guessed I had nothing to push. >.<
How good if I can have a lil bigger size...Even he said that my chest is flat! :(
In fact, not only him, 2 of my guy friend who were quite close to me (or maybe it's his nature to talk about dirty stuff in front of people he think he's close with) said that my chest is flat. :( :( :(
So hurting. Tsk tsk tsk.
And now I can only wish...How good if I can have slightly bigger ones...I just want a B size at least can? Sigh...I don't think I'm even size A. :(
Saturday, September 24, 2011
I AM DAMN HUNGRY :(
Hungry ...
These few days of mugging made me either eating unhealthily or...skipped meals. :(
Sigh. And till now I haven't even eat anything. :( :( :(
And my brain keep thinking of dim-sum ...Wth.
Hahaha! And now, I was thinking of...if I can finish this piece of Lecture 9 note by 5.30pm, I'd treat myself with pizza from K-gourmet.
But wth. When I looked at my purse, I have no much money left :(
I guessed I'd just go and withdraw? But a bit mah fan ler >.<
These few days of mugging made me either eating unhealthily or...skipped meals. :(
Sigh. And till now I haven't even eat anything. :( :( :(
And my brain keep thinking of dim-sum ...Wth.
Hahaha! And now, I was thinking of...if I can finish this piece of Lecture 9 note by 5.30pm, I'd treat myself with pizza from K-gourmet.
But wth. When I looked at my purse, I have no much money left :(
I guessed I'd just go and withdraw? But a bit mah fan ler >.<
Slept Early These Few Days
Sigh. Mid term is just around the corner. No, it's NEXT WEEK! I've only a day left with me to MUG ON!
Guess what?
One thing I realized about the difference between Singapore and Malaysia is :
When you're someone who always study, STUDY, STUDY, you'd be called a MUGGER instead of a NERD.
And people in Singapore is so proud of being a MUGGER.
Sighh...So, I should learn to be a MUGGER! A hardcore MUGGER~ Lalalala~
Okay. I admit my brain went hay-wired a lil.
And damn it. I still have ~10 slides to "swallow up" and I am still struggling like hell? Okay la, I admit that I mugged from 11am-9pm almost everyday and slept too early le. I slept before 12 am. And damn it, when I tried to sleep early right, I just couldn't find myself asleep. And ended up wasting time counting sheeps. LOL.
And the next morning, I always wake up at 9am or 9.30am. What the holy shit!
Arghhhhh....And I still have to MUG ON~ Bring it on LSM 2101 !! I'll make sure to score well in you! GGGGAAAARRRRR~~~!!!!
So many cycles to memorise. So many enzymes. So many pathways. And I'll be ABLE TO REMEMBER THEM!!! :) :) :)
JUST BE POSITIVE SHER LYN!
Guess what?
One thing I realized about the difference between Singapore and Malaysia is :
When you're someone who always study, STUDY, STUDY, you'd be called a MUGGER instead of a NERD.
And people in Singapore is so proud of being a MUGGER.
Sighh...So, I should learn to be a MUGGER! A hardcore MUGGER~ Lalalala~
Okay. I admit my brain went hay-wired a lil.
And damn it. I still have ~10 slides to "swallow up" and I am still struggling like hell? Okay la, I admit that I mugged from 11am-9pm almost everyday and slept too early le. I slept before 12 am. And damn it, when I tried to sleep early right, I just couldn't find myself asleep. And ended up wasting time counting sheeps. LOL.
And the next morning, I always wake up at 9am or 9.30am. What the holy shit!
Arghhhhh....And I still have to MUG ON~ Bring it on LSM 2101 !! I'll make sure to score well in you! GGGGAAAARRRRR~~~!!!!
So many cycles to memorise. So many enzymes. So many pathways. And I'll be ABLE TO REMEMBER THEM!!! :) :) :)
JUST BE POSITIVE SHER LYN!
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Wo Hen Kuai Le
Yesterday I talked to mummy. <3
I told her that I found a friend to mug with me. At last, it's like a dream come true right? And this time, it's not me who initiated it, cause I've always been the one who asked around and kept getting disappointment and people in NUS, sigh, perhaps I'm not lucky enough, that most of the people I know here prefer studying on their own or whatever.
