Tuesday, April 23, 2013

My obvious dislike about people

Things that I wouldn't understand:

WHY PEOPLE LIKE TO GOSSIP????

Seriously, as time passed, I actually had increased growth of dislike towards them. Every single day, I would be hearing them gossiping bout people - their families, friends, etc.

Honestly, I really think humans must not be too naive. "Close" or "Best" friends may not be someone you can trust too much. Just come here and you'd understand why I say that. They may be very good with you and so on, but there are couple of times, when you're not around, they'd talk bout you behind your back. And all I would do is just listen, 'cause it's not my nature to gossip bout people. In fact, I hate people who loves to gossip. I guessed, gossiping seemed to be like a gene is almost everyone. The fact that I don't have many friends because I couldn't find someone like me. All the people (well, most) that I've met just like to gossip, and because of this, I would avoid being too friend (not being too open) with such people. And most of the times, I wouldn't even join in their gossiping, but obviously, you can always overheard it 'cause they talked bout people very loud.

Like now, they're talking bout their "family". Sometimes, I really wanna ask if they really understand the history of the person they're talking bout? Why they are not close with their relatives and so on? 'Cause I'm also had this kind of upbringing. Do you think it was something that we chosen for? Do you think that I don't wish to be close to my relatives and etc? Do you think I don't want to have a close relationship with my family etc??

You people had good life, so why must you complain about other people's life when it was not something they've chosen for? Hearing them gossiping bout N who left this place, I guessed, after I left, I would also be a victim.

So, people, beware of who you're trusting. Never ever trust anyone too much. They may be a crocodile in disguise.

I don't know if there's any significant people like me?

Tuesday, April 16, 2013

Nightmare

We planned a trip to Taiwan in July. Initially was very excited bout it. 'Cause finally can spend more time with him.

Lately, our relationship was abit of rocky but we always managed to kiss and make up. Not sure if it affects me but I never had any thoughts before I go to bed. Somehow, I got this nightmare that I woke up crying and my pillow was soaked in tears...

In the dream...

We were already in Taiwan. First few hour on arrival, after putting our stuffs in our hotel rooms, we went out and walked around the city ( or something like that). Then, all of sudden, I got abandoned. They lefted me in a mall. I don't know how we got separated or something. So, I messsaged him, asking him where he is. He replied that they've forgotten bout me. I was upset and nervous at that time, and asked how can he forgotten bout me as a bf? He said that there's nothing he could do. So... i throwed tantrum and all and said that I'll .... if he didnt ...

To my surprises, he replied " Yeah, I'm so scared. What you gonna do? Break ahh? "
Was dumbfounded at that reply. Then, don't know how, I initiated it. It was a very difficult decision. And in that dream, I suddenly remembered I don't bring Taiwan currency with me ( i mean why so weird) :/ And it's hard to get back my stuffs back from him. My luggages, tickets, etc. :(

Then, I woke up crying and feeling scared. Like would things like this happen to me? :(
Although things like being dumped or divorced in a foreign country was some of the tactics that some jerks used, it sometimes scare me. :(
Maybe we should have a talk bout it. Maybe things wouldn't be this way like in the dream.
Maybe I'm just affected with what happened recently. :'(
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