Tell me How to Forgive You

From what Glee taught, we have to be forgiving. But, even if you apologized, I seriously don't know how to forgive you on the things you said. Don't you know your words hurt my feelings? The way you said sounds like I'm some mental-freak or someone who is having a extreme mental problems. Do you know that it's not a joke or advice, but it's clear that it's bullying? Sorry, but I took your words personally and I can't seemed to forget the way you said that I should go to a psychiatrist, and not taking a psychology module! I can accept if you used the word "psychologist" instead of "psychiatrist".

No matter how you apologize, it's hard to shook your words off. I'm tired of being bullied. Since kindergarden, I was bullied by people. Although it's not physically bullies, but don't you know how mentally-bullied kids felt? And how it affects us? I still remembered during my Kindergarden times, some Indian kids put stones into my water bottle, and put my water bottle back when I don't know. And when I wanted to drink, I can't drink. Yeah, they laughed at me when they saw that I can't drink my water. Do you all think it's funny to bully me?!!

Sometimes I really wanted to forget all these dark little memories, but somehow, it's hard to forget them and it really affected me a lot. And no, my parents didn't know, maybe mum knew, well, I can't recall what's their action or what happened. Till now, I was still mentally bullied. But no, I won't tell out who you are, not because I will forgive you or anything. But, somehow, I really wished, I really wished to lose my memory so that I won't remember a single thing that left such a huge impact on me. If I really had a memory loss, I really think that life would be better to me. So that I won't have social withdrawal which is caused by my SAD.

Dear Santa,

I really wish that this mental bullying will come to an end.