Keep getting excuses after asking several times, I'm sort of getting sicked of asking people to study with me, so I thought, nevermind, I should study on my own. But aiks, sometimes, studying with people, you need the right person, some people gives you negative pressure and you can't find yourself studying much. But, now, I have a friend, asking me to study together :) And surprisingly, he was not someone I first know in NUS, but he's my "senior", my ex-colleague from YUN NAM :) He's starting his freshman year this semester and he's from SDE (School of Design and Environment). And we'll be studying together everyday ^_^
It's good to have someone to study with although we have no modules in common. But we definitely have something in common --> something related to Yun Nam. When we sees ourselves having hair fall, we would tell one another. And being sad about it. HAHAHA!
And mummy asked me what I wanted yesterday since sis is going back Taiping next week. I said I want "Chicken Essence!" and some instant noodles. Haha. But, I felt bad about the Chicken Essence stuff. In Spore, it's quite pricey. So, I thought if can, I want to buy it from Taiping, since it'd be much cheaper. I think. But, the thing is, I don't want mummy to use her money! :( I insisted to send her money to buy it for me, I have money, mummy. :( But, mummy insisted that she wants to buy it for me. :(
I felt so bad for asking so much now. I know she's the most wonderful mum, but I don't want her to sacrifice so much for me. :(
And mummy said that she wants to buy the American Ginseng for me so that I can drink it when I'm studying. How thoughtful. But, these things are expensive for her. That she has to fork out her money to buy these expensive things for me. I am happy that I have the greatest and thoughtful mum in the world, but, having her to fork out money to buy these stuff for me, I felt a lil sad inside. :(
I told her that I found a friend to mug with me. At last, it's like a dream come true right? And this time, it's not me who initiated it, cause I've always been the one who asked around and kept getting disappointment and people in NUS, sigh, perhaps I'm not lucky enough, that most of the people I know here prefer studying on their own or whatever.
Keep getting excuses after asking several times, I'm sort of getting sicked of asking people to study with me, so I thought, nevermind, I should study on my own. But aiks, sometimes, studying with people, you need the right person, some people gives you negative pressure and you can't find yourself studying much. But, now, I have a friend, asking me to study together :) And surprisingly, he was not someone I first know in NUS, but he's my "senior", my ex-colleague from YUN NAM :) He's starting his freshman year this semester and he's from SDE (School of Design and Environment). And we'll be studying together everyday ^_^
It's good to have someone to study with although we have no modules in common. But we definitely have something in common --> something related to Yun Nam. When we sees ourselves having hair fall, we would tell one another. And being sad about it. HAHAHA!
And mummy asked me what I wanted yesterday since sis is going back Taiping next week. I said I want "Chicken Essence!" and some instant noodles. Haha. But, I felt bad about the Chicken Essence stuff. In Spore, it's quite pricey. So, I thought if can, I want to buy it from Taiping, since it'd be much cheaper. I think. But, the thing is, I don't want mummy to use her money! :( I insisted to send her money to buy it for me, I have money, mummy. :( But, mummy insisted that she wants to buy it for me. :(
I felt so bad for asking so much now. I know she's the most wonderful mum, but I don't want her to sacrifice so much for me. :(
And mummy said that she wants to buy the American Ginseng for me so that I can drink it when I'm studying. How thoughtful. But, these things are expensive for her. That she has to fork out her money to buy these expensive things for me. I am happy that I have the greatest and thoughtful mum in the world, but, having her to fork out money to buy these stuff for me, I felt a lil sad inside. :(
Friday, September 16, 2011
Backstreet Boys - I'll Never Break Your Heart
Know what? This is the first song that my first love sang to me in the past. And I'm still in love with this song. Though he broke my heart, but, it's for our sake and our own good and I've let go all the memories between us as past, as our histories. Yes, he's still the one I still love, but as a friend. :)
Cause now I've new love...
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Can't Believe that I'm still Awake
Well, I slept from 5pm-8pm. Woke up at 8pm, but my ass is too lazy to get up, so, I rolled on the bed for like...half an hour? Lol. What the shit right? Then, I start reading my CM 2161 textbook. Somehow, of course there are things distracting me la. That's why although I seemed to have studied for like...6 hours? But I FB from time-to-time and Youtube-ing. What the hell?
Sigh, I need to relax a bit while studying also de right? Need some entertainment also right? I'm not a machine that do things continuously. Uh-oh, is it good that I'm finding excuses for myself? Wakao. Almost a week since you left le...Sigh... :(
Okay, I'm almost done with Chap 4. And should be continuing Chap 5 (24 pages) on hmm...Thursday? Tomorrow's time is devoted for stupid lab report and also to revise on LSM 2201A! :) Sigh. Must jia you jia you!!!!
GAMBATTE!!!
AZA AZA FIGHTING~~!!!!
