Dear Comp,
Do you know that you're driving me crazy and insane MOST OF THE TIME ?!
You freeze when I'm doing my lab report, FINE!
You freeze and that fucking blue screen appears and had to restart when I'm watching movies, still FINE!
WHY THE FUCK MUST THE BLUE SCREEN KEEPS APPEARING??!!!!
Okay, so what happened?
I was making payment halfway when you fucking froze-ed and your fucking blue screen appears!!!!!
Do you know how much the thing I'm buying cost!?????
Will you pay me back if I have to remake my payment!!!!~!!!!
Well, this is for YOU! _|_
And do you know how insane you made me?
How impatient you caused me?
Do you know the window in front of me has no barrier and I'm living in LEVEL 6?!
Well, what if I'm living in like LEVEL 30+?
Good enough to kill me if I were to head down!
You're driving me so crazy that I wanna hang myself just now. DO YOU KNOW?!!!!
Yeah, pointless to die just because of a fucking comp right?
I know. I know. I know!
I don't need you to tell me!
You're ego. You're happy that you made me gone crazy and insane!
Well, you're happy now? F.U!
Thursday, May 31, 2012
Plans before I go back
Doesn't really get much excitement in things I'm doing nowadays.
Even I find watching movies boring nowadays.
Don't ask me why. I'm not sure myself.
Initially I wanted to go walk around Esplanade at night, looking at the night view. Then, after a second thought, I think it would be boring too.
I'm not sure when or why I started to get bored with my life. It's like no excitement at all. Is there things where I can do and I'd find exciting?
Great, almost got myself hitted by a car. Guessed I've must be thinking too much and walking aimlessly.
I was thinking, should I go to places where I can play with dogs? But but but, I don't know where on Earth in Singapore to go where I can play with dogs.
Perhaps maybe I can find more excitement there since I love dogs so much. At least there's something interacting rather than just hanging out aimlessly right?
More research shall be done later after grocery shopping. Like where can I go to play with dogs and things like that. I can see the glimpse of smile on my face now. Yes, I know this would bring excitement to me. After all, dogs are doctors!:)
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tired n bored
I felt tired and bored.
Hmmmmm.......................
I don't know why I ____ to myself.
Must have been feeling tired.
Hmmmmmm..................
Lazy butt,
Let's get up. Make some moves. We're going for grocery shopping, remember??? Arghhh. Why so lazy?
Hmmmmm.......................
I don't know why I ____ to myself.
Must have been feeling tired.
Hmmmmmm..................
Lazy butt,
Let's get up. Make some moves. We're going for grocery shopping, remember??? Arghhh. Why so lazy?
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Night of Insomnia
I don't get it.
Why can't I sleep these few days?
I hardly have sleeping problems. Except for sleeping too much I guessed.
Several times I turned to my right side, and to my left, and sleep straight.
Still I couldn't get myself to sleep.
Maybe there are thoughts in my mind. I really tried hard to shook them off, but I can't.
I've also repeating the same 5 soothing tracks for the 4th time. -.-"
But nothing I did helps.
Uneasy feelings, uncomfortable, thoughts in my mind. So many.
Things are all so jumbled up that I'm going crazy soon.
I'm not sure what I should do to occupy myself with stuffs so that I don't have any thoughts in mind. Felt like going out instead, but at the same time, doesn't really felt like going out when the hot weather is driving me crazy.
I don't have plans for tomorrow. Hmmm... just thought of something. Since roommate won't be around tomorrow, shall I go for grocery and cook tomorrow?
Sounds better at least, healthy eating and perhaps can bring my thoughts away for a few hours.
After cooking, go for the $5 experiment. Then go swim. Yes, shall do that tomorrow. Occupy my time with activities so that I don't have time to think bout bad stuffs.:)
Why can't I sleep these few days?
I hardly have sleeping problems. Except for sleeping too much I guessed.
Several times I turned to my right side, and to my left, and sleep straight.
Still I couldn't get myself to sleep.
Maybe there are thoughts in my mind. I really tried hard to shook them off, but I can't.
