When Pam said that she wants to be attached, I laughed at her.
But now...
I think I should....
Laugh at myself.
Because .....
I felt so lonely. Lol. Laugh at me if you want! I felt so bored and lonely.
Oh my...
Is it me?
zZz...All of sudden I want to get attached too...
I want someone to accompany me when I'm lonely...
I want someone to listen to me when I felt like complaining bout my studies...
I felt like telling someone which I can't tell my girlfriends here...
Sigh...
But I'm too afraid of everything...
Too afraid to start...
Afraid to get hurt like in the past...:(
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Friday, November 5, 2010
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Week 13 is approaching.
And what's worst is....FINALS are coming.
I'm afraid.
As you can see, FST 1101 doesn't even have CA. And I don't even listen to the lecturers. Sigh. I'm afraid that I can't finish reading. And IT 1001, my computing module...We've only have projects and finals...But thank God, our team presents well yesterday. I was totally amazed by the way Kenneth (our team member, a Science student, good-looking but attached, iguess) presents the presentation of our websites. It's so awesome! He looks good and fluent in his delivery of the presentation. And he even answered well to the lecturer's and tutor's questions. I guess he must be a very smart guy.
And I saw this super cute guy! He looks like a mixed child. LOL!
Anyway, yesterday I met ZK. I acted that I don't know him. Okay. Don't ask me why. I think it's because of the prank or...hm..I'm trying hard not to like him...Argh...I don't know why I always felt afraid when I saw him. It's like I wanna avoid him. I guess, I think, he knew that I liked him. LOL! But then...okay..Whatever...I don't know what to say...Sigh...
He ...Hm..Lol. PAM, I don't know what to talk about him!:(
My mind is blank. Haha! Okay. Just wanna tell you, I still find that he's funny and cute.
So far, no progression in feelings development except that I will feel nervous whenever he's around. That's the reason I'm avoiding him. But don't ask me why I'm nervous. 'Cause I don't know why too...:(
And what's worst is....FINALS are coming.
I'm afraid.
As you can see, FST 1101 doesn't even have CA. And I don't even listen to the lecturers. Sigh. I'm afraid that I can't finish reading. And IT 1001, my computing module...We've only have projects and finals...But thank God, our team presents well yesterday. I was totally amazed by the way Kenneth (our team member, a Science student, good-looking but attached, iguess) presents the presentation of our websites. It's so awesome! He looks good and fluent in his delivery of the presentation. And he even answered well to the lecturer's and tutor's questions. I guess he must be a very smart guy.
And I saw this super cute guy! He looks like a mixed child. LOL!
Anyway, yesterday I met ZK. I acted that I don't know him. Okay. Don't ask me why. I think it's because of the prank or...hm..I'm trying hard not to like him...Argh...I don't know why I always felt afraid when I saw him. It's like I wanna avoid him. I guess, I think, he knew that I liked him. LOL! But then...okay..Whatever...I don't know what to say...Sigh...
He ...Hm..Lol. PAM, I don't know what to talk about him!:(
My mind is blank. Haha! Okay. Just wanna tell you, I still find that he's funny and cute.
So far, no progression in feelings development except that I will feel nervous whenever he's around. That's the reason I'm avoiding him. But don't ask me why I'm nervous. 'Cause I don't know why too...:(
Well, Now it is WEEK 12!
LSM 1101 CA2 was supposingly an easy exam. Truly. I wasn't satisfied with my "future" results...
Because of the stupid careless mistakes I did.
This made my whole mood down.
It is easy! But why would I do such stupid mistakes!
I'm so angry with myself.
But what can I do? Who can I complain to ? What is done has done.
There are no ways I can take back my papers and calculate again. And why the heck I will write nucleus of DNA? It supposed to be nucleus of egg. !!! I know how to answer all the questions. I've studied so hard. But.... I made those stupid mistakes.
Why? Why? Why?
Sigh...
Anyway, let's forget about this. Pray that God will be merciful that Prof Swami will never mark me whole thing wrong just because of one stupid word being written wrongly. Lord, I pray to you...Please let me get the marks that I'm supposed to get after all those hard works.
Sigh...
Probably, I shouldn't really slack that Sunday. Sigh.
LSM 1101 CA2 was supposingly an easy exam. Truly. I wasn't satisfied with my "future" results...
Because of the stupid careless mistakes I did.
This made my whole mood down.
It is easy! But why would I do such stupid mistakes!
I'm so angry with myself.
But what can I do? Who can I complain to ? What is done has done.
There are no ways I can take back my papers and calculate again. And why the heck I will write nucleus of DNA? It supposed to be nucleus of egg. !!! I know how to answer all the questions. I've studied so hard. But.... I made those stupid mistakes.
Why? Why? Why?
Sigh...
Anyway, let's forget about this. Pray that God will be merciful that Prof Swami will never mark me whole thing wrong just because of one stupid word being written wrongly. Lord, I pray to you...Please let me get the marks that I'm supposed to get after all those hard works.
Sigh...
Probably, I shouldn't really slack that Sunday. Sigh.
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
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