Sigh, I need to relax a bit while studying also de right? Need some entertainment also right? I'm not a machine that do things continuously. Uh-oh, is it good that I'm finding excuses for myself? Wakao. Almost a week since you left le...Sigh... :(
Okay, I'm almost done with Chap 4. And should be continuing Chap 5 (24 pages) on hmm...Thursday? Tomorrow's time is devoted for stupid lab report and also to revise on LSM 2201A! :) Sigh. Must jia you jia you!!!!
GAMBATTE!!!
AZA AZA FIGHTING~~!!!!
Old Diaries. Love quotes.
Love at first sight is often cured by a second look.
Love is sweet when it’s new, but sweeter when it’s true.
Love is like a butterfly, it settles upon you when you least expect it.
Love is the hardest habit to break, and the most difficult to satisfy...
Love that remains longest in your heart is the one that is not returned...
These are so true right? Especially the last phrase. In fact, the person that I liked for the longest period is when the person never knew that I liked him...
It's rather funny when I read back my old diaries which has already been covered in dust. I read back, and I never realized that there is someone that I like before for more than 3 years. In fact, I did remember, just that I've tried to forget it. Well, sometimes, we'll just have to let go off things that would never come in return, right? And also, it's funny that I can't even remember some of the people I've wrote about in my diaries...Who's Vincent? Who's Alan?? Who's Khai Yang??? No doubt, there are some stupid guys that left quite a huge impact in my life before that I can never find ways to forget their names. Bastards. People like Alex...Well, he's the only guy that humiliated me in public before (well, not really in public, but in a public chat room. Stupid bastard. It was 8 years ago. Well, I forgive him, but hell no way that I'd forget that bastard's name!)
And omg, I realized there are really lots of names in my diary that I have no memories about who are them. Oh gosh. Perhaps, those that I remember are those who really gives me a very significant memory between us. LOL! Well, yeah, gotta go back and study. :)
Monday, September 12, 2011
First time Getting Such high Sales
I've sold 25 vouchers yesterday! I AM SO HAPPY AND PROUD OF MYSELF. :) :) :)
But sigh, out of 25, there's 5 invalids. Sighhh...:(
Anyway, first time in my own record, I've sold 20 valid vouchers. Saturday's sales wasn't really good cause I've only sold 9 valid vouchers. Sigh. The 4 days of working made me earned ~$700. I'm quite lucky that yesterday I managed to earn about $350. YAY!!!
Sometimes, I really happy about it, and I felt like telling someone. But I can't tell my mum, cause I'm working secretly, she asked me not to work while studying. Hmm...Sigh, but sometimes, I'm really in need of money. But don't worry! i still study!!! Mummy, sorry for keeping this from you. :( I'll wei ni jia more you!!!
Hey hey U! I've never stopped missing you!!! I felt so sleepy studying just now, but reading your last message gives me some energy:) Hope everything works fine for you too (^_~)
But sigh, out of 25, there's 5 invalids. Sighhh...:(
Anyway, first time in my own record, I've sold 20 valid vouchers. Saturday's sales wasn't really good cause I've only sold 9 valid vouchers. Sigh. The 4 days of working made me earned ~$700. I'm quite lucky that yesterday I managed to earn about $350. YAY!!!
Sometimes, I really happy about it, and I felt like telling someone. But I can't tell my mum, cause I'm working secretly, she asked me not to work while studying. Hmm...Sigh, but sometimes, I'm really in need of money. But don't worry! i still study!!! Mummy, sorry for keeping this from you. :( I'll wei ni jia more you!!!
Hey hey U! I've never stopped missing you!!! I felt so sleepy studying just now, but reading your last message gives me some energy:) Hope everything works fine for you too (^_~)
Sunday, September 11, 2011
New Colleague
Worked yesterday. Shagged to the max. Haha. Probably due to my lack of sleep for the past few nights despite yesterday's having more than enough sleep. Didn't study much yesterday. But yeah, I finished Lecture 3 LSM 2101. Just a brief reading. And I need to re-read again! Sighhh...
There's a new colleague yesterday called Jason. Ahahaha! J-A-S-O-N, sounds familiar? Thinking of that name reminds me of the scary "guy" in the movie 'Friday 13th' that I watched with Bailey, Tommy, Kok Hui and Jia Pei. LMAO!
He's freaking tall, seemed to be another version of Wilber from New York Skin Solution. Hmm...From his appearance, initially I thought he's quite a "guai" guy. But, his image totally dropped when I knew he also smoked. Wth. What is so nice about smoking?!!!!