I've also repeating the same 5 soothing tracks for the 4th time. -.-"
But nothing I did helps.
Uneasy feelings, uncomfortable, thoughts in my mind. So many.
Things are all so jumbled up that I'm going crazy soon.
I'm not sure what I should do to occupy myself with stuffs so that I don't have any thoughts in mind. Felt like going out instead, but at the same time, doesn't really felt like going out when the hot weather is driving me crazy.
I don't have plans for tomorrow. Hmmm... just thought of something. Since roommate won't be around tomorrow, shall I go for grocery and cook tomorrow?
Sounds better at least, healthy eating and perhaps can bring my thoughts away for a few hours.
After cooking, go for the $5 experiment. Then go swim. Yes, shall do that tomorrow. Occupy my time with activities so that I don't have time to think bout bad stuffs.:)
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Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Not sure...
Is it because staying with her makes me more easier to get jealous?
Cause each time, upon her returning from her dates, she told me her stuffs. Maybe not listening to all these would at least doesn't make me think so much.
Yeah, what all her bf did for her is really sweet. I know I know I know.
But to the extend that I got so jealous. Not because I'm jealous of her having a bf. Not because that her bf is very good looking. In fact, surprisingly, I didn't even like (as in love=like) her bf at all.
Just that...
What is happening to her is like a romance story in novels. Yeah, maybe her bf is good, I guessed. Everything is so perfect.
Is it only me? Or are all girls longed to have romantic love for at least once in their lives? Sweet gestures. Simple and inexpensive stuff. just as a way to show how the girl meant a lot for him. Even picking up flowers from the ground can be sweet. Well, at least for me. I'm not sure about other girls.
Sometimes, I think, maybe because I'm too free. That's why I have so much time thinking about things. Causing me to think too much. Sherlyn ah...Don't think too much le la...Think too much is not healthy ahh...You should know. :(
Now, let's go to bed. :)
Is it because staying with her makes me more easier to get jealous?
Cause each time, upon her returning from her dates, she told me her stuffs. Maybe not listening to all these would at least doesn't make me think so much.
Yeah, what all her bf did for her is really sweet. I know I know I know.
But to the extend that I got so jealous. Not because I'm jealous of her having a bf. Not because that her bf is very good looking. In fact, surprisingly, I didn't even like (as in love=like) her bf at all.
Just that...
What is happening to her is like a romance story in novels. Yeah, maybe her bf is good, I guessed. Everything is so perfect.
Is it only me? Or are all girls longed to have romantic love for at least once in their lives? Sweet gestures. Simple and inexpensive stuff. just as a way to show how the girl meant a lot for him. Even picking up flowers from the ground can be sweet. Well, at least for me. I'm not sure about other girls.
Sometimes, I think, maybe because I'm too free. That's why I have so much time thinking about things. Causing me to think too much. Sherlyn ah...Don't think too much le la...Think too much is not healthy ahh...You should know. :(
Now, let's go to bed. :)
Confused
Today's post will be using pictures to describe my confusion. Anyway, I, myself also very confused.
I want....
But......
Cause sometimes....
I don't need...
or 
I just want..
http://www.soapnights.com/tag/too-much-to-ask/
I want....
But......
Cause sometimes....
I don't need...
I just want..
http://www.soapnights.com/tag/too-much-to-ask/
Sunday, May 27, 2012
The girl in the reflection
There's a girl in front of me, I wonder who she is. Sometimes I think I know her, sometimes I really wished I did.
There's a story in her eyes. Which you can see through it.
Remembering after the 2nd day of incident, still couldn't really get herself to sleep much.
It's impossible for her to act as if nothing happened when things happened.
She has been loosing sleep numeral times. And when things got worsened, she freaked out. Unsure of what to do to keep things at its best. The mind has been actively participated in the thinking process, probably because she's worried of the past reccurance. She tried so hard, but, nothing works. It seems hard to keep away from those thinkings.
Ever since, she started loosing her sleep.
And when she's looking back at me, I can tell that her heart breaks easily. Is there something I can do to help her?
