My friends and family

I just love my Taiping besties alot...They are the greatest friends on Earth. But distances seemed to part us far apart. But thanks to this thing called Facebook. It allows us to communicate and know each other's life even though we're so much far away from one another.

Thanks God for granting me good friends like Agnes, Tee Xin, Serena, Jennifer, Jun-Lyn, Khai Li and the rest who gave me unlimited support when I'm so stressed. I just adore them. I wished that we'll be able to have unlimited outings even after we had our spouse or whatever...hehehe...

I misses them so much. And I missed my family too. My dog. They are too adorable to resist. Sometimes, I really wished that I'm at home. Where it's my shelter. A place where I can complain to when I'm stressed. A place where it's warm. A place where you can do whatever you want. A place where you can have the person you loved most. A place where you can play with your dogs and led a carefree life. Aiks...

I always thought that I hated home. But I realised how much I love it now, after I was so much far away. :(

So, people out there. I was once a rebellious child, ignorant, and so on (whatever negative words u can describe me), but I can tell you that, you'll definitely misses your home when you're far away...Indeed, I really felt like going back...And I'm going back for 3 days in 2 weeks time!~~^_^

JJ Lin Jun Jie - Down (English Version, With Lyrics)

I misses my family and friends badly. :'((

Sometimes, I wished to go back my Form 6 life. It's the best.

There are times, I thought that I've made the wrong mistake to come to Singapore to study. I thought that I am able to handle stress. But I am freaking wrong.

I'm not motivated enough I guessed.

But when I think back, what are the reasons that I'm persistent to come to study here, against everyone's opinion that asked me not to come here to study?

When I thought back, I am certain that the education here is better. The opportunities there abound here. To explore. To gain cultural exchange. A better life. Safety.

I know I shouldn't emo. But sometimes, I felt like breaking down. I have to do all the studies all by myself. People here are hard to communicate and share. Unlike those in Taiping. When you don't understand something, they are willing to share. But people here are not willing to teach and share. Have to suffer all these studies that I find it hard to understand all by myself.

Last time, Organic chemistry is easy for me. But now, why I find it hard to understand? :(

Don't Give Up

Came across this blog...Hence, post this as a self-motivation. Don't emo due to your CM1161 failure. Learn to grow!

Motivation, -noun

1. The act or an instance of motivating.

2. The state or condition of being motivated.

3. Something that motivates; inducement; incentive.

People often use the term “be motivated” or “I need motivation” yet despite it being one of the most talked about human characteristics, it is often found in the most difficult of places, hidden in the shadows, unwilling to be found. So where do we look? Well first we need to understand what we’re actually for. Do we just need a lift, a kick up our metaphorical backsides in order to be willing to get involved. Or, as in most cases, do we need something a little deeper than being spurred on, something mentally that needs discovered in our heads?

It’s only recently that I found my motivation that has been long lost inside my mind and like many people, believed I was searching, and fighting, and trying to find it amongst the shadows, but it is only now I realised I was looking in all the wrong places. If we open our eyes we see motivation is all around us. All it really took was 7 basic steps in the direction of self learning.

1 - Follow a path. Setting a major goal is what we all do when we need motivation, but we follow a fractured path. Split your goal into smaller tasks and learn how to achieve success step by step. After all, you never learn how to swim until you’ve learnt to paddle.

2 - Never quit. So often when faced with a challenge and when faced with pressures we buckle, and concede, roll over and get into a bad habit of giving 50% effort. See things through, if you fail so be it, but you’ll be surprised what you can learn through failure.

3 - Mutual emotion. People can’t truly be a solider, without being around other soldiers. Nobody in a winning Cup Final team can be a winner, without being around other winners. The same applies here. We will forever be unhappy if we around the unhappy. Seek confidence from those with confidence, and eventually you will find yourself giving confidence to others.

4 - Self learning. Procrastination is a good habit to get into. Man has a truly unrecognised ability to learn without the need of an instructor. When we learn the art of self education we will find, if not create, opportunity to find success we never imagined that we would.