Anyway, a day without U is like just a day just to pass time. No entertainment. There's something I can just hide to myself. Aiks. Not emo-ing la. Just ...uhm...can't explain. A lil unhappiness. Well, people just don't know me well enough like they think they do. People always think I'm predictable, but sometimes, I'm not.
Whatever, it's already 8.05am! Should get started studying! Bye peeps!!!
There's a new colleague yesterday called Jason. Ahahaha! J-A-S-O-N, sounds familiar? Thinking of that name reminds me of the scary "guy" in the movie 'Friday 13th' that I watched with Bailey, Tommy, Kok Hui and Jia Pei. LMAO!
He's freaking tall, seemed to be another version of Wilber from New York Skin Solution. Hmm...From his appearance, initially I thought he's quite a "guai" guy. But, his image totally dropped when I knew he also smoked. Wth. What is so nice about smoking?!!!!
Anyway, a day without U is like just a day just to pass time. No entertainment. There's something I can just hide to myself. Aiks. Not emo-ing la. Just ...uhm...can't explain. A lil unhappiness. Well, people just don't know me well enough like they think they do. People always think I'm predictable, but sometimes, I'm not.
Whatever, it's already 8.05am! Should get started studying! Bye peeps!!!
Saturday, September 10, 2011
Week 6's Planning
It's been 2 days since you left.
No doubt, there are certain times that I still think about you. But, I'm started to think happily now. :)
Honestly, I have forgotten the cold ways you treated me, but only the sweet and funny ways that you treat me.:)
Anyway, this is what I've planned for week 6. (Funny enough, I had funny thoughts about us that made me pushed myself to study harder after your last message. )
Okay. Here's my planning. Please, hope for no interruptions!
Monday: LSM 2101 + CM2161 ( 5hours each!)
Tuesday: CM2161 ( 8am-10am) + (4pm-10pm)/ (3pm-11pm) [3-11pm is more of an ideal time cause it'll be able to suit my 10 hours/day ]
Wednesday: LSM2201A (~10 hours at least)
Thursday: Food trailing (hopefully I have at least 5 hours to study after the food trip)
Friday: CM2161 (8am-10am) + LSM2101 (5pm-10pm)
Saturday and Sunday?? Hmmm...Honestly, I don't dare to plan my weekends yet since I'm not sure if I'll be ask to go out or anything. Cause I might plan to go for food outing on my own. Should search hungrygowhere.com.sg to search for my own food outing. Haha!
No doubt, there are certain times that I still think about you. But, I'm started to think happily now. :)
Honestly, I have forgotten the cold ways you treated me, but only the sweet and funny ways that you treat me.:)
Anyway, this is what I've planned for week 6. (Funny enough, I had funny thoughts about us that made me pushed myself to study harder after your last message. )
Okay. Here's my planning. Please, hope for no interruptions!
Monday: LSM 2101 + CM2161 ( 5hours each!)
Tuesday: CM2161 ( 8am-10am) + (4pm-10pm)/ (3pm-11pm) [3-11pm is more of an ideal time cause it'll be able to suit my 10 hours/day ]
Wednesday: LSM2201A (~10 hours at least)
Thursday: Food trailing (hopefully I have at least 5 hours to study after the food trip)
Friday: CM2161 (8am-10am) + LSM2101 (5pm-10pm)
Saturday and Sunday?? Hmmm...Honestly, I don't dare to plan my weekends yet since I'm not sure if I'll be ask to go out or anything. Cause I might plan to go for food outing on my own. Should search hungrygowhere.com.sg to search for my own food outing. Haha!
Thursday, September 8, 2011
You'll Always Be Remembered
It has been so long since we have talked
I hope that things are still the same
Hoping they will never change
'Cause what we had can't be replaced
Don't let our memories fade away.
I'll remember you and that's forever true
And you're the one I'll always miss
Never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you
No matter what you're going through
I promise you
I won't forget
The times we shared
The way you cared
You'll always be the star in my sky
It may be fate that might bring us back
to meet again someday
Even though we go separate ways...
I hope that things are still the same
Hoping they will never change
'Cause what we had can't be replaced
Don't let our memories fade away.
I'll remember you and that's forever true
And you're the one I'll always miss
Never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you
No matter what you're going through
I promise you
I won't forget
The times we shared
The way you cared
You'll always be the star in my sky
It may be fate that might bring us back
to meet again someday
Even though we go separate ways...
I'll Remember You - Will and Elizabeth
I'll remember you. The reasons I wrote everything in my blog because I was too scared that I'd forget you. And well, to say the least, you're the first person to made a spark in my life after my breakup for the last 2 years. And I hope God will be always by your side, protecting you.