There's a story in her eyes. Which you can see through it.
Remembering after the 2nd day of incident, still couldn't really get herself to sleep much.
It's impossible for her to act as if nothing happened when things happened.
She has been loosing sleep numeral times. And when things got worsened, she freaked out. Unsure of what to do to keep things at its best. The mind has been actively participated in the thinking process, probably because she's worried of the past reccurance. She tried so hard, but, nothing works. It seems hard to keep away from those thinkings.
Ever since, she started loosing her sleep.
And when she's looking back at me, I can tell that her heart breaks easily. Is there something I can do to help her?
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Saturday, May 26, 2012
How funny it sounds to you?
It sounds silly to fight because of someone else right? Yeah, I know. And I find myself being silly. Yeah, I'm such a stupid girl. Shouldn't have to.
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don't understand why people walk so slow
You know when you're in a rush, people cut your queue, okay fine. Then, when they enter into the train, they like to shake their fucking arse and move in super slow.
Can I just kick them from behind? I can understand if the person in front are older people, but the problem is, they are youngsters. Really FML
Can I just kick them from behind? I can understand if the person in front are older people, but the problem is, they are youngsters. Really FML
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Wednesday, May 23, 2012
Animal's Right Speech Day Experience
There was an animal's right talk by Louis Ng. He really made a difference. In fighting for animal's right to forming ACRES. It has been a very inspirational talk given by him. I cried in the first few that he showed that how the bears he saved holding his hand, wanting love and to be freed. It captures my heart and it was disheartening to what humans done to these wildlife. I'm not a girl who is just passionate for fighting for dog's right, but also to the welfare of the wildlife animals.
Can't wait to graduate and help to make a difference. Hmmm...After the talk, there was a light refreshment. The food there was really nice. Hahaha..Got smoked duck :P :P :P and Siew mai!!!!:)
Then then then....
Something horrifying was about to happen to me. Well, at least I'm still safe now.
Okay. I took the food and settle at one of the table top which is quite near to the lift. Then, I saw someone coming out from the lift, looking as if he didn't bath or he has just came from a jog. He looked quite drench in sweat. In my mind, I was thinking, "LOL. This guy really just came for the food!".
Then OMG OMG OMG. It seems that he can read my mind! He come to the table where I am (I'm freaking alone that time!!!) and just stood there and stare at me, as if he wants to kill me! After that, he went off to take the food. Yes. I've been watching lotsa thrillers/crime/horror movies and you might think that I'm thinking too much because of those movies. But this proves you and me wrong.
Then, a couple (in their mid 30s i think), together with their daughter, came to the table top where I'm at. I heard over their conversation about don't look at the guy or something. Then, I was suspecting that they was talking about the guy who gave me a creepy stare just now. The daughter also mentioned that his stare is freaky. Then I asked the family if they was talking about the guy in the black shirt and bermuda pants. They said yeah and also asked me not to stare or look at him.
Then, the lady talked to me that she saw him before and she actually knows him. She said that he used not to be like this last time. Last time, he would dress smartly and he was clean. But don't know why, all of sudden he became like this and he seems to be crazy now. And it seems that he overnights somewhere around the alumni house and he didn't go back home.
His husband also showed me a picture of the toilet cubicle which was after that guy used, I was quite shocked. The toilet papers are teared and thrown everywhere on the floor. :|
Scary right? However, it was really a nice talk with the family and it's good to know them. They are very friendly and the husband is also from Msia, Sarawak!:) He's also one of the NUS Alumni.
And while we were chatting, guessed what happens again? The same guy came near to our table, and again, giving us a creepy stare. The lady said that he was staring at me. Oh god! Why???? Did he really read what my mind says???? :|
Then, when we finished our food, we bid farewell and goes our own way. Then only I realised, oh God, I'm alone. Will the creepy guy attack me from behind or anything? I don't dare to go to the toilet again. Cause according to the Jacqueline's father (the girl's father), when I was on the way to the toilet, the guy followed me. Jac's father was kind to check an eye on him for me. I would say that I'm lucky to meet kind souls.
