For example, being a victim of molest, a rape victim, victim of child or domestic abuse, as well as a victim of bully.
Since young, S had been a victim of bullies. At the age of 5, first attackers were a group of 4-5 Indian kids. What did they do? They told S that they are treating S a cooling drink. S rejected but the kids just took S's water bottle and put stones into her bottle and gave it back to her and forced her to drink it. S was lucky that her mother fetched her in time, and she quickly raced to her mother's bike. Of course, the mother didn't saw what had happened and S didn't tell it either.
Then, after some time, S got into trouble again. This time it was so big that her father canned her and made her knelt in front of the altar. S was being accused of stealing P's money although she swore that she never steal. But her parents didn't even believe her. There was no prove and P just accused S and told her mum that S took her money. P's mum then came to talked to the principal of the kindergarten and the principal called S's parents. No matter how hard S denied of the accusation because she really didn't did that, but her father ignored her and canned her.
It was since then S realized that she doesn't really had a great childhood and life and death doesn't even matters. S often wondered why must she brought into this cruel world? S can't really remember if there's anything worse than cutting her own wrist but she really thinks that her life isn't worth of living.
Not only that, even her relatives are also evil and a big bully. Once when S was about 11 years old, her family went on a vacation together with her relatives. So, there was once when they went to eat in a restaurant, S's cousin brother and sisters are so greedy that they took all the good and expensive foods, leaving only bones and gravy for her family. And worst thing is, S and her siblings got accused of finishing the foods when they barely even had the meat.
There had been many times she And her mother got bullied by her relatives. Once my dad had a function and got about 3-4 free seats to enjoy the sumptuous dinner, to S's mum horror, what she get to eat that time was very little as she had to sit with my uncle and aunts. Once there were roasted chicken or some herbal chicken soup, S's uncle gave himself,his wife and other aunts big chicken thighs. But what he gave S's mum was chicken backside, bones and chicken wings. S's mum wasn't happy of course and told S's father but S's father never believe that his siblings would do such things to them.
It has not been only one time but countless! S's dad hardly believe them because it's hard to prove! Cause most of the time S's dad was not ln the same table with them.
Then another incident was when it was S's brother's wedding dinner in Pahang. She had to seat with her evil and greedy uncle and cousins because her dad simply put her there. So she was sitting on that table alone with her relatives. There was once a shark fin soup was being served on the table and her effing elder cousin brother who looked like a duck, scooped the soup to everyone's bowl with the crab meat and ingredients, except S's bowl, which he only gave her the soup and nothing else. Not a single crab meat or anything was there. Only the soup. Although S doesn't really mind as she gets to drink these soups numerous time long ago, but she just felt that it was unethical and unfair. Of course there's no point to tell her father as she doesn't even had a camera phone as a prove. Anyway, the father would never even believe either.
When most of the time you're living in the world of bullies, what's the point to continue living in it? Wherever you go, you ended up being bullied. Is it karma? Did I bully people a lot in the past? Perhaps so, I do hope that the bullies can end soon. It's hard to take it any longer.
Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.4
No comments:
Post a Comment