My brain is exhausted but I've got to continue...:(

I felt so unproductive..I am supposed to finish Organic by today...But I have to delay due to my unproductive-ness...Why o why ? Is it because time passed too fast? But why am I absorbing things so slow today!!? :(:(

*screams*....*pulls hair*

Sighhh....I saw my TA today, but he seemed to be unable to recognize me...*Disappointed*...:(
I think he's really a good TA...The best TA I've ever met...Really! That's what makes me like about him. (Not in terms of feeling!) I've seen him during our Chem lab...All along...How he helped others...His concern...And so on...

I remembered there was once something about him that leaves me a VERY GOOD impression towards him. It was during our last lab work (last Wed...:( Sigh...can't get to chat with him again:( ), my friend's things burst(not burst...it's just that the stopper went off and all the chemicals just splashed like that..) due to pressure while shaking the separatory funnel...He immediately helped my friend to get another apparatus and help her to set up... See?? Can you find such a TA? Someone so kind like him?? Unlike the Lab Tech...Only help those pretty girls!! Those he considered not so pretty, he wouldn't even bother! >.<

And he's really really patient and "ti tie"...I remembered something went wrong with my crystallisation during my 2nd experiment...He kept coming towards my place and asked me how is it...Hahaha...It really touches me...Cause I've never met such a kind soul like him before...While everyone almost finished their experiment, I was slow because of my silliness and blurness...Though I've read the manual and watched the video in the morning :(

But his humor is what I like. He's not arrogant like the green lab tech! He's kind, patient and sweet...Hehe...Seriously, I really will give him a VERY VERY GOOD remark if the survey for the TAs are out...SERIOUS!

But then, sigh...how can he just forgotten me like that!! ??? :(:(:(
*Deeply disappointed*
Aiks...Nevermind...Anyway, I just hope to see him again to have a chat again ....
Good luck, Derek in your lab research :)

I want a Chemistry major boyfriend...:(:(

Sigh...I'd prefer guy friends who are smart in Chemistry...Sigh...So that we can study together and he can teach me whenever I don't understand certain stuffs...And we can always talk about chemistry together...How good it is?:) Sigh....Why my life has to be so suffering...?? :(

Anyway, sigh, I don't know any Chemistry major people much, and those guys I know are already attached or too good-looking, and I'm just an ugly girl...Stop day-dreaming, Sherlyn:(

Yesterday I was under a severe depression. I almost did the silliest thing ever that I've always against with -- to take my own life. I remembered that yesterday, when I reached my room. I straight away go to the bathroom and open the shower tap, while I'm still dressed. And while my whole body still wet and cold, I went to the kitchen....And thought of taking my own life. Initially I thought that the height was not that high enough, impact on me won't be that great. But I really too depressed. I really don't know what's going on with me. I can't think straight. I really don't know. It was like my feelings controlled my mind. I saw a chair right next to the window. I climbed up and it was really cold. Possibly due to the strong wind and the bath I took just now. I stood there for seconds and closed my eyes. I have sights. A lot of scenes passed across my mind.

It was then, I realized, I still have my mum. And my Taiping friends that loves me. What if I died?

Second thought, I realized my good friend (unfortunately not from NUS), sms-ed me after seeing my FB status. She asked me to keep moving on despite of my failure. Even if I get really bad results, I am still in the battle, and I'm still the survivor. That's why I should never give up hope and I should stand back on my feet again and to fight against this war. It was what that touches me. After all, nobody in my FB wall that manage to understand the situation that I'm undergoing. They never try to know what's happening instead of just give comments. (though there are some that gave really good and encouraging comments like Roy and Ivy...)

I know, I am fragile. I am easily shattered. But sometimes, do you think when you received "tamparan hebat" for twice in a row, can you accept it? Especially when this is the first time ever I received such a number. And after I've been studying so hard for that mod for 3 weeks before the exams, how can you accept that fact of failing? Do you guys actually understand the feelings I felt? Do you guys ever put yourself in that situation before commenting on my FB status? I'm not trying to imply anything here, but just that, you all judged me too early before you all try to understand what situation I'm undergoing.

I called mum just now and told her how sad I was . Again, I cried. Each time when I talk about it, I'll cry so badly, and I'll ended up crying for hours...And I'll ended up using more than 5 pcks of tissues. I know there's no use of crying, but it's just my way of releasing stress and to let go of my feelings. If I never cry, I think things will be weird and I won't know what I'd do. Mum is understanding, but dad...He kept saying that it was my own fault, that I FB alot. Yes, I admit I FB. But I've been reducing. I on my FB most time, but that doesn't mean that I'm available. I post a lot, but it's just when I'm stressed when I study, that's why I post. Sometimes, people just don't understand me. But I'm glad I had a few friends that really understand me.

Rainie Yang - Xia Yi Ci Wei Xiao

The Secret Anti-aging of Japanese women

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The day when FATE brought us together:)

I didn't get to write this interesting story of mine due to my busy-ness after my trip from Taiping.