But really, things like this are so creepy. It was like you're watching yourself in a thriller movie. :(
Great, now I know the fear and how it feels like when a psycho person stares as if you're going to be his next victim. :|
Can't wait to graduate and help to make a difference. Hmmm...After the talk, there was a light refreshment. The food there was really nice. Hahaha..Got smoked duck :P :P :P and Siew mai!!!!:)
Then then then....
Something horrifying was about to happen to me. Well, at least I'm still safe now.
Okay. I took the food and settle at one of the table top which is quite near to the lift. Then, I saw someone coming out from the lift, looking as if he didn't bath or he has just came from a jog. He looked quite drench in sweat. In my mind, I was thinking, "LOL. This guy really just came for the food!".
Then OMG OMG OMG. It seems that he can read my mind! He come to the table where I am (I'm freaking alone that time!!!) and just stood there and stare at me, as if he wants to kill me! After that, he went off to take the food. Yes. I've been watching lotsa thrillers/crime/horror movies and you might think that I'm thinking too much because of those movies. But this proves you and me wrong.
Then, a couple (in their mid 30s i think), together with their daughter, came to the table top where I'm at. I heard over their conversation about don't look at the guy or something. Then, I was suspecting that they was talking about the guy who gave me a creepy stare just now. The daughter also mentioned that his stare is freaky. Then I asked the family if they was talking about the guy in the black shirt and bermuda pants. They said yeah and also asked me not to stare or look at him.
Then, the lady talked to me that she saw him before and she actually knows him. She said that he used not to be like this last time. Last time, he would dress smartly and he was clean. But don't know why, all of sudden he became like this and he seems to be crazy now. And it seems that he overnights somewhere around the alumni house and he didn't go back home.
His husband also showed me a picture of the toilet cubicle which was after that guy used, I was quite shocked. The toilet papers are teared and thrown everywhere on the floor. :|
Scary right? However, it was really a nice talk with the family and it's good to know them. They are very friendly and the husband is also from Msia, Sarawak!:) He's also one of the NUS Alumni.
And while we were chatting, guessed what happens again? The same guy came near to our table, and again, giving us a creepy stare. The lady said that he was staring at me. Oh god! Why???? Did he really read what my mind says???? :|
Then, when we finished our food, we bid farewell and goes our own way. Then only I realised, oh God, I'm alone. Will the creepy guy attack me from behind or anything? I don't dare to go to the toilet again. Cause according to the Jacqueline's father (the girl's father), when I was on the way to the toilet, the guy followed me. Jac's father was kind to check an eye on him for me. I would say that I'm lucky to meet kind souls.
But really, things like this are so creepy. It was like you're watching yourself in a thriller movie. :(
Great, now I know the fear and how it feels like when a psycho person stares as if you're going to be his next victim. :|
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
The Vow
The Vow...
Well, I had to admit that this is one of the best movie of the romance genre I had ever watched. It's really touching how caring and observant the boyfriend is... I bet every girls would kill for a guy like him. :)
Okay. Kill is such a strong and wrong word to be used here. I mean would die. Well, maybe this is much better than kill :P
oh yeah. The girl (Paige) lost her memories due to a car accident. She can only remember things before she changed to Arts school but not the things after that. Leo (her husband) tries all his best to help her to regain her memories, but always seemed to be a stranger to Paige.
Anyway, I would highly recommend you all to watch it, but with a piece of advice, prepare lots of packets of tissues with you! It'd be better if you have a box of tissues with you. 'Cause this movie will really really really make you cried a lot. Too touching and sad I guessed. Multiple times Leo trying his best to help Paige to regain her memories, then most of the times, he was a total stranger to her and it really hurts him a lot. I can really feel that he really loves her a lot in the movie, and that's why I cried so bad T____T
Their vows:
Thursday, May 17, 2012
Thursday, May 3, 2012
Stop Worrying
I shall go to temple every week starting from today. And MUST pray every day and night.