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
Will and Elizabeth - Baby You're My Destiny
Was listening to the radio just now. And I fell in love with this song when it is played. Searched for it straightaway after finished listening to it. And that time, I thought about you when I listened to it. Hais.
Even the radio is bullying me :(
Sighh...
Trying to listen to the radio for songs, but all songs being played are emo songs.
And just now, the DJ was saying something about a girl that like someone, but that person doesn't like her...
Lol. Coincidence huh? Sounds like me. But definitely it's not me telling that to the DJ.
Aikssss...
Trying to listen to the radio for songs, but all songs being played are emo songs.
And just now, the DJ was saying something about a girl that like someone, but that person doesn't like her...
Lol. Coincidence huh? Sounds like me. But definitely it's not me telling that to the DJ.
Aikssss...
I just Want You to Know
That you'll be the last person I would miss.
I can't remember when or when or why I liked you.
But you're leaving.
And I just want you to know, that I can't forget those moments together.
And you're all I think about every now and then.
Even though you wouldn't even give a damn about me.
I think I've tried too hard to forget you, that all I have in my mind is just the memories between us.
Though those memories wouldn't mean much to you, but it means so much to me.
I don't know how to be a thing you'd miss. I don't know how to be someone you'd like. But, I just want to give you all the best wishes to you. I hope, after this blog post, I can focus on my studies.
Sigh. Seriously, I really need to stop thinking about you. And dear mind, can you please focus??!
I can't remember when or when or why I liked you.
But you're leaving.
And I just want you to know, that I can't forget those moments together.
And you're all I think about every now and then.
Even though you wouldn't even give a damn about me.
I think I've tried too hard to forget you, that all I have in my mind is just the memories between us.
Though those memories wouldn't mean much to you, but it means so much to me.
I don't know how to be a thing you'd miss. I don't know how to be someone you'd like. But, I just want to give you all the best wishes to you. I hope, after this blog post, I can focus on my studies.
Sigh. Seriously, I really need to stop thinking about you. And dear mind, can you please focus??!
I wished that you're still the same =(
Sighh….I wished that we’re still close like we used to be…Where you say that you cared bout me. You know what, I would never forget the word when I’m so pissed and asked if “You will care about me one meh?” And you replied, “Of course la…” I REALLY MISSES THOSE MOMENTS. Cause you’re the first guy who said that to me.
Shouldn't Facebook early in the morning
Thought of wake up and study at 8am. But wtf, now it's already 10.45am!
I don't blame anyone.
Just that, initially, my mood was really down yesterday. Thought that after sleeping, I'll be alright the next day, but...sigh, I shouldn't FB such early morning and see things that I shouldn't see.
Perhaps, because of you, I guessed, I'll FB only in the weekends. Ah, seriously, f*** myself. How many times I told myself over and over again not to FB so often!
And sigh, how many times I told myself not to make any scenarios and thinking about those times when I first know you...
I don't blame anyone.
Just that, initially, my mood was really down yesterday. Thought that after sleeping, I'll be alright the next day, but...sigh, I shouldn't FB such early morning and see things that I shouldn't see.
Perhaps, because of you, I guessed, I'll FB only in the weekends. Ah, seriously, f*** myself. How many times I told myself over and over again not to FB so often!
And sigh, how many times I told myself not to make any scenarios and thinking about those times when I first know you...
The Day You Went Away
Initially, I said that I don't wanna come for the gathering because, I was too afraid to meet you again.
I said that I wanted to forget you. I wanted to give up. But ...somehow, despite the scars and hurt you gave me, I still don't know why am I sacrificing my time just for you. Perhaps you might not know that I value my time a lot, and I don't really go out with friends or people at here. But, because when I knew that I'll be meeting you, I'll sacrifice my time just for you. Although I know it's pointless for me to do that, although I won't get anything in return, but being hurted.
Initially, I rejected the invitation mainly because I was trying so hard to forget you and I'm afraid to see you again. And I know that my absence isn't something important to you, and you probably won't be bother to ask. However, S asked me to come since it'd be the last time to meet you. And insisted of me coming.
True enough, I felt awkward, I don't even dare to talk to you, cause each time when I try talking to you, you'll turn me off. So, I was trying to keep myself silent all the time. I don't even dare to look at you. Funny enough, each time when they're in a conversation, I always try not to look at you and look at the person beside you instead.