Okay...the story goes like this:

18/3/2011---> 9.10pm reached Changi Airport with Mandy. Bought a salad which costed me bloody $9.90 which consists of only celery,oranges, apples and cucumbers. Wth that costed me till $9.90...It's like 4 times a normal price. And it doesnt even come with big servings!! Nevermind that. Later on, we went to our seats on the flight. Mandy and I was not on the same seat...I sat on 29A. Then, my life changed! Lol. So dramatic huh? Okay. Then, I spotted this cute, good-looking ang mo putting in his bag into luggage compartment. I was thinking at that time if he was going to sit beside me or what..I actually hoped that he will sit beside me :P

Then, to my surprise, he sat beside me! Then, he said "hi" to me. I just said "Hi!" and smiled back to him. Then he initiated the talk and we soon talk and talk and talk. We shared a lot of our stories and he told me his. He told me that he went to Cameron Highlands before and he likes that place a lot. He loves the strawberries and teas. Oh yeah, he stayed at Lavender. Ahaha...But then, he's in Spore just because of his business...He will be here for 2 years. He was here last year, October. So, he'll go back Paris on October 2012. Sob...:(

Then, when we reached Penang, we hoped that we can see each other again too...Ahaha...And we bidded farewell...

19/3/2011 --> Joan jie jie's wedding. It's so hilarious. First time seeing such wedding games in reality. I find it very fun! It's so super duper funny! Joan jie jie's husband was really good looking and is a decent-looking guy. Aaww...She's so lucky....I hope to find my partner too, one day...:P

Oh yeah, Joan jie jie's wedding the time, there are lotsa game. I found that getting the guy to dance Gaga's "Bad Romance" was the funniest. The 2 guys have to wear the mop head and act like Gaga. Then, one of the guy asked the 2 guys "what are you all doing? Are you trying to catch ghosts?" Then all of us laughed. And another funny part is the choc one...where the chocolate paste are put onto both side of the plastic fling and 2 guys are supposed to lick the choc together...one from front, and another from the back. Lol...It's so so funny that my stomach hurts ...

20/1/2011 --> My flight back to Spore. We took the night flight. Jie and I ate at McDonald. It was 6.40pm that time that I saw him again. Alex. That French guy I met on the plane. Omg. I was so delighted that my sister was also surprised why I kept on smiling. Hahaha. Too obvious! We're so fated together! I just cant believe it!!! The funniest thing is, of all stalls, we met at the same stall! I wanted to go up to him and greet him. But I was scared. I am scared that he might forgotten who am I and asked "Who are you?"...Then, that will be an embarrassment to me...Then, jie and I went to the toilet and wait to enter the plane. I got Seat 30F this time. Sigh...I don't know what's my chances to be on the same plane, and at the same seat with him. Hm...Probability. Uncertainty. These are what I learnt in my GEM 2900. But then, ....I am not sure if I should apply it here or not. Neither do i know how to apply it.Lol. Then, I saw him boarding in the same plane again! I was even delighted! Okie. But,...he sat at 29A. Aiks...That was my seat last time. We were so near but yet so far. :(

I spotted him looking around...I was thinking if he was looking for me at that time. Aiks...HAhaha! I guessed he didn't saw me. I was just behind him. If only he looked my way...:(

At first, I was disappointed. I thought that he might have forgotten me...But when we landed at Spore, I let everyone in front to go out first. Sigh. I don't like to squeeze with people...Alex was still sitting there too...He was waiting for the others to get down. Then, when it was left with fewer people, he took his luggage and that was the time he saw me. He said "Hi" to me. I acted if I didn't notice him, and acted as if I'm surprise and said "Hi" back to him in a delighted way. He told me, "I was wondering just now if you're also boarding on the same plane..." I smiled and laughed and told him "I was wondering the same thing as well! Ahaha. I never knew you were just in front of me!" He laughed and asked about my trip in my hometown and I asked him about his trip in Penang. It was really nice to meet him again. Later on, we knew that we have to separate, so he patted on my shoulder and said that "Hope that we'll be meeting again." I just smiled to him. Actually I'm really hoping too...:(

Garrr...I forgotten to ask his number !!:(((

Oh gosh. Today sis brought me to trim my eyebrow. I was so freaking nervous and scared. So, the moment the lady wanted to trim my eyebrow, I asked her if is it painful. She was shocked at my question, so she asked if it is my first time here. I told it is my first time doing this. She told me that first timer will feel a lil pain. After doing it a few times, you won't feel the pain. So, I tried to calm myself down saying that it is just going to be pain a lil. Initially it's bearable. But there was a few times that I shrieked. I cried most when she did on the lower part of the eyebrow. Gosh, It's so freaking painful that I guessed that the lady realized that I almost cried. Hahaha! She asked me who brought me here to trim my eyebrow. I just said my sister. Lol...

After that, sis brought me walk around Far East Plaza...gosh, next time i must come back here! Things here are cheap and nice!! Lol lol lol...I hope that I can earn lotsa money and repay sis and mummy and dad...God, please bless me...Please...