Sunday, July 29, 2012

Obsessed with Love - Am I or am I Not

Call me an overly emotional person, I don't care - for I know I'm actually one, and I admit that.

As far as I know, no matter how hurted I am in my past, I'm still a believer in true love although most of the time I lied to myself about it.
Trust me, all girls do believe in things called true love no matter how hard they said that they never believe in it. Yeah, I know some of the girls would say I'm crapping and they never trust in true love. Sorry, but shut the f* up. Do you dare to ask yourselves honestly when you saw an elderly couple still so loving and devoted to one another, and you've never wished that things like this happened to you? To be still loved by someone so dearly even though there are creases and wrinkles on your face and so on??

And guys, please note that you should always remember your wife's birthday and your anniversary. It really upset girls when you forgotten it although you genuinely forgotten bout it. It applies to your gfs too, if you're really committed to her. I know some guys would never understand why anniversary is so important to girls but these dates are the only dates that most girls would never forget for it as from her perspective, she'll see the day as a time to remember all your "firsts" together (first date, first kiss, etc.). There are actually tonnes of reasons, so you'd need to do your homework yourselves.

As for me, I always know that I'd never want to follow my mum's footsteps. Sometimes I tend to get jealous listening to my friends how happy their parents are being together and how sweet they are and etc. I was actually pitying my mum and amazed a lil how she could pull herself up and being strong. Dad never remember her birthday neither their anniversaries. :(
And I clearly know how upset she is, when she told me dad would never remember her birthday or anniversary... no matter how neutral she made her tone sounds, I know deep inside, she has never been really happy with the marriage. Although she always said she hates dad, but I know somehow, somewhere, she still loves dad. :(

Although I've seen failed love and myself been hurted for over and over again (sounds like I've never learn my mistakes:/ ) , it had never stop believing in true love. I know I sounded like a little kid that believes in fairytales. But I am realistic enough to understand that there won't be a prince charming riding a white horse to see me or there's such thing called happy ever after. Of course, every couples- young or married - they do fight and still get back together. So, it's impossible to have perfect relationship where you live happily ever after without fights.

Perhaps you might asked, why do I still believe in true love despite all the downsides I've been through. But, I've also witnessed true love. Like my grandpa and my 2nd grandma. Yes, my 2nd grandma is my grandpa's first love. They liked each other but grandpa had to marry my grandma(yes, this is very confusing but yeah, my grandma, which is the 1st wife) due to arranged marriage. Before they get married, my grandma knew bout my grandpa and his first love. and she tried so hard to make them separate to the extend of consulting a few bomohs. (Bomohs are malay shaman well I don't really know how to define this exactly but I know they can summon spirits to heal or to cast spells) of course, because of the spells, they do separated a few years and grandpa had to marry my grandma. It was long enough but somehow fate brought them back together. They fell in love with each other again though my grandpa has never forget her. It's cute to know that sometimes my grandpa will use an excuse to bring my dad to go kia kia to paktor with my 2nd grandma. And as a reward for my dad for keeping grandpa's secret, dad was always given sweets and toys. Lol.;)

And despite the objection and so on, they somehow got married and grandpa choose to stay with my 2nd grandma instead with my grandma... and also it seemed that grandpa learned that my grandma did put a spell to make them separated. It's beautiful that how true love can break spells.:)

Although 2nd grandma had died, grandpa would still misses her so bad and there's no more the familiar delightful face he had after her death... This is the reason why I still believe in true love. You can call me silly and unrealistic if you want... I actually don't mind.

But, I know it's rare and hard to find one...:( sighhhh... I spent my lifetime searching and I'm not still sure if I found one. But I know I'm always been serious and committed when I'm in a relationship. Sometimes I'd find myself so silly for being fully devoted in love.
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Lessons and review from "The Wedding"

One of my favorite statement is:

"The reason why I read to Allie is because, each time I read to her, it was like I was courting her, because sometimes, just sometimes, she would fall in love with me again, just like she had a long time ago. And its the most wonderful feeling in the world. How many people are given that chance? To have someone you love fall in love with you over and over?"
-Noah from 'The Notebook'

Sighhh..... I wondered how many guys think the way like him. :(

Besides that, according to Experts' advice on improving a marriage - 4As: Attention, Appreciation, Affection, and Attraction. However, most of the time the first 2 is the most neglected ones. Though affection and attraction may still present, one of the reason for problems that causes relationships falling apart is because of the lack of attention and appreciation. :'(

Another statement from The Wedding that I adore is: " If it had taken 29 years to drift apart, I knew that a few weeks of effort was simply the beginning of a long process of approachment. "

It makes me wondered, how many man in this world think exactly like him? For I know in most man, once they thought a relationship is failing, that's the end of it. Or even if they tried for a couple of months to win their loved ones back and they still failed to do so after falling apart from the relationship that's worth a few years, they actually gave up quite easily. How many man would think that way like the guy in the novel did?

