My New Journey----> Undecidable

Financial problem....
Fees...
Money...
All these poses a HUGE problem to my future.

After the trip from oversea, I've finally certained to do what I wanted to be. People might think that I'm trying to follow others, but I don't care what they might think of me. This is because I knew I have to change my perspective of thinkings. If I still cares what others might said about me, I would say that myself is a C-O-W-A-R-D ! So, I have to be strong, and this is what I have to be in the future. Proves them wrong!

Pharmacy. A professional course I would say. It's gonna be the key to my life. And I know that I wanted to study that. No matter how tough the subjects would be. No matter how difficult my future pathway would be.

But, this course is really expensive. Dad couldn't afford my education. But I wanted to study that. I've been searching for scholarships which provide courses like pharmacy since the day I came back from Spore. I don't know why (though my STPM results are yet to be known). But something in me asked me to do it. And that time, I was still unsure about my STPM results---whether I'm doing alright or not.

But after knowing the results, heart felt as if I've just being stabbed. Biology made me disappointed the most. I've got only A- after all the time I've spend most of my time just on this subject and it caused me having no time for the other subs. I would blame Biology for making me spend most time on it. Maybe that's because why I couldn't get A for Maths because I don't have time for it. Last minute studies caused my Math result to be like this! REally really disappointed.

Though I should be grateful for it, I guess that I can actually done better than that. Anyway, it's a history now. I can't change the past. Now hoping for a new future. But how?

With my these results, it's hard for me to opt for a scholarship after I found out most of the requirements from the website. Most scholarship for PHARMACY would only be offered if you got a minimum 3A's , excluding General Studies. When I knew about it, I guess that my chances are low. How can I compete with the world, with the students whois having much better results than I havE?

Now, I don't even know which university I should choose. Accreditations and recognisation are the most important points. But, fees is also a problem to me. Where can I get those money? It's so hard for me to decide.