But after the separation, I find myself still somehow, missing you. I know that you might have other girl in mind. Well, I don't mind. Cause I know that I wouldn't be able to start any relationship with anyone. It's quite a sad thing right for not being in a relationship? Sighhh...Whatever, fate wants me to be single. Then, I was browsing through my old phone to delete old messages. Initially, when I was sad with the way you treated me, I often felt like deleting our old conversations together, but in the end, I never delete any, cause I want to keep it. (Instead, I deleted my conversations with JK)
I'll be sad, but, you're a free bird, and I shall get on with my life too. So, whatever it is, I'm just hoping that God will be always by your side and cast away evils from you and hope that you're always safe. I hope that I'll be okay the moment I wake up the next day. Hais.
I said that I wanted to forget you. I wanted to give up. But ...somehow, despite the scars and hurt you gave me, I still don't know why am I sacrificing my time just for you. Perhaps you might not know that I value my time a lot, and I don't really go out with friends or people at here. But, because when I knew that I'll be meeting you, I'll sacrifice my time just for you. Although I know it's pointless for me to do that, although I won't get anything in return, but being hurted.
Initially, I rejected the invitation mainly because I was trying so hard to forget you and I'm afraid to see you again. And I know that my absence isn't something important to you, and you probably won't be bother to ask. However, S asked me to come since it'd be the last time to meet you. And insisted of me coming.
True enough, I felt awkward, I don't even dare to talk to you, cause each time when I try talking to you, you'll turn me off. So, I was trying to keep myself silent all the time. I don't even dare to look at you. Funny enough, each time when they're in a conversation, I always try not to look at you and look at the person beside you instead.
But after the separation, I find myself still somehow, missing you. I know that you might have other girl in mind. Well, I don't mind. Cause I know that I wouldn't be able to start any relationship with anyone. It's quite a sad thing right for not being in a relationship? Sighhh...Whatever, fate wants me to be single. Then, I was browsing through my old phone to delete old messages. Initially, when I was sad with the way you treated me, I often felt like deleting our old conversations together, but in the end, I never delete any, cause I want to keep it. (Instead, I deleted my conversations with JK)
I'll be sad, but, you're a free bird, and I shall get on with my life too. So, whatever it is, I'm just hoping that God will be always by your side and cast away evils from you and hope that you're always safe. I hope that I'll be okay the moment I wake up the next day. Hais.
Monday, September 5, 2011
I Love my Samsung Galaxy Ace~~
I love my phone...
I'm so addicted to it.
What the shit?
But of course, without the 3G, it'll be damn bored!
Oh my God! I hope that I won't be addicted to much to it.
Haha. Actually I'm addicted just because I was searching for free aps nia la! LOL~
I want to download songs!! Hmmm...:)
My phone is my bao bei now! :) :) :)
I'm so addicted to it.
What the shit?
But of course, without the 3G, it'll be damn bored!
Oh my God! I hope that I won't be addicted to much to it.
Haha. Actually I'm addicted just because I was searching for free aps nia la! LOL~
I want to download songs!! Hmmm...:)
My phone is my bao bei now! :) :) :)
Why am I Blogging Now instead of doing my lab report?!!
Lol. Seriously. I don't know why I ended up being in this page when I haven't even started on my lab report which is due tomorrow! What the hell?
I went out this afternoon to settle my phone's 3G stuff. I'm so despo in having 3G because i think the wifi sucks la. Lol! Have to find a place with wifi some more..So mah fan...
I ended up going Jurong Point. Initially thought of getting the 3G Prepaid Simcard..then go there to ask the Singtel person to help me activate it cause the Clementi branch asked me go Jurong Point and ask them. Going there no point de, what the hell, cause I go there, the person said that I should call the hotline and settle it myself! Quite pissed but then, whatever. Find a place to call the customer service and took such a long time in the configuration stuff while on the phone with the officer. Haha! Luckily she was quite patient. Sorry la, I admit I'm noobie in phone stuff. HAHAHA! The Singtel people at Clementi branch made me travel pulak and in the end after settling my 3G MYSELF, I spent $118 on skin care products!! WTH!
Sigh...Initially wanted to have pizza while studying de...But now, I guessed no pizza for me le...Cause I've spent too much. And won't be able to treat myself le. Hopefully the skincare products that I bought would suits me and made my skin better la.
I guess my plan to buy SK II should wait till next month ba....See if I got money or not la...And I hope can settle all my debts asap!!!
I went out this afternoon to settle my phone's 3G stuff. I'm so despo in having 3G because i think the wifi sucks la. Lol! Have to find a place with wifi some more..So mah fan...