5 - Natural talent. Natural talent creates motivation, motivation creates persistence, and persistence, ultimately, gets the job done.

6 - Learn and Grow. Read, practice and seek to increase our skills in subject we are fond of. Learn new songs if you are musician, write more jokes if you are a comedian, make more friends if you want more friendship. The more we learn and the more we grow the more an upward spiral of success develops.

7 - Risk taking. Why are humans so afraid of taking risks? Why do we feel the need to take the safe approach. It’s funny when you look at it, but the most successful people are the risk takers. So break out of the negative stereotype, take a risk or two and either achieve success or learn through failure. Whatever the outcome, it’s a step in the right direction.

If ever we feel the need to give up, don’t, just follow the 7 basic rules. The most important rule of all? The secret rule? When motivated, stay motivated.

Is it that because I trust people too easily, people always take granted on what I've done for them?

I just knew her true colours recently. I thought she was a true friend. But I don't know what went wrong, right after semester break, she began to act weirdly and shouted at me at times. I often share what I knew (though I'm not smart in studies, but I'm good at finding things), she strayed away from me. Is it why you was trying to gain my trust during the first sem, and dumped me away after you learned all my secrets without the need to buy books?

I don't know is it because of the misunderstanding about CA, you're still angry with me, thinking that it was my fault for giving the wrong info?But it really wasn't my fault. The lecturer told us at the very last minute. But, you thought I hide it from you and purposely tries to harm you. Well, that's fine.

And thanks for showing your true nature to me this early. And thanks for teaching me not to trust anyone too easily. Especially people who I knew for just a few months. Thanks for all.

Anyway, sigh. I failed one of my mid term. I WANT TO CRY :(

2.4kg in just 2 weeks!

Omg! I can't imagine it. I've never knew that losing weight can be so easy!!!!

And I've just had my body check-up just now. I lost 2.4kg (from 58.5 to 56.1kg) ....I was soooOOoo Happy!!! And she, also congratulated me and gave me a high five! I am so happy to be able to talk to her !!:) I remembered the first time I saw her, she gave me some kinda special feeling. I thought she was a boy at first! But I realised she wasn't. And she was really friendly. I remembered that day when I tried to gain enough courage to tell her that I added her in Facebook. Hehe.

And the happiest thing is, I lost my weight without any exercising! I lead a super sedentary lifestyle and yet still be able to lose my weight! And that is not something which I achieved through skipping meals or popping into slimming pills. All I did is to change my diet and drink a lot of water. In these ways, I've not only felt that my weight has decreased, but also my complexion was slightly better compared to last time.

And I really wish to be like her....:))

You gotta be kidding with me.

This China guy out of sudden sms-ed me this morning. My phone ran out of credit. So, I didn't reply. But I didn't notice his message until I reached my hostel to take a nap. (Yes, I am a pig. I sleep whenever I have the opportunity to sleep) Then, when I looked at my message, I was shocked to see a message from him saying, "Hi,it's XXX. I hope that you still remember me, just wanna ask, are you attached?"

I got numbed. Why the heck he asked me such a random question out of sudden?

But out of courtesy, I did reply to him that I am not. (Call me stupid if you want to, but i just think that there is no need to lie since I still haven't know what is his real intention. I got friends asking me that for fun, so I am not thinking much.)

Then, this thing starts to creep my nerves out when I saw his second message.

Message 2: Hmm...I don't know how to put it properly, just wanna say that I find you vy cute and attractive, so how abt having a dinner with me this weekend, pls say yes....

I told him this weekend I can't because I need to go out with my sister (to get my cocktail dress. YAY~~). He then asked for another weekend. Lol.

Okay. Let's put this aside first. I've never dated before (Yes, despite the fact that I got exs)...But when someone asked for a date, I felt happy, but at the same time, unhappy because it wasnt someone I really want to be with. :(

Well, that's all for today. I don't wanna think much about this.