Adele - Chasing Pavements

I love Him soo much...:(

Sometimes it's true. No, it's not sometimes, it is indeed true. First love stays forever. Even though when you're with another guy, there are times that you'll think of your first love.

I was facebook-ing awhile after watching my favourite Korean drama. I thought of having a break by facebook-ing. But I was wrong. His photo album with her appeared on my news feed. So, I thought of looking through his album with her. I wish I didn't look at it. I shouldn't. It breaks my heart so much.

I know that deep down I still liked him even though sometimes I say things the other way round. I am lying to myself by telling that I don't and won't have feelings for him anymore. But why my heart hurts so much when I saw the album !?

I find it so hard to forget my first love. He's the first person I loved so much than anyone else. He's the guy that I once in loved with till I wanted to be with him for my lifetime till death. But it all ended up so fast.

No matter how hard I told myself to forget about him or not to think about him, somehow, my heart refused to. It was a pain, a deep scar which still hurts at times...I hope to end this endless pain, but I find it hard to find a person to replace him. He's perfect...like him. But he can't be mine. I'm really envied the girl. I wish that I can be her. But...

Out of my hands

Darlene Zschech - Here I Am to Worship

I LOVE YOU LORD! I wish to draw myself nearer to You, Lord. I want to know you more, Lord. Thanks for being there with me all the time and let me felt your Presence and opened my eyes. I trust you with all my heart and I want to Praise You Lord with all my heart. :)

Words Will Never Be Enough

Words alone is never enough to describe the feelings I'm having now.
It's weird. I havent finished my studying (I've still got 10 chaps to go), and I don't felt any stress...This is so unlike myself. OMG. What had just happened to me? Shouldnt' I feel stress right now?? I still have mood to go here and there and shopping...LOL~!

Next thing is, I was studying this chapter about Food Colour Chemistry...All of sudden, I thought back about those days when I'm in Form 6. And I remember those days that I will study hard in Organic Chemistry just for her. Yeah, she's my idol teacher. She's the one who has motivated me in ORganic Chemistry as well as Inorganic Chemistry. Anyway, physical chemistry as well. No doubt for that, but my physical was weaker as I'm obssessed with Organic and Inorganic...

I remembered those days where I would borrow her notes back home and start studying and copy her notes to my books. Then, each week I would do exercises for Organic Chemistry (I'm not a mugger in this case, but it's because I love Organic too much and I'm so obssessed with it)...Then, I would let her mark the exercises that I've done. It makes me hate university life! How would I know that I understand the concept well if I didn't do exercises? This is so true for Chemistry...To me, to understand Chem, it's matter of doing exercises to make u more understand and know how to apply the concepts. But, too bad, this can never be done in NUS or maybe in the varsities because the lectures don't have the time to commit for us...

That's why I think Pn Teh is the best teacher among all...And Pn Teh, I really hope that you'd know how much I misses you..=(

What's the significance of this dream?

I had a weird dream today.

Well, it goes like this.

I met a girl in a park. It seems that she was hurt or something. So, I asked if she needed any help. Though she looked a lil afraid of me initially, she trusted me after a while. It seems that she has magic and she was trying to escape from something. Then, I saw that she was actually protecting something---> a book.

It seems that she was under some kind of spell but a bad people that wanted to snatch the book from her. And it seems that the more she uses her magic to break open the door, the more she''ll get hurt. Suddenly, she asked me to help her to protect the book.

Okay. Then, I don't know somehow all of sudden I was in another place, with the book, that I was assigned to protect. Then, I'm not sure how and why I was in the toilet,( I assume I was alone at first), I was trying to pee..(IN THE DREAM!) Then, somehow I was curious, so I actually looking up at the book to see what it is... Dear readers, guess what is the book about? The title is --> Holy Bible. Yes, I'm not fooling around. This is what I saw in my dream. Then, all of sudden, I realised that there was this old man ( I don't know when or how he appear) standing behind me. I got the shocked of my life! How can he be there when I'm ......peeing?? Then, I try to run away, suddenly I was held by this guy leader that asked me what book I'm holding. I lied and said that it was just some novel. He then grabbed the book from me and ....I don't know what happened next...

Sigh...I really don't know what's the significance of this dream? Am I a failure to protect Lord's holy bible in this dream? Or...??? :((