I ended up going Jurong Point. Initially thought of getting the 3G Prepaid Simcard..then go there to ask the Singtel person to help me activate it cause the Clementi branch asked me go Jurong Point and ask them. Going there no point de, what the hell, cause I go there, the person said that I should call the hotline and settle it myself! Quite pissed but then, whatever. Find a place to call the customer service and took such a long time in the configuration stuff while on the phone with the officer. Haha! Luckily she was quite patient. Sorry la, I admit I'm noobie in phone stuff. HAHAHA! The Singtel people at Clementi branch made me travel pulak and in the end after settling my 3G MYSELF, I spent $118 on skin care products!! WTH!
Sigh...Initially wanted to have pizza while studying de...But now, I guessed no pizza for me le...Cause I've spent too much. And won't be able to treat myself le. Hopefully the skincare products that I bought would suits me and made my skin better la.
I guess my plan to buy SK II should wait till next month ba....See if I got money or not la...And I hope can settle all my debts asap!!!
Sunday, September 4, 2011
Sorry if this is an Emo Post
Thanks for the hurt and scars you gave me.
Thanks for the coldness you gave me.
Thanks for trying your best to avoid me.
You knew I liked you, but...it's okay. I'll be able to get over it.
Trying so hard to hold back the tears. Trying so hard to look up at the sky and searching for the stars, hoping that there'd be a smiling star to make me cheer up.
Knowing that I'm not the type of girl that any guy will like, I guessed I'm better off not to fall in love with anyone else again. This time, it's for real. I've fell in love, and now, have to fall out of love.
The next time if I find myself liking a guy, I must tell myself, the moment I like him, it's equals to stabbing my own heart with a knife and made myself sad over things that are not worth the tears. This time, my heart has to learn its lesson.
Thanks for the coldness you gave me.
Thanks for trying your best to avoid me.
You knew I liked you, but...it's okay. I'll be able to get over it.
Trying so hard to hold back the tears. Trying so hard to look up at the sky and searching for the stars, hoping that there'd be a smiling star to make me cheer up.
Knowing that I'm not the type of girl that any guy will like, I guessed I'm better off not to fall in love with anyone else again. This time, it's for real. I've fell in love, and now, have to fall out of love.
The next time if I find myself liking a guy, I must tell myself, the moment I like him, it's equals to stabbing my own heart with a knife and made myself sad over things that are not worth the tears. This time, my heart has to learn its lesson.
I'm Proud of Myself
Just received my cheque from my boss. Yayy!! And I'm so DELIGHTED when I saw the amount. Yay!!!
It's just the sales that I got for working one week in Bukit Panjang Plaza and Suntec. And my earnings--> ~$870.
Wow. I can't believe this. I worked for only a week. And if I convert that amount to Msia Ringgit, it's almost double my pay when I worked in Taiping for a month!!! Damn happy.
But I haven't compare the amount i've got with the record in my book. But I'm hoping that it exceeds the amount I've calculated in my record book. Lol.
And I really need to clear off my debts. YES, ASAP!!! So that I'm not tied down by all these fucking debts. And I'm not gonna involve myself in businesses that doesn't give me any money in return! >.<
Oh well, with the amount left, I'm gonna give myself some retreats. Hahaha!!! Don't know what I want. But I think I'm signing up data plans for my phone! Cause i need internet, like so desperately and I don't like bringing my lappie around cause it makes me even more pek chek...Though campus got wifi, but it's still damn slow.
So yeah. That's all for today buddies:)
It's just the sales that I got for working one week in Bukit Panjang Plaza and Suntec. And my earnings--> ~$870.
Wow. I can't believe this. I worked for only a week. And if I convert that amount to Msia Ringgit, it's almost double my pay when I worked in Taiping for a month!!! Damn happy.
But I haven't compare the amount i've got with the record in my book. But I'm hoping that it exceeds the amount I've calculated in my record book. Lol.
And I really need to clear off my debts. YES, ASAP!!! So that I'm not tied down by all these fucking debts. And I'm not gonna involve myself in businesses that doesn't give me any money in return! >.<
Oh well, with the amount left, I'm gonna give myself some retreats. Hahaha!!! Don't know what I want. But I think I'm signing up data plans for my phone! Cause i need internet, like so desperately and I don't like bringing my lappie around cause it makes me even more pek chek...Though campus got wifi, but it's still damn slow.
So yeah. That's all for today buddies:)
Friday, September 2, 2011
I always miss the days when you've always make me smile...
Although those things u did are just simple little things.
There are times I just want you to know that you're still the one that I liked...
But, sometimes, I think, it's better that you don't know it.
And I'm going to miss those moments although it's already a history right now...