Love is more than the 3-words mumbled before bedtime, which is sustained by action, a pattern of devotion in the things we do for one another every day. But, how many of us know that? Sometimes it really occurs to me that saying the 3 words would just be a habit for uhmm..., but I really wouldn't want that to happen. :(

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Saturday, July 28, 2012

The Wedding

I was just at the page of 8 and tears flooded my eyes. Makes me wondered why I would cry so easily. I know I displayed my emotions with childlike ease. When I'm sad, I'd cry. When I'm happy, I'd laugh and smile.

But the story in "The Wedding " somehow reflects what would happened to me in the future. The woman described in the novel is almost similar to myself. From personality and to some characters. And also something else.

Also because of what I'm in right now is almost like in the story. Yeah, the life after marriage can be devastating sometimes when things fallen apart and something else.

Because our "story" almost similar, it makes me wanting to finish "The Wedding " as soon as possible. Hope I'd never cry too much. Yesterday's already made my eyes looks so freaking puffy. Too much crying makes you looked uglier.:(
Wished I'm not that kind of girl who cried so easily. :(

Well, let's wait till I finished reading it so that I can give a review bout that novel:)
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Fear

Feeling scared? Insecure.... afraid of falling.
Hmmm... anyway, what if a wrong decision makes a healthier relationship? Reluctant to do so, but.will be trying hard to accept the consequences. There's always a risk in every single thing. Well, maybe what this phrase that my dad said to me before was true. And yeah, I realized it was indeed true. Everything, everywhere, there's always a risk. Don't be fear of taking risks. It may turn out to be good to you. :)
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Thursday, July 26, 2012

Fresh Spring Look



OMGosh...I wonder where to get ÔSCILLATION INTENSITY Power Mascara?? It looks cool...:\

DIY Ice Cucumber Pads (bye bye puffy eyes)



Cool~~I guessed now I can save up from buying eye masks...:)

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Stop Your Judgements

Last few days, saw a post on Stomp about the confession of a sex addict. Without analyzing why a person became like that, people started flaming at her and called her "whore". And also an episode from "House" where the girl's classmates laughing at her for being fat. It's in everyone's nature to judge people, huh? People just don't realize how calling people names and making fun of people hurts people's feelings.

Stop judging people when you know little about them. Don't think that you know everything when you actually know less bout them. Calling people whore, fat, ugly...Don't you know it's hurting?

Before you judge people, please make sure that you're PERFECT.


Saturday, July 21, 2012

Wide Awake

Trying hard to sleep but still feeling awake. I know it must be those thoughts of fears making me wide awake. Close my eyes, and the thoughts came. It's not easy to shook them off right ??
Or is it because I've been sleeping late the last few days?

Scan my brain through fMRI perhaps would show that my brain is actively thinking. Oh, those useless scary thoughts. Wished I can somehow just make you vanish the moment you appears so that I'd be able to have a good night's sleep.

Go away thoughts. Let me have a good night's rest. Let me have a good sleep.
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Thursday, July 19, 2012

Heora - Under The Moonlight 달빛이 지고 The Moon Embraces The Sun OST [Hangul...




Looks like my addiction come back. When I watched any Korean dramas, I would fall in love with their soundtracks...Currently desperately downloading their songs :)

Really Want a Getaway Trip after grad...

The thoughts of hectic working life after graduation freaks me out a lil. Okay, I know I still have a year before I graduate, but...I really wanna enjoy life before I start working for I know that there will be minimal chance for me to do what I wanted when I started working... :(

I wanna go horse riding, sunbathing on the beach in bikini (where no one knows me xD), go for an elephant ride like Jane from Tarzan, banana boat (but also kinda afraid if I would fall into the sea :\ ), spa, massage, etc...Sigh...