I know it's kinda not-so-me. But...I'm really worried. I'm worried that if I can't think properly at that moment, I don't know what I'll do to myself. I know that, if I keep on praying, my prayers will be heard. Right, God? :(
I had bad dreams. And I am really afraid that things that I'm worrying is going to come. I really do not know what I should do and what I would do. Perhaps on that day, I might be going to Marina Bay or somewhere near Suntec where there is river. Wanted to go to the beach though, but...I don't know how. :'(
I don't think by that time I'll be worrying bout my safety any more. It's like I don't think I'll give a single f*** of it. So many things I can foresee what will happen if 'it' happens. :'(
Although I'm really really worried, I know there will be miracles. I know there will be. Although it seems that I'm lying to myself and I'm just trying too hard to convince myself. There will be a miracle, If I keep on praying. I just have to pray.
HAVE FAITH IN GOD, SHER LYN.
YOU KNOW YOU'VE DONE YOUR BEST YOU CAN. NOW, YOU JUST HAVE TO LEAVE THE REST TO GOD AND HAVE FAITH IN HIM.
I know it's kinda not-so-me. But...I'm really worried. I'm worried that if I can't think properly at that moment, I don't know what I'll do to myself. I know that, if I keep on praying, my prayers will be heard. Right, God? :(
I had bad dreams. And I am really afraid that things that I'm worrying is going to come. I really do not know what I should do and what I would do. Perhaps on that day, I might be going to Marina Bay or somewhere near Suntec where there is river. Wanted to go to the beach though, but...I don't know how. :'(
I don't think by that time I'll be worrying bout my safety any more. It's like I don't think I'll give a single f*** of it. So many things I can foresee what will happen if 'it' happens. :'(
Although I'm really really worried, I know there will be miracles. I know there will be. Although it seems that I'm lying to myself and I'm just trying too hard to convince myself. There will be a miracle, If I keep on praying. I just have to pray.
HAVE FAITH IN GOD, SHER LYN.
YOU KNOW YOU'VE DONE YOUR BEST YOU CAN. NOW, YOU JUST HAVE TO LEAVE THE REST TO GOD AND HAVE FAITH IN HIM.
Wednesday, May 2, 2012
Smile Smile Smile
I wished I can smile. But I just can't.
Am I the only dumb people in NUS? :(
Prof trolled. Expecting us to remember only Michaelis Menten equation. But, IC50 was out. Great. I don't even know how to calculate. I HATE THIS SHIT MAN!
Very angry. Angry with myself for being so dumb. Angry with myself that although I've studied, I still couldn't remember.
But the truth is, I'm burying myself under the pillow.
Why did I choose to come here? :(
Sigh. I hope this uni life will end soon. I really want to graduate faster.
Dear God,
please. At least all Bs for this sem. I didn't ask for much. I really can't afford my CAP being pulled down. PLEASE. I really beg you :( I wished to put a smile on my face and tell myself it's over for what is done and everything I shall leave to God. But, this time, I really can't convince myself not to worry. I can't convince myself to smile and tell myself to stay strong. Dear God, if you can listen to my prayers, I really beg for your help.
Even 9gag-ing couldn't manage to make me feel happy. :(
Am I the only dumb people in NUS? :(
Prof trolled. Expecting us to remember only Michaelis Menten equation. But, IC50 was out. Great. I don't even know how to calculate. I HATE THIS SHIT MAN!
Very angry. Angry with myself for being so dumb. Angry with myself that although I've studied, I still couldn't remember.
But the truth is, I'm burying myself under the pillow.
Why did I choose to come here? :(
Sigh. I hope this uni life will end soon. I really want to graduate faster.
Dear God,
please. At least all Bs for this sem. I didn't ask for much. I really can't afford my CAP being pulled down. PLEASE. I really beg you :( I wished to put a smile on my face and tell myself it's over for what is done and everything I shall leave to God. But, this time, I really can't convince myself not to worry. I can't convince myself to smile and tell myself to stay strong. Dear God, if you can listen to my prayers, I really beg for your help.
Even 9gag-ing couldn't manage to make me feel happy. :(
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