How I wished things could go more smoothly...
But, sometimes, ambiguity seems to be better.
Though I knew that I would never be the girl you would like...
But, sometimes, I think, it's better that you don't know it.
And I'm going to miss those moments although it's already a history right now...
How I wished things could go more smoothly...
But, sometimes, ambiguity seems to be better.
Though I knew that I would never be the girl you would like...
Spent $500+ in a day.
Omg. Can't believe that I would spent that huge amount in just a day. But hoping that it's worth it though.
OKay. This is the breakdown on what I spent on yesterday:
1) Food - $20.30
2) New phone! Omg. I was so despo in getting new phones cause my phone already freaking spoiled that I'm quite pissed with it at times. And I hate that people keep saying that I'm trying to avoid their calls when they don't know what's wrong with my phone! Whatever. f*** them whatever they want to say. I thought quite long before buying it. Initially, if signing up for the plan, it's quite ok, but the thing is, I want Samsung Galaxy S2, but for the data plan, it's $50+ per month (it's acceptable), and for the phone, would have to pay an additional $100+ ? $200+ ?? $300+ ??? Can't remember. But i think it's about $100+. BUT THE THING IS, FOR INTERNATIONAL STUDENTS HERE, HAVE TO PAY AN ADDITIONAL $400 +++ DEPOSIT!!!! What the freak man?! Don't have that much money, so I can only opt for the phone without contract. Sigh....So, bought Samsung Galaxy Ace instead at the price $349.
3) Phone accessories for my new phone - $10 for screen protector, $15 for the cover.
4) External Hard Disk, 1TB - $139
5) Sushi (wth) - $3.90
TOTAL : $537.20
As you see, why I buy new phone is because, people are spreading rumors that I'm trying to avoid their calls or something by hanging up their call or cancel their call. PLEASE! Do check out why I'm doing that first before simply saying things behind my back as if I don't know! That's why I don't like certain people in my school. Whatever! It's not that I did that on purpose. Hello? Sometimes I might be busy or accidentally deleted their message, n totally forgotten to reply. But it's not like I did it very often. It's like 1/50 messages that I never reply. And I admit that I have the habit not to pick up calls when I'm doing something or when I'm not in the mood... But, I do reply calls when I'm free! And it's not my style to cut people's call. I've never cut people's call unless if that person called me when I'm having lectures or tutorials!
But...people think about other stuff when I got myself a new phone. Hmm...problems always arise in schools like this. Whatever. I'm not going to care about them and make them spoil my mood. I'm going to study now!
OKay. This is the breakdown on what I spent on yesterday:
1) Food - $20.30
2) New phone! Omg. I was so despo in getting new phones cause my phone already freaking spoiled that I'm quite pissed with it at times. And I hate that people keep saying that I'm trying to avoid their calls when they don't know what's wrong with my phone! Whatever. f*** them whatever they want to say. I thought quite long before buying it. Initially, if signing up for the plan, it's quite ok, but the thing is, I want Samsung Galaxy S2, but for the data plan, it's $50+ per month (it's acceptable), and for the phone, would have to pay an additional $100+ ? $200+ ?? $300+ ??? Can't remember. But i think it's about $100+. BUT THE THING IS, FOR INTERNATIONAL STUDENTS HERE, HAVE TO PAY AN ADDITIONAL $400 +++ DEPOSIT!!!! What the freak man?! Don't have that much money, so I can only opt for the phone without contract. Sigh....So, bought Samsung Galaxy Ace instead at the price $349.
3) Phone accessories for my new phone - $10 for screen protector, $15 for the cover.
4) External Hard Disk, 1TB - $139
5) Sushi (wth) - $3.90
TOTAL : $537.20
As you see, why I buy new phone is because, people are spreading rumors that I'm trying to avoid their calls or something by hanging up their call or cancel their call. PLEASE! Do check out why I'm doing that first before simply saying things behind my back as if I don't know! That's why I don't like certain people in my school. Whatever! It's not that I did that on purpose. Hello? Sometimes I might be busy or accidentally deleted their message, n totally forgotten to reply. But it's not like I did it very often. It's like 1/50 messages that I never reply. And I admit that I have the habit not to pick up calls when I'm doing something or when I'm not in the mood... But, I do reply calls when I'm free! And it's not my style to cut people's call. I've never cut people's call unless if that person called me when I'm having lectures or tutorials!
But...people think about other stuff when I got myself a new phone. Hmm...problems always arise in schools like this. Whatever. I'm not going to care about them and make them spoil my mood. I'm going to study now!
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