I was thinking of Singapore's neighbouring country like Bintan, Batam, Bali, ....
Hmm...sudden thoughts came into mind as I couldn't sleep yesterday. Probably because I was trying to keep awake when I was sleepy till I can't sleep. :\

Considering mum seldom get the chances of travelling, makes me wondered if she would be willing to go with me if I found good deals... xDD
But...she still can't travel to Singapore alone. Aiyorrrr.. :\
Arghhh...my mind felt so fahn.... :(

DEAR JI MUIS,
Your all wanna go together?? xDDD
Must start saving up money I guessed... :\
I think more people would be fun, but not too much. Around 6-7 would probably do fine. :)

Or else....
Backup plans would be...like my cousin sister...travel alone lo... :)

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Finally a cleaned fan

Thanks dear a lot for offering to help to clean the fan.
It was freaking dirty and you can actually judge it by the pictures below.

At last, I've got a cleaned fan and lesser dust environment. My roommate should thank him lo. Anyway, still hope she at least spot the difference. Cause I paid more and yet I'm the one had to do the cleaning.

Today we cleaned the fan and also changed the bed sheet and pillow case. Not to mention that we also swept the floor and I've just changed the dustbin plastic bag. Not sure how she stay with the overflooded dustbin, but since I really can't stand things becoming over untidy, I had to take the initiative to replace the dustbin with a new plastic bag. Everything looks fresher and cleaner:)


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Not sure if am I really dumb or what...
Paid 60% of the hostel vacation stay fee when I actually stayed almost the same amount of time with my roommate, but yet, I had to do most of the work..
Is not that I wanted to complain bout things, but shouldn't she at least tidy up her place?
I thought I was already an untidy person, but to be honest, I think she's a lil too much than me?

Well, most of the time, I was the one sweeping the floor. And she never actually sweep the floor. Okay, once, but it's only the area where her study table is. Okay, this one I don't complain.

Secondly, because of her dusty room and I really couldn't stand of the dust because of my allergies, I helped her changed and washed the bed sheet. Hey, it was freaking $2 okay. Not for free! >.<  This one I still keep to myself. Well, my bf knows it because I complained to him. :\

And now, I think I need to clean the fan as well? Oh well. I really got so shocked when I saw freaking thick dusts ON THE BED!!!!! >.<   What if in the midnight I slept and those huge thick dust fell on me???!!! I had super allergic skin (which I don't really like too) and now this is really bothering me! I'm not even sure if I feel safe to sleep on that bed, and I can't off the fan neither because her room was FREAKING HOT!  >.<
But....I can't reach the fan....T_____T

I'm not sure how am I supposed to clean the fan? :'(   And this also means that, I don't get to sleep on the bed till I found a way to clean those fans...T___T

Monday, July 16, 2012

3-days with HIM :)

12/7 - We went for our Korean BBQ+Steamboat buffet. He came over to my place after he collect his Matric card in school. Initially, the day before we planned to go UHC to enquire the doctor about the medication before our buffet. But time was rushing for us, and I received sis's Whatsapp asking me to try the medication for another day first to see if I completely recovered and if not, only go and see the doctor.
So, we went for our buffet at about 12pm in Toa Payoh. :)

Not sure if he eats less or I ate more. Hahahaha...But he said that he ate alot. Hmmm...  :)
Here's our photos:

*The "I-want-to-pang-sai-look". Hahahahaha!



After buffet, we went to Gardens By the Bay~~ Hehehehe...

*On the way...So we "zhi pai" in front of the mirrors..xD


At the Gardens by the Bay...










13/7 - We went to watch Spiderman 3 with his friends at Ang Mo Kio. :)   Spiderman 3 was a great movie in my opinion. There are parts that are really really funny as well as the near-end part that made you feel anxious to know what's happening and also some sad part.

14/7- We went for National Day Parade~~ Hehehe...It's my first time to watch a National Day Parade in my life. Most of the time, I've only get to watch in TV. It's really nice, and also very nice to have him beside me. :)  Before NDP, we ate at Manhattan. Oh God, it costed a lot. :(   But it's the first time someone pampering, allowing me to eat whatever I want and still doesn't complain. I'm actually very touched. Seeing him loving me, I felt very lucky. I'm really lucky to have him in my life. Really really lucky.

At Manhattan:


Yummy seafood platter...With the prawns in flame. xD

Here we are finally at the Yellow Seats, waiting for the NDP to start :)















The end of the day~~ Miss him though.. :(

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Bored and Lonely

Wondered what are you doing and where you are....Thought of messaging you but afraid I'll disturb your work...
So I waited and waited...

Well, I guessed I'll wait till I fell asleep.
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